Black Dog of Depression - can we help each other?

black_paw

LameWolf wrote: »

Good point, and something we all need reminding of now and then!


Now, that's something I didn't know.... thanks for the heads-up!

I have some good news for a change; I've been accepted as a dog-sitter for a company that offers an alternative to puttting dogs in kennels while their family go on holiday. Basically, I'll be having clients' dogs to stay with me in my bungalow. I've said I can only take quiet-natured dogs (probably specialising in older dogs) and they must be able to walk beside a mobility scooter. It's all ad-hoc, and I don't know how often I'll be called on - but HEY, something useful to do.:j

wow what lucky dogs to have you for a loving mum.on holiday well done , shame i live in flat with no garden as i would love to do that. looking forward to your stories to come.:T:T

veggyboy

Can't beleive I am posting on here again, Went to GP this morning, about as usefull as an ashtray on a motor bike. Prescribed sleeping pills, but said I would probably wake up at about 4 or 5 am on them, who wants to be awake at that hour? Doesn't help with the depression either.
I went to see her as I am getting more down by the day, 2 weeks ago she offered tablets and I said no thanks.
I have recentrly had an angiograplasty and double stent (diagnosed with heart failure and stable angina) Stents were actually in the heart, not arteries leading too. My consultant said not to work and she would review in August and decide if I could ever work again. Gp said I should have had an appointment back at hosp by now and should phone to check. When I phoned hosp, my consultants secretary said "Oh no you dont come back after a stent"
I feel like they have tinkered around and then just dumped me and I have wasted my time going through all of it.
You don't get over heart failure and my diagnosis was 5 years max, so how can they do all they have done and then dump me like that?
My Gp doesn't seem to beleive they diagnosis from the Consultant and put on my file that "I was under the impression that I would need a transplant"
That was one of the options the consultant gave me and I had someone with me at the time so I know I am not completely mad and imagined the consultant saying that.
Forgive the rample but I needed to talk with someone and am not very good face to face.

LameWolf

(((((Veggyboy))))) I don't have any words of wisdom for you I'm afraid, but will a Wolfy HUG be of any use?

I've got to dash off in a mo as Mr LW will be in for his dins any second; maybe someone else will come along with something more helpful.

At any rate, hang in there mate; there's people on here rooting for you.:o

Breast_Cancer_Survivor

xXMessedUpXx wrote: »

Does anyone else not feel "worthy" of help? I can't work and now have no job so i basically have no money but can't find the motivation to fill in forms and apply for benefits. I feel like i'm not ill enough. That there are people worse off than me. That i don't deserve the help. I feel like people are looking at me and thinking i should be working so even if i did apply for help they'd grass me up as a benefit cheat even though i do need the help. I'm so paranoid about it all.

i keep thinking whats the point? i can't afford to live so i shouldnt be here. i mentioed to the gp last time i saw her that i felt i was getting really down again but she told me i just need to wait for my new meds to kick in. they seem to be doing sweet f.a.

someone please tell me this will get better? having suffered from depression half my life i'm struggling to see myself ever free of it (or the borderline personality disorder)

Hi there, im so sorry you feel so low & totally understand how lost you feel.

I suffered from depression for 7 years & despite how many different types of anti-depressant I took it never eased, id even been told by my pychiatrist that I had a personality disorder too.

In 2006 I was finally diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome (a form of higher functioning Autism).

There is an online test you can do to see if you have any Autistic traits: http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/9.12/aqtest.html

If you score over 32 maybe you could print out the results & take them to your GP so that you could be referred to a specialist for official diagnosis.

Being diagnosed could lead to you receiving the help & financial support you need.

mymonkeylife

Hi VB. I'm afraid that I have no medical insight either........I just hope that it works out in a way that will make you feel relaxed and calmer. Not an easy task, I know.

Breast Cancer Survivor - I don't mean to take anything away from your post, but online diagnosis can be dangerous. Be careful with it.

I'm seeing my GP tomorrow. It's only for a repeat prescription......but I need to ask for help. When it comes to professionals (and friends and family for that matter) I automatically pretend that everything is ok. In reality......I'm not. I used to feel that I was screaming inside.....but now it's more like weeping.

I used to have a sharp mind, but now I feel that it's become dull and blunt. I want me back. x.

earthmother

mymonkeylife wrote: »

When it comes to professionals (and friends and family for that matter) I automatically pretend that everything is ok. In reality......I'm not. I used to feel that I was screaming inside.....but now it's more like weeping.

I used to have a sharp mind, but now I feel that it's become dull and blunt. I want me back. x.

Strikes a familiar chord.

Still no closer to going back to my GP. I'm keeping a diary of sorts - I'm up and down like a yoyo at times with it, so it should make interesting reading should I ever get the nerve to show it.

Not doing too bad right now - odd moments, but they are shorts spells not the days and weeks I was having a few months ago - yet another reason for me to put off the GP :rolleyes:

LameWolf

It does say in the blurb that the test is not for making a diagnosis, but it's interesting to get an insight into oneself. I did it more out of curiosity than anything, and scored 41.:eek:
Going to sit under the table and chew a slipper now.....:D

mymonkeylife

Sorry Lame Wolf, it was never my intention to criticise......I just know from my own experiences that, with these online tests, it's easy to categorise ourselves.

Anyway, is it a big table and do you have a spare slipper?

LameWolf

mymonkeylife wrote: »

Sorry Lame Wolf, it was never my intention to criticise......I just know from my own experiences that, with these online tests, it's easy to categorise ourselves.

Anyway, is it a big table and do you have a spare slipper?

If I move the boxes of computer paper there's probably room for you, but you have to bring your own slipper.:D:D:D

black_paw

you can come out now ! come to take you home !