Depression Support Thread

PinkTwirl

Thanks.

I'm down at the moment because countless people I meet ask me for my number with the crap that comes out of their mouths "yeah, we will need to meet up, give me your number!!!". Why is it then I never hear from them again, only have 8 people in this world, including 3 family members that give a stuff about me, and spend every weekend in on my own. At 31 I'm told that is not a life, well !!!!!! do they expect me to do about it? Stalk people? I have more pride than that!

Been single almost 3 years now. Spend about £20K because I had no one to "play" with at weekends. Feeling down. Don't see the point anymore.

Sssssss

The BIGGEST hug to PinkTwirl and a group hug to all those in need of.

I'm hitting the road now to visit family who I've not seen for over 6 months, everyone is getting on a bit now and some family members are ill, I don't how I'm going to find them. But I'm sure every1 is going to be happy to see us, especially my son, the baby of the family.

See you all in 2009 WOW how time flies so please all make the most of it.

BizzyBek

PinkTwirl wrote: »

Why is it then I never hear from them again, only have 8 people in this world, including 3 family members that give a stuff about me, and spend every weekend in on my own. At 31 I'm told that is not a life, well !!!!!! do they expect me to do about it? Stalk people? I have more pride than that!

Been single almost 3 years now. Spend about £20K because I had no one to "play" with at weekends. Feeling down. Don't see the point anymore.

One thing I have learnt on this fascinating journey called life - if you can count your real friends on one hand you are lucky! Also no-one tells you it is really hard making friends after about age 12! You'll find SO many people on these boards saying they get to 30, 40, 50 and realise they are lonely, perhaps just them and a partner.

We work hard at our careers etc but it's easy to think friends and partners just happened. Growing up I just assumed I'd find a man, marry, have family - I mean it just 'happens' to every one doesn't it? Nope!!

In 2009 I am making a concerted effort to put myself 'out there'. I do meet people but at this age (30s) you feel a bit of a muppet saying 'will you be my friend'. I'm off out for lunch in Jan with a load of people from the vets I use - always get on when I'm in there and I said in Summer, as I don't really know the area, were there any pub quizzes etc. From that we stay in touch and I consider them ood friends now :j

I think we grown ups could learn a lot from children!

LadyMorticia

Massive ((((hugs)))) to PinkTwirl.


Thank you everyone for your kind words.
BizzyBeck - I am a perfectionist.XD. But I also know that to be perfect means that you have nothing to strive for - no room for improvement and I just like improving myself. I always say that I may not be perfect but I'm perfect for Sam, and he thinks I'm amazing for some reason. XD He also thinks I'm so close to perfection it's scary. Haha. Suuuure! lol.

Going out again today with Kay. She's driving herself nuts inside, and so am I. We're going to hit the sales.
I'm also going to buy Sam's mum and dad a litle something just to say thank you for having me over New Year.

xx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope all is well,welcome Pinktwirl to the thread,I know the feeling,its the anti climax of christmas,I have been crying solidly for 2 days but I am feeling emotional at the moment and know why I am doing this as its part of life

Just said bye to my sister on phone this morning and to my brother yesterday,lucky thing is seeing New Year in in Australia,his girlfriend is Australian so is meeting up with her and seeing her family,doesnt get back to uk till Jan 15th,he flies out tonight and wont be in Australia until early Tuesday Morning as it takes a whole day to get there.

love and light,

Katie xxx

PinkTwirl

Even posting for simple advice on some of these forums is leading to getting abuse thrown at me. I feel really like ending it all at the moment. I don't feel like I can take it anymore.

whitevanwoman

PinkTwirl wrote: »

Even posting for simple advice on some of these forums is leading to getting abuse thrown at me. I feel really like ending it all at the moment. I don't feel like I can take it anymore.

Hang on in there. Take it hour by hour if necessary. That's what I'm doing at the moment. I'm just waiting for it to get dark and then it'll be nearly bedtime and then I can go to bed and hope to fall asleep and get some blessed relief. When you wake up, you will have got through another day and you might just feel a little bit better. If you don't feel better, do the same again. Just get through the hours as best you can. Eventually there comes a time when it is a little better.

I've had the worst christmas I can remember. I had some bad Christmases as a kid but the brain is good at blanking out unpleasant and traumatic memories so although I know I had bad times, thankfully I don't remember many details of them now. I'm hoping, in time, I'll forget what happened this year. My depression has hit me with a wallop and I am what my doc would call "in crisis" - have slept in same clothes for 3 days now, not bathed since xmas eve, not eaten since xmas day, unplugged the phone, switched off mobile, totally retreated from the world. There's no heating on in the house cos I can't afford coal & I don't have central heating. The only form of human interaction I can handle is through the anonymity of a forum with other strangers. There is no point in seeing the doc as there is nothing that anyone can do to help. It's simply a waiting game. I just have to wait until something happens that forces me out into the world or my mood improves.

Sorry to dump on you - I only really intended to give a bit of support to PinkTwirl - I know there's nothing I can do to help but maybe if you know that there are people out here who understand and have similar feelings to you, you might not feel so alone.

Take care, and hang on in there. I've been through this so many times that I know that it will eventually get a bit better but its the getting through it that's so hard. x

BizzyBek

PinkTwirl are you getting abuse on other threads on the forum? Just press the ignore button! No-one on here is perfect and especially in the tricky matter of finances some people on the anon of a forum means some people go over the top.

Cosy yourself up in a blanket and just take some time out.

Whitevanwoman you sound like you need an almighty hug :grouphug: If this is where you can face interaction, good! You will find this thread is like athlete's foot - we're hard to shake off :rotfl:

Sugar_Coated_Owl

Hello PinkTwirl welcome to the thread. Hope you find it helpful. Sorry to hear you're feeling down atm. I find making friends one of the hardest things in the world

Some of the boards seem to have a few nasty people on them. Just ignore them. You can always post here, we're nice

ilovegreatdanes :wave: It's nice to see you posting. Hope things are OK with you.

alba It's nice to see a post from you as well How was your Christmas?

rose Missed you. Where have you been? How was your Christmas? Hope your flu/chest infection clears up soon. Get lots of rest

LM You are such a pretty girl and your hair is lovely. You are definitely not fat at all. Since you met Sam I thought your confidence seemed to have improved so much. Maybe it's just a blip.
You are an amazing photographer and digital artist :T I've seen some of your work and it's great. You definitely have a talent there.

Re: rhinoplasty, just make sure you're emotionally and psychologically ready for it. Think it over and discuss it with people before going ahead with it. You're a sensible girl so i'm sure you'll make the right choice. If you go into it wanting it to improve your self-esteem rather than create it, you'll be OK

La-Cara Welcome to the thread. How are you feeling today?

BeachBeth Hope you are OK today.

Shazrobo Woud the boys sit down and watch a DVD together while you have a bit of me time? It's probably not that wasy but thought I'd try to help

Sssssss I hope you have a lovely time with your family. See you in 2009

Tulip Have a (((HUG))) Hope you feel better soon.

Wow, Australia! Your brother is very lucky

whitevanwoman (((HUGS))) So sorry to hear you're so low atm. Feel free to post on here as much as you want. I'm usually around if you ever need to talk. Have you ever been involved with the Crisis team?

shazrobo

big hugs to whitevanwoman, and pinktwirl, sounds like youboth need lots hugs right now.
i too find it really difficult in making friends, especially as i dont work, so i dont get out to meet people.
have you tried the crisis team, as rbk suggested, i have dealt with them in the past and they have been very helpful, and refered me onto different services for further treatment, which has helped.
just try and get through it one hour at a time.
at the moment i'm counting down the hours til sons are both in bed, and i can relax.
shaz xxx