Guess whose back!? The Return Diary

bella2121

hey cafc, good luck for today, i'm sure everything will be fine xx

CAFCGirl

Thanks ladies!

Im feeling a bit more positive today.... and we'll find out soon enough. Just hope baby plays ball and everything can checked out and I havent got to move about to get him moving!

Trying to drink my 2 pints of water before we leave have to leave at 12, appointment is at half past. so got an hour to get myself hydrated!
Also found i cant get comfortable when i need to sleep so i think we might go out later to see if we can get a v pillow which quite a few people have been recommending.

Need to (hopefully when find out everything is ok and I relax) need to get some money stuff together and just pay some attention to it....

doodledo_2

Good luck with the scan hun let me know how you get on.

Purpleroses

^^ ditto. glad you are feeling better too

CAFCGirl

Hi All

Im not on for long as feel like sh*t.

We found out that our pregnancy has ended, and we will be contacted tomorrow by the hospital to discuss more.

So crap day really and I'm probably going to take a back seat from it all

postingalwaysposting

Dont know what to say hun

PeachPickle

Oh honey, I'm so sorry You know where I am if you need anything xx

doodledo_2

I am so so sorry hun (((hugs)))

CAFCGirl

Thanks all for the kind thoughts.
Am just waiting for a call from the hospital, god only knows what theyre gonna say.
DH has had to go into work so im on my own and just sobbing my heart out.
I know that it obviously wasnt the right time for us, and there would have been nothing we could have done, but I just feel so utterly useless and empty and devastated and a million and other things all at once.

I had a feeling this was going to happen but laying there and seeing this sack where my baby should have been and just seeing nothing, just a black space makes me feel sick to my core....
And now I just dont know what to do... part of me wants to curl up, part of me wants to throw up and another part of me just wants to stare into space and ignore the world.

bella2121

i've pm'd you hun xx