Depression Support Thread

Horasio

I feel tired and dizzy just now. I am finding my OH annoying today which makes me lose concentration. I think it is deep anger. He has applied for a contract today and hope he gets it. The money will be useful and give me a break from him. It is OK for a few weeks with him off work then it gets a bit suffocating. I don't feel we are gelling anymore, we get the odd day but in general I find him messy and scatty. I find it stressful as I am quite orderly. Whenever I try to do something to lift myself, he withdraws and it deflates me. I get to the stage I can't be bothered to try anymore as I know what will happen. I don't feel encouraged and end up not being bothered. After all the horrible people I have dealt with this week, I don't want to go out either.

I feel I am changing. I saw Big Brother last night and am beginning to find it rather samey as previous years but it is early days. Even soaps are getting rather repetitive and boring now.

I don't know who I am turning into but this week I have felt very tired and low about things.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote: »

Nope, he is completely normal (well, maybe a little co-denpendant) but never had any problems.

His Dad is Bipolar and keeps saying things to me like; "My Dad has a much worse illness than you, and he never cut himself". He thinks I'm being dramatic and attention seeking.

He won't go for relationship counselling either.

What is co-dependent?

Is it when he reacts to your mood and gives you more problems on top of yours. I find men really need babying and feel we have to live for them too, else they drag you down with them.

Horasio

Diamond78 wrote: »

Im still new at the gp, I find it difficult talking to men as it is but its difficult getting an app with a female doctor. I have seen this man doc a few times now but each time have been with my son, so ive just said im ok ect. I have to see him or a doc each time my meds run out which is a pain but think he is trying to keep an eye on me. i hav thought of writting it down, maybe it would help.

As for the sf, I dont know how Ive managed not to do it, al I do know that its making me worse as I can not release the anger and all the rest of it, if you know what I mean. Eerything has built up. The fear of having my son taken away or social services has stopped me sh, but its sooo hard. I can see myself cutting as I have suffered with Sh for over 15 years, i suppose the amount of scars I have stops me sometimes as you know yourself what ppl are like when they see them and look at you in disgust. It gets me angry when judgemental ppl like that comment and give those eyeful looks. I dont want my son being bullied when his older by ppl saying your mums a nutter ect. Kids can be evil and I cant cope with my son being upset. I bes make a move in a bit as i got to be there i 10mins lol, i really dont want togo but Ibetter. I got to go into town to as I promised my son the new indiana jones lego game. i will be bak in abou 2 hours. Thanks hun so much for listening to me and comforting me, it means the world to me. Make sure you fone the place and make another appointment ok?Take care and chat soon.Lots of hugs xxxxxx

I find most men don't listen and make up their own minds about they think you say and are very reactive if they think you are being aggressive.

Horasio

feelinggood wrote: »

Doubt they'd give me another appointment. He thinks seeing as I 'chose' to be bulimic, I could chose not to be if I wanted to.

Just phoned the council to enquire about Housing Benefit. No chance I could get a flat. Would only be entitled to get rent paid on a room in a shared house, and with my mental health problems, I really can't cope with that. So I'm stuck here for at least 3 years and 7 months :-/

I don't think I could cope with a shared place either:eek:

I find it hard enough with family

I would love to live alone

slowlyfading

Feeling really low today, and quite paranoid of certain events on here. Great.

LadyMorticia

People keep knocking at my door and it's scaring me. I went to peep around the corner of the wall and I can't see anyone there.
This has happened a few times.
It frightens me.

I think I'm going out of my tiny little mind.

xx

Horasio

slowlyfading wrote: »

Feeling really low today, and quite paranoid of certain events on here. Great.

Sorry to hear that, hope it isn't anything I said. Now I am getting paranoid

(((big hugs)))

ilovegreatdanes

hi,
firstly can i say im rally SORRY to everyone on here about the pm paranioa especially to tiff and blues.
i made such a mountain out of a molehill and i dont know what came over me.it reminded me however strangely of my school days which i wasnt aware how deeply i felt about ,iykwim.
i never meant to hurt anyones feelings and was so unaware that what i thought of jokingly with the strange soh i have as a coping mechanism,that i would hurt ppl who are such good friends.i hold you all in the highest esteem and this is said from the heart.
i hope you will treat any of my posts concerned as forgotten and accept my deepest apologies.
much love ilgd xx

ilovegreatdanes

also had to go to dentist today so all in all its been not so good......all to do with my big gob as per
if my brain was as big as my gob ,id give mr. s hawkins a reall run for his money.

ilovegreatdanes

btw.
forgot to say...
well done badger on the exam.xx
hugs to meyore and diamond and sf and feelingg and blues. and cc....xx
take care everyone
love ilgd xx