Tired of being afraid

smashedbooboo

Where are you from rosy x x

rosyc_2

Thanks, I have been feeling awful but am beginning to see already that it can get better. It does seem odd at the moment meeting people online but I am getting used to it already, and you have been a brilliant support to me. Even a few days ago the thought of meeting people I'd met on the internet would have been something I never entertained in my wildest dreams, am am quite shy but I see that things have got to change and I'm now looking forward to it, I think if I do things which scare me a little, and try to put myself out there so to speak, even if I have more misses than hits, some hits is better than none.

rosyc_2

I'm in the North West

boredofbeingathome

I am in the North west as well Rosie, there are a few groups knocking around that one of my friends goes to.
She is also very shy, and feels nervous, but once there she is fine. Weirdly enough i met her at adult ed about 15 years ago. We have been through degrees together and all sorts of crisises..she is, i am proud to say one of my Best Friends. Without her at times i would have been on the floor, and she has built up a great circle of friends just by putting herself out there...It can be done.x

rosyc_2

Thanks bob, am certainly going to try, what kind of groups does your friend go to?

boredofbeingathome

I will ask her and get back to you.

Burlesque_Babe

hi rosy - just caught up and I'm so happy you are feeling more positive - just one small positive thing will lead to another.

re: the meets - they are cool. I went to the Blackpool one (and there are some awful photos of me to prove it!!!) along with 4 or 5 others. It was great. I didn't make the Birmingham one in January and I can't make the Glasgow one in June, but I'm determined to make the Leeds one!!

Everyone who will be there is lovely - just ordinary (well for the most part!!!!!) people, no axe murderers have popped up yet!!

Hope you stick around - you'll be able to look back in a few months (or weeks even!) and see the huge progress you've made.

rosyc_2

Am having a terrible black day today, just got myself stressed again and cannot see any way out of it, have decided to withdrew money out of my savings to pay £1800 loan and credit card off as I just can't cope with the monthy payments coming out of my account anymore, at least my monthly outgoings will be a lot less and I can try to build up my savings again, just can't cope anymore, I keep feeling up and down, believe me I know people on here have much worse problems but I just can;t see anything except years of this, can't see any way out, am in tears again, don't know what to do. Just cannot cope anymore.

smashedbooboo

Oh Rosy, if its any consolation i have been really down the last few days. And i mean down. Especially because its a bank holiday. But i have taken my frustration out on my washer. I propmise things will get better in time honey. And you can cope. You have coped. And you will carry on coping. You do anything silly girl and i will come over and rip your arm off and hit you with soggy end. There is always a way out, you just need some support and guidance. x x x x x

mrstreacle

And i've been taking it for about 7 years now and it makes me feel I've got my life back. Healthspan do one that isn't that expensive, and it's free p and p and a free phone call too.



Can't remember who mentioned St John's Wort earlier in the thread, but I would like to second that idea. St John's Wort is herbal, non-addictive and extremely powerful. I have been taking it for PMT for about 4 months now and the difference it has made is amazing. Don't get me wrong, I still feel 'out of sorts' occasionally, but don't get the mood swings I used to.

I would definitely recommend you do a little research and see what you think.

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