Depression Support Thread

gillette147

absolutebounder wrote: »

Someone who obviously thinks a lot of you.

BTW Anyone who quotes Marillion in their siggy can't be all bad.
Total self-indulgent but as an 18yr old I loved them.

Fugazi
Vodka intimate, an affair with isolation in a blackheath cell
Extinguishing the fires in a private hell
Provoking the heartache to renew the licence
Of a bleeding heart poet in a fragile capsule
Propping up the crust of the glitter conscience
Wrapped in the christening shawl of a hangover
Baptised in the tears from the real
Tears from the real

Drowning in the liquid seize on the piccadilly line, rat race
Scuttling through the damp electric labyrinth
Caress ophelias hand with breathstroke ambition
An albatross in the marrytime tradition
Sheathed within the walkman wear the halo of distortion
Aural contraceptive aborting pregnant conversation
She turned the harpoon and it pierced my heart
She hung herself around my neck

From the time-life-guardians in their conscience bubbles
Safe and dry in my sea of troubles
Nine to five with suitable ties
Cast adrift as their sideshow, peepshow, stereo hero
Becalm bestill, bewitch
Drowning in the real

The thief of baghdad hides in islingtown now
Praying deportation for his sacred cow
A legacy of romance from a twilight world
The dowry of a relative mystery girl
A vietnamese flower, a dockland union
A mistress of release from a magazines thighs
Magdalenes contracts more than favours
The feeding hands of western promise hold her by the throat

A son of a swastika of 45 parading a peroxide standard
Graffiti disciples conjure testaments of hatred
Aerosol wands whisper where the searchlights trim the barbed wire hedges
This is brixton chess
A knight for embankment folds his newspaper castle
A creature of habit, begs the boatmans coin
Hell fade with old soldiers in the grease stained roll call
And linger with the heartburn of good fridays last supper

Son watches father scan obituary columns in search of absent school friends
While his generation digests high fibre ignorance
Cowering behind curtains and the taped up painted windows
Decriminalised genocide, provided door to door belsens
Pandoras box of holocausts gracefully cruising satellite infested heavens
Waiting, wai-wai-waiting, the season of the button
The penultimate migration
Radioactive perfumes
For the fashionably
For the terminally insane, insane
D-d-do you realise?
D-d-do you realise?
D-d-do you realise, this world is totally fugazi

Where are the prophets
Where are the visionaries
Where are the poets
To breach the dawn of the sentimental mercenary

feelinggood_2

I had a difficult evening/night, but managed to resist the urges by telling myself I could give in if they were still there in the morning. Half a chocolate orange gone, and I'm still sad

feelinggood_2

I'm fed up being so tired. Its alright when I'm not doing anything, but I can't just sleep for the rest of my life. I'm supposed to be cleaning the house, but I can barely stand up, I'm that drowsy from the medication. Can't learn to drive now either, was really looking forward to the freedom of being able to drive. Suppose this is better than the intense fear I felt. Zombie vs Fear. I don't know.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are all ok,I am fine today,didnt go to pottery again today as still not quite 100%.Will go next week though as its the last class and I have to pick up some pottery I have done and to say goodbye to everyone

*hugs* FG

*hugs* to those that need one

Have a lovely day everyone


love and light,

Katie xxx

LadyMorticia

Heya everyone.

xx

fairydawn

Morning all, well done fg I know its ruddy hard but you are doing really well xx

Do you want to chat?

I am going to be really brave now and try not to blow up the laptop through crying.:eek:


I have been keeping up with everyone but was not in the right frame of mind to talk.

I thought I had learnt to manage (create diversions) so as not to s/h and had not done it for nearly 5 months. Like all addictions once your off the wagon you don't want to stop.
I am lucky to have support and I had a week away with a friend and I have not s/h for 3 days.
But today I have an appointment (confessional) I know I don't have to tell her anything I don't want to but have learnt that I need to be honest to get the best help for myself.

I don't want to get up :mad: . Can't rearrange as have changed twice already.

fg please pass over the choccy orange :A


D x

feelinggood_2

Fairy Dawn - Choccy orange is all gone. Truffles now! Then cheesecake. Well done on 3 days. I think I'm on about Day 8, and feeling wobbly. Hard to believe that I had a good few years with out. Hope appointment goes okay. ((Hugs))

LM - How are you feeling today?

gillette147

Fairy,
As a coward I cannot understand S/h. I hate pain. But I abuse my body in other ways (overeating).
I can't really advise you but I can say that you have my best wishes in your struggle.
Take care of yourself
xxx

gillette147

BTW I danced with a woman at the wedding on saturday and I could see the scars up her arm.
xx

Tulip

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Heya everyone.

xx

:hello: Anni