ex and would be ex-gamblers support thread

samorgo

Hi cantcope,

Thanks so much for the positive thoughts. I've already had the sleepless nights especially when I reached only £1.76 in the bank with two weeks til payday! The thing that upsets me the most though is not the money but the person I have become - I'm embarressed, secretive, and to admit I'm an addict is really hard. I'm hoping that I can beat the addiction of gambling and food and save money on both to pay off the debts! I feel so much better just being able to be open with you on here - I think in my moments of weakness I will be back (so I apologise in advance if I babble!).

I wish it could all be sorted overnight but the thought of having a debt free Christmas in 2014 is exciting me already!
Thanks once again x

cantcope

Dont just come back in moments of weakness. Come and write as much as you like. it helps to put it in writing, like therapy.
This thread is full of peoplle who understand how addictive it is and how you can change from a "normal" person into someone you barely recognise let alone WANT to be.

glenpud

Hi.
I have now put the blocks on, and feeling good again about not gambling.
Seeing the sun shining makes me feel better and i am looking forward to a gamble free summer!!
Sorry for letting everyone down in the past, and obviously letting myself down too.
Lets hope things get better for all of us.
Have a good weekend

cantcope

Nice work Glenpud you havent let anyone on here down. We are all compulsive gamblers, which inevitably means we are all at risk of gambling. Its about putting the blocks in to help us stay off.

Have a great gamble free weekend everybody x

riquelme

hi all

apologies for not posting as much recently (stuff going on)

ok here, just. The reason why was that someone posted something about match betting being risk free and an easy way to make money. At the time i kept reading through the threads, then 2 days later that demon on my shoulder started whispering things to me about match betting and so i started to research it and considered registering with betting sites again. It was a close call and luckily i avoided it. Please can people be considerate as to what they post, ive gone 2 1/2 years without a bet yet it couldve all been undone within minutes. I know it wasnt said with the intention of promoting it but people need to realise that when in recovery from gambling addiction we dont want light bulb moments, we dont want any confirmation that we can win money because we cant we are rubbish gamblers

today, i will not gamble

have a good weekend people

cantcope

Nice post Riquel. Glad to hear you were strong enough to get through it without having a bet. You are right. We dont want to hear about easy ways to make money. thats what got us into trouble in the first place. Unless you are working hard for money, as a compulsive gambler thats the ONLY way to make money x

glenpud

Good morning everyone.
I have come into work this morning, then off to my mums to pick up a Football Shirt that i have won
Good luck to all on a gamble free weekend/rest of life. Hopefully i will enjoy the sun at some point today.
GP

bigloser

What an absolute idiot I am. I did it again after managing over a week without. I decided to take up a bonus that was emailed to me because it seemed like easy money, and doing it would have proved to me - get this - that I now have the control to accept profitable bonuses then cash out without carrying on. Yeah right.

Luckily it only cost me £100. I know £100 is a lot of money but I have done much worse in the past. The urge to chase my losses was just uncontrollable to me. I can't put a block on my PC because my husband would see it. I should have closed the rest of my accounts but didn't bother as I thought I had it under control. I will do that immediately.

Sitting down at the PC knowing I was about to gamble was so pleasurable. Almost euphoric. But now I feel like crap and I MUST keep remembering this horrible feeling to stop me doing it again. That and removing the temptation by closing all accounts. I hate myself right now.

Glenpud - very well done to you. Keep it up and PLEASE don't think you've got it beaten and can relax.

Samorgo - wow, your story just proves how even the biggest wins actually lead to even bigger losses. The very best of luck to you. I'm worried that you haven't posted on here since 15th - I hope that's not because you're gambling again. I would like to follow your story so please post on here daily. Or why not start up your own debt-free diary? I did, and while I was filling it in it kept me focussed and off gambling. Then a few days of not filling it in and I was gambling again. I'm going back to it now.......

cantcope

Sorry to hear you've gambled again bigloser. I hate to say it but reading your posts remind me I am NOT in control. I am a compulsive gambler and will never be able to gamble "normally" again. Once you accept that you have no control and you cant win (cant stop when winning, can't stop when losing" the easier it will be to stay away.

notriskfree

Hello everyone another one that fell of the wagon quite in style totally stupid but I can recall the feelings you write about biglooser before I was about to do it. I knew I shouldn't but I still did it. I now 100% know I cannot control it even if I win I cannot stop until its all gone. Put K9 on again if DH logs in and finds out I shall just have to fess up. He knows I don't do MB anymore. Got myself into some debt as well during my last bit of gambling madness will have to sort that out. Feel much better for having the block on so will try to keep on the straight and narrow from now on and post on here more often. Thanks all who have posted it is a great help.