Marriage over don't know where to start

Rikki

.........and be for you start pointing any fingers. I was on the naughty step sucking my thumb.

Rikki

beanielou wrote: »

Seems like its been p0ulled for some reason?

Sometimes they take the thread for close reading. If someone is concerned about content or intimidation. Its possible it will return soon.

dellybelly_2

bloody typical - you think you're moving forward and then something happens to knock you back lol!

scottishfreebiehunter

Rikki wrote: »

.........and be for you start pointing any fingers. I was on the naughty step sucking my thumb.

And I was away watching 80,s clips off tv programmes on you tube cheering myself and ds up and amused us no end,me thinking back to younger days and him at what i used to watch.
Had a little fit to myself this afternoon as calf muscles big due to swimming many years when younger and all flight socks in boots very tight so going to try order monday online
Actually really more upbeat tonight after watching that

wonder why thread pulled wasnt that baddefo looks as i gone as all posts deleted very odd.

bunty109

...it's either gone for good or will show up in the Arms like most of the threads on the Relationships board

julie2710

S**T!! I haven't been able to catch up with anything since Thursday night - was lookng forward to seeing what everyone's been up to and getting a bit of support (had 2 days from hell and really down and P**s*d off as feel crap now and was doing so well!) and everythings disappeared!!!!:mad:

Hope everyone is ok with everyone! My last couple of days go something like this (I'll try and keep it short!) Fri 1am DS had been awake 4 times within an hour and could hardly breath. Took him to local Hosp and spent 2 hours there. Got back home and to bed at 2.45am but didn't get much sleep. By 6am DS was up again struggling for breath and crying. Took him to A&E and ended up spending the whole day at hosp then he was admitted for the night. Let DH know what was happening and he eventually turned up late pm. My mum had come to hosp to be with me and DS. They had to get midwife down to check me over as was having some cramps and feeling faint and dizzy - she said everything seemed ok probably just tired! When DH came in I was on bed with DS so made out I was asleep. My mum told him about DS then about me and midwife - when I made out I'd woken up he never asked me how I was once and hardly said a word to me!! I stayed in the hospital overnight with DS but DH left about 7:30pm He didn't give his son a hug, just said goodbye. Then walked out without even a word to me!! How could someone be so totally emotionless towards the mother of their kids when he knows I'm about to give birth in just over a week!! I felt so totally worthless. I didn't want to cry in front of DS, but once he was asleep I couldn't help it!! He's made me feel like absolute crap!!! I was't upset cos I want him back I just can't believe that someone who I've spent the last 10 years of my life with and who I've been through so much with could be so cold!!!
I really feel right now that I can't take much more, physically or emotionally and I'm annoyed as I was doing ok!!
I don't think I even want him at the hospital now when I give birth - he's sister said I need to tell him how I feel, but whythe hell should I keep trying to be the reasonable one just to have it thrown back in my face? If he can make me feel that bad yesterday - how the hell would I cope just after giving birth? I haven't felt this low since he left! I just don't really know what to do with myself?
Sorry this has gone on a bit but I'm feeling really lost.

Dewberry

Jules - Sending you lots of cyber hugs as this must be a very hard time for you:grouphug:

On to the advice...Jules don't let him be there when you have your baby. having a baby is a magical and highly emotional time and you should be able to feel happy and contented when your new little man enters the world - not to mention it should be a memory to treasure. If he has been so cold towards you bearing in mind you are carrying his child and were in hospital then i'm sorry but he has no right to play the caring father role when your baby is delivered.

Please put yourself first and ask him to stay away

Keeping_Motivated

Awe Julie no wonder you are feeling so low, its exhausting staying at hospitals and worrying when are children are ill for one thing. You are heavily pregnant too and who isn't tired at fed up at that stage? Plus DH is being absolute ....no words to describe!! You would be a robot not to feel fragile at the moment, you will come back up though coz your personality underneath all that pressure is strong so will take you were you want to be, thats obvious from your previous posts.

As for him being cold... I've said before that it seems that the behaviour/reactions of the cheater after they are caught is 'almost' worse than the actual affair... Plain cruel. Not sure if it is his guilt making him react to you in that way or if he is angry coz you seem to be coping?! Who knows but either way completely selfish.

Take care of yourself and be understanding with yourself about why you are feeling so low xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Don't be Sorry Jules, Understand this, that is the worst thing I have ever read on here. He is a terrible human being. He really is.

You are not worthless, you are far from that. You let your Mum look after your son and do not contact your ex re birth or anything else - unless your son is ill again. This "man" is a nasty toxic piece of scum. do cry - its a good stress release and although I think you might find it difficult, let others help you with stuff.

I have so much admiration for you. Please put yourself first, for the sake of your kids. You will handle this. You have done amazing things and will continue.
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trancebabe

Came looking for the new thread... it's gone then ??

Jules {HUGS}

I think he's feeling guilty... guilty right to his very core within and he just doesn't know what to say to you. Everything he could say would seem pathetic given his actions.

You don't have to be reasonable about the birth, when he did what he did, he did it to all three of you... it's your birth hunny and you decide who's there and who isn't (I think you're marvellous for even considering having him there at one of the most miraculous times in a parents life)

He's a fool... ! and you're just FAB!

A credit to yourself... you're an amazing woman and tired ?? Tired I doubt even touches the surface of how you must be feeling right now..

Never let that idiot make you feel any different about yourself... you know what you are... you know that you're doing your best and what more can anybody ask of you?!

{More Hugs}