Depression Support Thread

queensway_boy

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Thanks guys.

Instead of running away from my problems, I'm going to run into them head on.

I know some people might be "Why? After all they put you through" etc but I just get this innate feeling that my nan is going to die soon and I still feel like I owe her something. I want answers as to why I was put through so much crap. I doubt I'll get them but you never know. It can go either one of two ways. Either it will heal me, or it will break me and at the moment I'm prepared to take the risk.

I can't keep running away all the time because it won't be long before there's nowhere to run anymore. I'm still young. It's better I do this now and know whether I'm going to get answers or not then wait and my mum and nan die and then never know if I could get answers or not.

I am apathetic towards my family. I have no feelings towards them. I don't love them or hate them but this is something I have to do.

*gets ready for an ear bashing*

P.s. I'm taking a friend with me so I'm not alone.

xx

You won't get any ear bashing here anni.I admire what your doing and i'm with you all the way,you know where i am if you need to chat.I wanted to say more but i'm in a rush to get out,but my thoughts are with you,hugs till later

J x

queensway_boy

alba37 wrote: »

Hi everyone,

Glad your better today QB, did you get a good sleep last night? We all have bad days, not sleeping doesn't help.

Wow, Shaz well done! The race is on, luckily I only have 1 bathroom :rotfl: mmm, and ironing is a no no here! But you did really well this morning, bet it feels good. I'll talk to you about getting pics on here! It's all easy when you know how!

Gosh KL, you have been busy too! Thanks for posting the pics.

Good luck Anni, sounds to me like you are being really brave. I hope it helps, I really think it's worth the try. All the best of luck.

Hi to everyone else too :wave: Hope you're ok.

I've done the gym, just making lunch then I'm going out. Will catch you all later.

P.S. Diamond, the sun was out earlier! But it's gone again now and it doesn't look too promising!

Thanks alba,x

catch you lot laters xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

sara_501

Ok guys, I'm so bored at the moment I've been googling rollerblading lessons... :S not good considering the last time I tried I broke my arm ....

am I losing it?

Diamond78

Afternoon Everyone,
Hope your all having a good day. Weather has changed, its grey and cloudy here and now raining lol. I enjoyed sitting in the garden while son played in the paddling pool. I love seeing him so happy.
Im feeling pretty down again. Just over a week ago, 2 boys got stabbed in the street my brother lives in. Luckliy he is away for a few months but I cant stop worrying. I suffer with agrophobia as it is and I really try and make the effort to go out when I can as its not fair on ds to be locked in doors with me. Monday night a man was stabbed not far from where we are and now last night a woman stabbed to death where I take my son to the leasure centre. I dont want to go any where now. Its made me soo scared of everyone and everything. I am fed up moving constantly and no where feels safe. South east london is now so dangerous. Its so awful what our society is turning into with these dangerous ppl, I dont believe it will ever get better but worse.
I have been thinking of moving abroad where my mum lives but me and her clash so bad.I feel so scared all the time. Im not going to watch the news for a while or buy the paper as I know this makes me worse.

Feelinggood, glad you booked your driving lessons hun, Ive stopped mine as I couldnt concentrate. I feel a failure as I keep giving them up, I was doing automatic but am thinking of starting my lessons again and maybe doing manual this time but i find it very hard.Maybe its my age i dont know but it just seems hard. I dont have anyone that can help me but if you have someone get them to help you as this will save you money. Glad you watched hollyoaks, how sad was it tho? I cant watch it again ever. Poor Tom and OB...Tom is a fantastic actor.

QB-Glad your feeling better.

Anni- Dont be so hard on yourself hun, yes I have seen what you look like and your lovely and beautiful.

Alba-Glad you gt some sun lol, your weather has come down south now lol, oh well we cant have it all the time.

Sara-Hope your ok and feeling well.

Shaz-Hope your enjoying your knitting hun.

Meyore-Hello, hows you?
And to everyone else, hope your all well and looking after yourselves. Keep being strong and keep well.HUGS
xxx

top_drawer_2

KentishLady wrote: »

Top_Drawer - did you get the trousers done yet?

KL.

LOL no... it was suddenly 5pm so I made tea etc and just got into other jobs. I was hoping I might get them done today but some workmen arrived to fit the boiler and the lounge (where my machine and sewing stuff is is a bombsite with all the kitchen stuff piled everywhere....

How's the painting going?

Jen

sara_501

Diamond, where abouts are you? - I used to suffer from Agoraphobia - well I guess I still do up to a point, it's not easy, but keep in mind the phrase...

"A life lived in fear is a life half lived"... you deserve to be free and have all the GOOD experiences that are outside... for every toe rag there are us forummers and like minded milling around ...

take care honey and I hope you feel better soon xx

KentishLady

top_drawer wrote: »

How's the painting going?

Jen

It's raining here today so no painting. I have managed to dig out the grape vine and next is the old washing pole.

Then I am ready to paint and lay decking ! If the rain holds off.

KL.

top_drawer_2

KentishLady wrote: »

It's raining here today so no painting. I have managed to dig out the grape vine and next is the old washing pole.

Then I am ready to paint and lay decking ! If the rain holds off.

KL.

Oh no!! its really stuffy here ... warm but without much sunshine.

I dont know what Im doing today - just extinguishing fires at the moment I think.

Jen

LadyMorticia

Thanks everyone. I'm preparing myself for the worst because at least then if something good does come out of it then it's a step up.lol. I'm not expecting rainbows and butterflies, not by a long shot. I just can't shake off this feeling that my nan is going to die soon. I know that sounds horrible. I hate being highly sensitive. =/

I just realized how busy I am next week.

Monday - Drop in
Tuesday - Orthodontist to get my retainer fitted
Wednesday - Doctor
Thursday - The family
Friday - Drop in

Not to mention tomorrow having my eyebrows waxed, and then Friday having my brace off. Eek.

Although, I guess a part of me does like being busy sometimes though. Sometimes I just thrive on a bit of chaos. It stop me from being alone with my thoughts for too long and releases endorphines with all the running about and so cheers me up a bit.

I'm hoping my anxiety doesn't get worse with all of these different things I have to do because that's what usually happens.
It's been causing me havoc lately but I try to disguise it as I feel stupid. =/
Mood swings have been particularly bad so if I've said anything to offend any of you then I'm sorry. I can't even remember what I say when I'm having an episode sometimes. =/

Oh, and my goal for this summer is to.....sit outside in the garden. That might not be a big deal to some people but it really is to me. I get paranoid and worried I'll bump into my neighbours as I really don't think they like me, even though I haven't done anything for them not to like me.

I'm stupid.

xx

queensway_boy

alba37 wrote: »

I'm fine thanks Anni. Took a while to feel awake, 3 coffes later I'm getting there! I was up late again last night, ended up reading the Cambridge Diet thread, well some of it! I really think I want to try it to lose the last 2st!

A x

Cambridge diet:eek: no wonder it don't work for me i thought it said cadbury's diet:rotfl: