If not for my sister and her kids I'd have given it all up - but I'm still here!!!

Mupeteer

If I go and change my mind on the night out its a £25 taxi fare on my own. I'll see how I feel in the afternoon.

RAS

That is a bit of a downer.

No late night buses or even evening buses?

Mupeteer

Now on the vino, sitting on my own feeling sorry for myself. I think I'll stay up until the back of 1, toast my mum then head to bed after taking a nytol.

JCD_Capulet

Great big hugs to you Mupeteer *HUGS*
I don't know what to say that could comfort you any aside from knowing that on MSE there's always someone around for you. *MORE BIG HUGS*

Mupeteer

Well, I'm glad that day is over. Last night was truly horrible but thanks to the lovely people on MSE, and especially the night owls, I got through it.
New bloke didn't exactly help. Turns out he was out on the town with some mates and thought it would be a good idea to get in touch several times between 2 and 5 this morning. He has apologised today and I haven't even mentioned what day it was and that I could have done with some support rather than hassle. He just didn't know.
I'm seeing him tomorrow night and probably will tell him, but not to make him feel bad, just so that he knows why I'm not all that happy at the moment.
Anyway, today hasn't been great. I didn't make it to the cemetery and still feel bad about that but I know the important thing isn't that I visit her grave with flowers but that I remember her and think of her often.
I've spent most of the day in bed with a stinker of a headache and major sweaty episodes. Really not nice. I was eventually forced to get up because my dog was driving me crazy, desperate for a walk.
I'll be glad when this weekend is over.