Monday 16th June *Daily Chat Thread*

(Land_of)_Maz

did you win?!

Erin's one is on thursday 26th, in the bloody morning! So doubt i will be there, as can't see me getting time off work for that.

S'okay i won't leave you!!

Are you stepping back on purpose? Or just busy?

Toto

Maz3374 wrote: »

i think Keren leaving has had an effect on us all TBH.

Makes us think about a life outside the safety of here. not that i'm suggesting you have to worry on that score Toto, what with you being all rock n roll/brit awards etc etc!!

but it makes you wonder about the dependency we have on this place, which is not necesarrily a bad thing.

A few people have been taking a step back lately.... snags, Lucifa, jinky, Bunny, Ginger Ste, IA even.... . People are moving on and expanding their lives, which can only be good for them.

Maybe i should do that too................

Well, my life is very much like everyone elses, full of laundry and dirty dishes. Sometimes I go to things which look glam and flashy, sometimes they are good fun. And yes, I know and work with some people who are in the celebrity thing. But they are just people.

It doesn't make my life glam, far from it, in fact it can be very lonely. Very few people know me for the person I am, most people are only friendly with me because of what I do or who I know. It's worse in the industry, there are no friends, just networking opportunities. I avoid the parties like the plague unless I have to go. I've never ever wanted to be famous, or associate with the lifestyle. it's shallow and miserable. Why do you think so many people in the industry end up turning to drink and drugs.

When I come here, I try not to talk about my job too much, sometimes I do, I know, but mostly I just like to talk about normal everyday things, because that's what my life is. the trouble is, outside of my job there really isn't anything interesting to say.

Like keren I feel in a rut too, only unlike her, I'm not moving in a new direction and I can't work on a life out of here anymore than I have been, unless of course I jack it all in and go and do something very different.

Don't get me wrong, I love my job and I know I'm pretty ok at it. I just wish sometimes I was more than that.

See, I told you I was a bit gloomy today

LouiseJ

Hey Toto, dont give yourself such a hard time love....you have been given a gift and you enjoy what you do...thats more that most of the population:cool:

I am 35 and have no idea what I really want to do with my life, never have, I just seem to drift into things...accountancy.....teaching.....nothing really planned.

I like my job but I dont love it and I know I definately dont want to do this forever.

And as for not having a purpose...arent you a fab Mum???...soon to be again.

You are precious so please treat yourself kindly xxx

jinky67

Maz3374 wrote: »

did you win?!

Erin's one is on thursday 26th, in the bloody morning! So doubt i will be there, as can't see me getting time off work for that.

S'okay i won't leave you!!

Are you stepping back on purpose? Or just busy?

Just trying to keep OH happy:cool:

(Land_of)_Maz

Toto, it's so true everything you say, and yes i can see how it can be a lonely kinda lifestyle, which is why you're lucky that you have your kids, and lovely man and a whole life away from the "job"

I hope you don't think i was suggesting anything by it hun.

Apart from the fact that i have no musical talent and can't sing, i don't think i could handle the rejection some people must face, or the short term-ness of it all in your business.

Re you feeling in a rut, there's a little bean going to make sure that you hit a steep learning curve soon enough!

Must be something in the water as everyone is feeling contemplative lately.

Dishes, laundry oh yes, welcome to my life too!

jinky67 wrote: »

Just trying to keep OH happy:cool:

Is it working??

Toto

LouiseJ wrote: »

Hey Toto, dont give yourself such a hard time love....you have been given a gift and you enjoy what you do...thats more that most of the population:cool:

I am 35 and have no idea what I really want to do with my life, never have, I just seem to drift into things...accountancy.....teaching.....nothing really planned.

I like my job but I dont love it and I know I definately dont want to do this forever.

And as for not having a purpose...arent you a fab Mum???...soon to be again.

You are precious so please treat yourself kindly xxx

Yeah, I know, I've got no right to feel this way. As I've said it's probably just stupid bloody hormones coupled with my quitting the pills a few weeks ago. I'm going to take one tonight and give up any idea of being able to function without them :rolleyes:

Lucy1982_2

Ok just finished reading through Keren thread....

I can't believe I missed her and it made me want to cry!!! Scary things is I understand everything she said!!!

jinky67

Toto wrote: »

Yeah, I know, I've got no right to feel this way. As I've said it's probably just stupid bloody hormones coupled with my quitting the pills a few weeks ago. I'm going to take one tonight and give up any idea of being able to function without them :rolleyes:

We all have the right to feel that way.Doesnt make us right or wrong...just us.
In my case a total basket case:rotfl:

LouiseJ

Toto wrote: »

Yeah, I know, I've got no right to feel this way. As I've said it's probably just stupid bloody hormones coupled with my quitting the pills a few weeks ago. I'm going to take one tonight and give up any idea of being able to function without them :rolleyes:

You have every right to feel the way you do Toto!!!! Thats not the point I was trying to make......just treat yourself with kindness and try to discover what is making you feel like this....it may be your hormones, coming off the tablets or it may be something else that you havent worked out yet.

Have a good cry......that always makes me feel better.........for about 5 mins anyway:rolleyes:

jinky67

Maz....have to say no!