Depression Support Thread

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razorbladekisses wrote: »

I really can't believe it. My Mum has returned home because the man that she was with has left her. This is the second time she's had an affair and the second time she's come back. I can't even look at her, let alone speak to her. I feel so sorry for my Dad because I just think she will do it again at some point and she's told us so many lies it's difficult to know what to believe. It was only 2 weeks ago she got my Dad arrested for taking some of her CD's :mad: She's said and done so much to hurt us all I just can't bear to stay living at home if she's here. Money is a problem, I just don't have enough spare cash to move out. I don't know what to do maybe my social worker can advise.

Hi RBK,

So sorry to hear about what's happening at home for you. Sounds a really awful situation to be in.

Just hope tonight goes ok for you and 2009 is a much better year,

A x

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
Well, well, well - look what the Tiffster has found...

'' Badger Sleep Balm

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Yeah, right!
That gilly-brocky-badgie is up to no good again peeps. Trying to make out that he's gone all respectable with our lovely sazzy indeed. And if he tries to sell you a bridge, just say no!
Wishing our favourite sazzy and badgie a very loved-up 2009.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi lm!
I know you're probably in the arms of dear sam as we speak, but I want a word with you missy!
Just what do you mean by posting this...

lm wrote:

I feel not good enough. Not pretty enough. Not smart enough. Not nice or kind enough. Not special enough.

lm wrote:

I desperately want to be good enough. Sam tells me that I am more than good enough but I don't know. It's not to do with how he makes me feel because he makes me feel great. I've always been told that I am ugly and fat, and will never be good for anyone - that no one will ever love me, but I know my Sam loves me. I just wonder how long I'll be good enough for, but that's to do with how I feel about myself.

I feel so talentless. I used to think I was maybe a good photographer or digital artist but now I'm not so sure. I have nothing that I can say "Oh, I'm good at so and so". Although, Sam said that I should start a band because I am a talented vocalist (HAHA!). It isn't the first time that's been said to me but because I am a great music lover, they could just be saying it to not hurt my feelings. Sam is a brilliant musician though and I know he wouldn't lie as he takes music very seriously, but I just don't know.
I have decided that I am going to save up to have rhinoplasty - not because I'm vain, but because my nose is the main reason I hate my face. I'm okay with the other features (pretty much). Just my nose and my dad's are akmost indentical and looking at myself in the mirror is like looking at him - and he is a twazock. My nose is the only thing I want done, and Sam is backing me.Not because he wants me to change or anything but he knows how much my nose knocks my confidence.
Anyway, having a low evening, I'll hopfully be okay tomorrow. xx

You better be thankful that the wonderful peeps on here got to you before I did...mutter, mutter...littering our thread with such nonsense indeed!

I'm glad you felt better after you vented lm, because we both know that these statements aren't true!
I know you're a creative writer like myself hunnie, so allow me show you the Tiffy version of 'It's A Wonderful Life' - courtesy of your very own keyboard!

Cue dreamy music and fake snow...

lm wrote:

20-08-2008, 4:55 PM #57

lm wrote:

Haha, I'm just remembering my doctor's reaction this morning when we were discussing something medical. She said I knew more about the condition than she does. That made me feel quite knowledgeable, and it wasn't even a mental health condition.

I hold onto little things like that. They keep me going.
xx

lm wrote:

29-08-2008, 10:54 AM #323

lm wrote:

Heya everyone.

I woke up not feeling too great but I needed gas and electricity so decided to walk to the local Co-Op, but I needed to take money out. Then on the ATM screen it said cash isn't available at the moment. Grr. I shall either go back down later today to check again or go down tomorrow.
I'm not going to go to the drop in today. I really don't feel up to it.
When I got back from the shop, I had a letter waiting for me. It was a letter telling me I'm getting published in my 10th poetry book, with my poem "What Mental Illness Feels Like". It cheered me up.
I hope you're all okay today.

lm wrote:

07-09-2008, 12:43 AM #506

lm wrote:

You know, if I lived near you I would be coming over right now with some chocolates, tissues and some girly films and many hugs. I can only do virtual hugs though. ((((hugs))))

You'll get there one day hun. We need some sunshine too. No chance of getting any here.
I feel like my heart is breaking all over again today but I'll be okay.

lm wrote:

06-10-2008, 1:35 PM #1044

lm wrote:

"You miss 100% of the shots you never take". I've been living by that quote for the past week.lol.

No worries about the BPD thing.

lm wrote:

23-10-2008, 9:27 AM #1456

lm wrote:

Good morning (even though it is a freezing one and I'm in bed not wanting to brave the world.lol.)

Gemma is coming tomorrow now.Although it took her a lot of faffing about yesterday to actually tell me that.lol.
I was talking to Sam and Sam said that I shouldn't just revolve my life around other people and drop my plans for them. =/
Gemma knows about Sam, but she's jealous. Gemma is in love with me, but I don't reciprocate those feelings. I want Gemz and Sam here for my birthday but Gemma is throwing a hissy fit about it. I don't know what to do for the best. I think in the end I may just be like "I'll spend my birthday alone then"........ Sam says that no matter how much she tries to start an argument, he's not going to give into it.
I've been trying to be really nice about it. Trying to make her feel comfortable with everything but eventually I am going to be in a relationship, and all I can think about now is how much it's going to hurt her......
....... I'm one confused mouse, I can tell you. Wondering why I said mouse? Well, Sam has nicknamed me Annimouse. Lol!
Tiff, I know you're thread cat, but please don't eat me.
Things with Sam are great at the moment. Although, I was having a bad night last night on webcam having flashbacks and crying....but he didn't walk away or anything...he pulled funny faces on webcam to cheer me up.lol. It worked, actually!
Anyway, this has been on long post. I'm sorry. I hope you all have a good day.

lm wrote:

11-10-2008, 6:47 AM #1126

lm wrote:

I am full of photography ideas!

I am also still smiling after last night. Haha. =D

lm wrote:

20-10-2008, 1:10 PM #1398

lm wrote:

Hello. :wave:

I've just ordered my first DSLR. I am so excited.
Apart from that I feel crap, but I'm holding on to the little things.

lm wrote:

13-11-2008, 4:31 PM #1781

lm wrote:

((((hugs)))) Atomised.

Welcome to the thread hippychick! :wave: I'm Anni.
Not sure how today is going so far. =/ On the plus side my hair is all soft and lovely, and smells awesome. My hair is like my trademark. :rotfl:
Sam text me earlier to ask how I was and he hopes I'm better etc, bless him. It's little things like that that really mean a lot to me.
Going to go to the drop in tomorrow. Hm!

lm wrote:

13-11-2008, 8:53 PM #1785

lm wrote:

Haii guys! :wave:

Day has turned out okay. Spoke to Sam and Gemz earlier. I'm really looking forward to my birthday. Never really looked forward to a birthday before as all my previous ones have been ruined in one way or another, so I'm hoping this year will be different.
Hopefully Gemz will be coming on the Friday after my birthday and then we can hit Cambridge on the Saturday. Eeek...me in Cambridge! This is going to be a challenge, but one which I am willing to undertake.
Really looking forward to some retail therapy tomorrow. My goodness, I need it. I've been doing well with some things lately (even Sam said he's proud of me. *faints*). Ordered my birthday outfit yesterday. Here it is incase anyone wants to see it: http://direct.asda.com/Lace-Top-Dres...efault,pd.html

I can't believe I'm going to be 22. If truth be told, I didn't think I'd make it this far in life, but I'm glad I have. I never want to revisit the month of August mental heath wise. That month was hell. Heck, sometimes I do still feel like that, but being on the psych ward made me realise that I actually do have great friends and people who care about me. So, I might not be able to just pop around for a cuppa as distance is an issue, but just because you can't see your friends, it doesn't mean that they're not there.

This year has been a very hard one - very very hard. First, my ex split up with me on New Years Day (was horrific at the time but a blessing in disguise as he was mentally and physically abusive towards me), then there was the whole agoraphobia and anxiety thing (which I still have but it's better now - even if it is still somewhat bad.lol), then the diagnoses, then finding out who my real friends were...turns out they weren't who I thought they were, then the stuff with Karl, then the psych ward, then the massive fall out with my family, and we're not even at the end of 2008 yet! But, it hasn't all been bad. I started this photography course, I've made quite a few online friends this year, Sam and I started talking more (and you all know about how things are going there. ), my artistic abilities have somewhat grown, and I like to think that I have grown as a person too. A lot has happened this year, but I'm too stubborn to give in....even after my little blip in August.lol. There are three choices in life: give up, give in, and give it your all, and I've decided that I wouldn't live up to my reputation of being stubborn if I gave in now, would I? So I'm going to give it my all. :)So, anyway.I hope you are all okay. Be good and stay safe.

lm wrote:

17-11-2008, 7:07 PM #1832

lm wrote:

I feel ecstatic! I have this euphoria in me that wants to burst out.lol. I know that it's not going to take everything away. Sam isn't like a magic wand.lol. but he certainly helps. :j:j:j:j

lm wrote:

17-12-2008, 10:51 PM #20

lm wrote:

Quote:

Originally Posted by fairydawn
Hi all, hope you are all well.
Anni 2009 is going to be a great year :j

D x

I hope so.
I'm moving to Bristol next year.:j
Surprisngly Janette is saying go for it.LOL.
New year, new start being around someone who loves me.
xx

Okay, okay - turn the ruddy snow off!

What I've shown here hunnie, are random snapshots of the last 4 months from your life in 2008. You can see the pattern lm - there have been some very real lows but there have been some lovely highs too.

It goes to prove, not just to lm but to all of us, that nothing stays the same, not even the bad times. Any one of us could have a similar selection from our posts and it proves the same thing. For every low, there can be a high and it's because the lows are so hard that they blur whatever good times that we did have in our year.

So, when we're down to our last inch of strength trying to get us through a crisis, why not check your posts from the last 12 months and take strength from them, because they illustrate your own records of hope.

And that, my darling Tifflings, is my wish for you all in 2009.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
As I've just done 'It's A Wonderful Life', I thought I'd have a go at 'A Christmas Carol' too. Here is an extract from the diary of Samuel Pepys at Christmas 1662.....

Pepys' Christmas, 1662
The naval administrator and Member of Parliament Samuel Pepys (1633-1703) is most famous as keeper of a frank and remarkably detailed diary from 1660-69. In it, he recorded his experiences of the Great Plague (1665), the Dutch War (1665-67), and the Great Fire of London (1666). But it also contains a wealth of material about Pepys' personal and family life.
Having accompanied King Charles II on his return from exile in 1660, Pepys' career began to make progress and he was appointed Clerk of the Acts to the Navy Board. By Christmas 1662 he and his family were relatively comfortably off.
This account was given by Samuel Pepys in his diary.

Samuel Pepys celebrates Christmas, 1662

''24 December 1662
This evening Mr Gauden [Sir Dennis Gauden, Victualler of the Navy] sent me, against Christmas, a great Chine of beefe and three dozen of Toungs. I did give 5s to the man that brought it and half-crown to the porters. This day also, the parish Clerke brought the general bill of Mortality, which cost me half-Crowne more.''

''Christmas day
Up pretty early, leaving my wife not well in bed. And with my body walked, it being a most brave cold and dry frosty morning, and had a pleasant walk to Whitehall; where I entended to have received the Comunion with the family, but I came a little too late. So I walked up into the house and spent my time looking over pictures, particularly the ships in King H the 8ths voyage to Bullen – marking the difference between their build then and now. By and by down to the Chappell again, where Bishop Morley preached upon the Song of the Angels – “Glory to God on high – on earth peace, and good will towards men.” Methought he made but a poor sermon, but long and reprehending the mistaken jollity of the Court for the true joy that shall and ought to be on these days. Perticularized concerning their excess in playes and gameing, saying that he whose office it is to keep the Gamesters inorder and winin bounds serves but for a second rather in a Duell, meaning the Groome porter. Upon which, it was worth observing how far they are come from taking the Reprehensions of a Bishop seriously, that they all laugh in the chapel when he reflected on their ill actions and courses. The sermon done, a good Anthemne followed, with vials; and then the King [Charles II] came down to receive the Sacrament, but I stayed not; but calling my boy from my Lord's lodging and giving Sarah some good advice, by my Lord's order, to be Sober and look after the house, I walked home again with great pleasure; and there dined by my wife's bedside with great content, having a mess of brave plum-porridge and a roasted Pullett for dinner; and I sent for a mince-pie abroad, my wife not being well to make any herself yet. After dinner, sat talking a good while with her, her [pain] becoming less, and then to see Sir W Penn a little; and so to my office, practising arithmetique alone with great content, till 11 at night; and so home to supper and to bed.''

'' 26 December
Up. My wife to the making of Christmas-pies all day, being now pretty well again. And I abroad to several places about small business; among others, bought a bake pan in Newgate market and sent it home; it cost me 16s. Then to [Mr Moore at] the Wardrobe, who is not yet well. Hither came Mr Battersby; and we falling into a discourse of a new book of Drollery in a verse called Hudebras, I would needs go find it out; and met with it at the Temple, cost me 2s – 6d. But when I came to read it, it is so silly an abuse of the Presbyter-Knight going to the warrs, that I am ashamed of it; and by meeting at Mr Townsends at dinner, I sold it to him for 18d.''

It paints a beautiful picture, doesn't it? I wonder what will be written by our Spirit of Christmas Present about us, for future generations.
I don't think ''a mess of brave plum-porridge'' will still be on the menu somehow.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Tiff_2

Hi guys!
Many of us joke that they ought to ban Christmas, that it doesn't have any real meaning anymore. I happened across this article which shows that this actually did happen once upon a time in our history...

The Puritan Ban On Christmas.

''In 1644, Oliver Cromwell enforced an Act of Parliament banning Christmas celebrations. Christmas was regarded by the Puritans as a wasteful festival. Consequently, all activities relating to Christmas, including attending mass, were forbidden.
Not surprisingly, the ban was hugely unpopular and many people continued to celebrate Christmas secretly. The Puritan War on Christmas lasted until 1660. Under the Commonwealth, mince pies, holly and other popular customs fell victim to the spirited Puritan attempt to eradicate every last remnant of merrymaking during the Christmas period.

In the first half of the 17th century, Christmas was an important religious festival and a time when the English population would indulge in a variety of traditional pastimes. The 25th December was a public holiday, during which all places of work closed and people attended special church services. The next eleven days included additional masses, with businesses open sporadically and for shorter hours than usual. During the twelve days of Christmas, buildings were dressed with rosemary, holly and ivy and families attended Christmas Day mass. As well as marking the day's religious elements, there was also non-stop dancing, singing, drinking, exchanging of presents and stage plays. The population indulged in feasts of roast beef, plum porridge, minced pies and special ale. Twelfth Night, the final day of celebration, often saw a fresh bout of feasting and carnivals.

It's no surprise that the daily celebrations often led to drunkenness, promiscuity, gambling and other forms of excess. Sixteenth and seventeenth century Puritans frowned on what they saw as a frenzy of disorder and disturbance. In the Late 1500's, Philip Stubbes, a strict protestant expressed the Puritan view in his famed book The Anatomie of Abuses, when he noted:
''More mischief is that time committed than in all the year besides ... What dicing and carding, what eating and drinking, what banqueting and feasting is then used ... to the great dishonour of God and the impoverishing of the realm.''

As well as disliking the waste and debauchery that went along with the celebration of Christmas, they banned the immoral celebration of Christmas -- as well as Easter, Whitsun and saints' days. Preferring to call the period Christ-tide, and thus removing the Catholic 'mass' element, the Puritans reasoned that it should remain only as a day of fasting and prayer. As control passed to the Long Parliament in the mid 1600's, Parliament set in motion their idea of completely eradicating the celebration of Christmas.

In January 1645 parliament enlisted the help of a group of ministers to create a Directory of Public Worship establishing that the population was to strictly observe Sundays as holy days and were not to recognise other festival days, including Christmas. In 1647, Parliament passed an Ordinance affirming the abolition of the feasts of Christmas, Easter and Whitsun.

Enjoyment for enjoyments sake was highly disapproved of by the Puritans. Cromwell ordered for inns and playhouses to be shut down, most sports were banned and those caught swearing would receive a fine. Women caught working on the Sabbath could be put in the stocks. All shops and markets were to stay open throughout the 25th December and anyone caught holding or attending a special Christmas church service would suffer a penalty. In the city of London things were even stricter as soldiers were ordered to patrol the streets, seizing any food they discovered was being prepared for a Christmas celebration.
Despite the threat of fines and punishment many people continued to celebrate Christmas clandestinely. The ban had never been popular and many people still held mass on the 25th December to mark Christ's nativity also marked the day as a secular holiday. In the late 1640s Cromwell tried to put a stop to these public celebrations and force businesses to stay open. As a result, violent encounters took place between supporters and opponents of Christmas in many towns, including London, Canterbury and Norwich.''

Ironically, now we can't get the shops to close and the violent encounters are all taking place in the queues!:rolleyes:

But my question to you is this -
Was this the first real MSE Christmas?!

Wishing all well, for 2009.
Much Love,
Tiff xxx

Elmostreet

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
I HOPE THIS A BRILLIANT BRILLIANT YEAR FOR YOU ALL!
A SPECIAL MENTION TO KATIE WHO ALWAYS CHEERS ME UP WITH HER LOVELY POSTS!:beer::beer::beer::A:A:A:j:j:j

maytaurus

Tiff_2

Hi guys!

Much Love,
Tiff xxx

BizzyBek

Happy New Year everyone xx

absolutebounder

Happy new year to all. (sorry its late, just got up, busy time of year for a bounder:rotfl: )
Just remember when you are at the bottom the only way is up. make sure you go up in 2009.