Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

LameWolf

Welcome, dane-katie.

Sorry to hear that the docs etc aren't being a lot of help. It can be difficult, I know. Dreams, eh? Not pleasant, I'll bet, and I can certainly relate to that.

I don't have any wondrous words of wisdom - I'm just a long-term depression sufferer myself - but you can come here and scream as loud as you want to, whenever you want to.

Meanwhile, please keep resisting those voices. Is there a different doctor you can see? I daresay you've already thought of that.

I see that you posted late-ish last night - I'm not usually online til about midday (lupus-induced fatigue and all that jazz), so I'm sorry I didn't see your post til just now.

I hope today is a good day for you, and look forward to "chatting" with you some more.

System

arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh *stressed*
have just got that ESA questionnaire thingy through

if i fill it in wrong i'm screwed it really isn't written for people with mental health probs

veggyboy

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

arrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh *stressed*
have just got that ESA questionnaire thingy through

if i fill it in wrong i'm screwed it really isn't written for people with mental health probs

hey MessedUp

Just take your time, do a section per day. It's not written for anyone with a physical ilness either. I have just had to fill a second one, so I know what you are going through.
When you have finished, get someone to read through it before you send it. And make sure you photocopy it too.

dane-katie

I had that a while ago and struggled, just write it as if you are on your bad days (i have good and bad) since i filled mine in, i have got worse, i have had my medical 6 weeks ago but no answer as of yet, i had to fill mine in a bit at a time and really struggled, but if you need any help just shout

dane-katie

Lamewolf, thanks for that, yeah can be horrible dreams and i struggle with them, i have been ok for a few days and luckily the voices have not been around, they seem to be here when i am down.

I have seen 3 or 4 different doctors but it takes so much for me to go in the first place that i give up on the idea of going all together.

I have so much on my mind to do with my medical results etc that i get all panicy and then cant go out, one day i will be free

veggyboy

am realy sorry to add to the woes that we all seem to be suffering at the mo.

I went back to the hospital last week for a follow up on my heart op. It's not good news, it has not worked, actually made things a bit worse, I am unable to do as much as I could before the op.
I now have 2 weeks to decide if I want to just struggle on slowely getting worse untill the inevitable happens, could be less than a year or could be longer, apparently Its hard to say. Or I can start the whole transplant assesment and build my hopes up again for a few months while I find out if I am suitable.
What concerns me is, 50% of transplant reciprents live for a year to 2 years. Is it worth going through all that just for a little time (pain discomfort, worries etc). On the plus side some live for 20 + years (my aunties Crdiologist at Q E hosp in Brum had his over 20 years ago).
I know it a no brainer realy, but just not in a good place at the mo to think about it.

HUGS to all who are suffering at the mo, I know how you feel.

LameWolf

Veggyboy, I'm so sorry it wasn't good news. I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. I certainly wouldn't want to have to make that sort of decision.

I wish there was something I could do to help you. ((((HUGS)))) anyway - hopefully that will help, at least.

black_paw

LameWolf wrote: »

Veggyboy, I'm so sorry it wasn't good news. I can't begin to imagine what you're going through. I certainly wouldn't want to have to make that sort of decision.

I wish there was something I could do to help you. ((((HUGS)))) anyway - hopefully that will help, at least.

oh dear veggyboy mega hugs for you ..as you now have a lot of worry .. have made you a piping hot coffee and jam sandwich in the cafe .

black_paw

dane-katie wrote: »

I had that a while ago and struggled, just write it as if you are on your bad days (i have good and bad) since i filled mine in, i have got worse, i have had my medical 6 weeks ago but no answer as of yet, i had to fill mine in a bit at a time and really struggled, but if you need any help just shout

it more of a worry waiting for the outcome in the little brown envelope from the postie. mega hugs for you , and hope this day is better

pipkin71

Hope no-one minds me jumping in on the thread.

I'm having quite a tough time today :(:(

My hands are so painful - especially first thing in the morning, and it takes a while for them to have some sort of flexibility.

I'm so tired of having to deal with all the little problems that arise from my main health issue, having to live with popping pills to avoid the chronic pain that never quite seems to go away, increasing pills to disguise what's going on internally and it all just seems too much today

As much as I try to look at positives, it doesn't always work , and not being one to burden others I deal with things the best way I know how.

The black mood I feel surrounding me today seemed heavier as I had to rely on DD to open a can of beans, because I couldn't operate the opener, nor could I unlock the window and everything seems so unfair

Sorry for the intrusion Life really does know how to knock you back at times