Depression Support Thread

gario900

CCStar wrote: »

Hi Gary

How are things?

What happened?

Things ok hun, bit fed up though OH away and i'm trying to find way around alone.

Had a jacuzzi last night, put bubble bath in..............what a mess!:eek:
Neva had one be4, didn't know bubble bath was excluded!

Today i went to Brentwood to hand in driving licence to get company car but ended up in Carnvey Island? Took me well over 2 hours each when it should have taken 30mins ew.
Hissed me off.

Neva mind, come Friday ofski.

Hope your well.

:A :A

feelinggood_2

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Anywho, Nikki has said she has booked the day off of work to go to the ED clinic with me as she doesn't want me to go through this alone and she's not going to let me down like almost everyone else around me has.

When is your appointment at the ED Clinic? Is it an assessment? I've got an assessment with the Eating Disorders Service on Friday and I'm very nervous. Want to know what to expect!

Also, can I ask what your ED is? I think I'm bulimic. Only a little though.

LadyMorticia

feelinggood wrote: »

When is your appointment at the ED Clinic? Is it an assessment? I've got an assessment with the Eating Disorders Service on Friday and I'm very nervous. Want to know what to expect!

Also, can I ask what your ED is? I think I'm bulimic. Only a little though.

Heya fg.

My appointment is on 25th June. :eek: I'm getting so anxious just thinking about it.

Mine is an assessment too. Good luck with yours. Please let me know how it goes. I'm terrified.

My ED is anorexia. Been like this since I was 9 years old, got better and then I relapsed, got better again, and then relapsed - big time. I've never eaten normally since I was 9 but my eating got better. This is the worst it's ever been. I'm not sure if I can still be classed as anorexic now because apparently I need to miss 3 periods and I've only missed 2. Not that that's a good thing. I'd like to have children one day and I'm terrified I won't be able to.

xx

feelinggood_2

Thanks LM. Have you had treatment with the Eating Disorders Service before?

I'm suprised at how quick I got an appointment, less than a month from referal to appointment. Not sure if thats good or not. I want help, but then again I don't. And I don't think I deserve it, I'm not a 'real' bulimic, and I feel like I'll be wasting thier time! That said, they might just tell me to stop being silly and send me on my way.

How is your anxiety this afternoon? You feeling any better?

I went to GP earlier, got some stuff to see me through the next few days. Seeing a different Pysch on Thursday, then ED Service on Friday. Cannot believe how awful the withdrawl has been, and how much it has messed me up. Everyone is pretty shocked at Pysch taking me off meds suddenly with no support in place. Hopefully this other Pysch will be a bit more sensible!

LadyMorticia

CCStar wrote: »

I agree, anyone who deals with the public should leave their shi t e at home and be nice to deal with.

I worked with the public for years and most people were nice to me and the ones that weren't I didn't inflame and thought they were sad. Too many people take complaints too personally and adopt an inflammatory attitude. It is so tiresome having to deal with these people.:mad:

The receptionists at the local doctors surgery never smile and they talk down to you like you're something they trod in. Once somebody said to one of them "A smile wouldn't hurt, love" and the daggers she gave him with her eyes. I thought all hell was going to break lose.

I've never worked with the public in regards to reception work etc but I did work in a shop for close to three years and I always greeted customers with a smile and chit chat. It's just the way I am. I like to make people feel valued.

I don't think these people understand what effect they can have on others. I was having a similar conversation with my friend about those in the mental health profession leaving people feeling hurt and rejected. You would think that them of all people would understand what consequence their actions could have on others but they just don't seem to get it.

xx

LadyMorticia

feelinggood wrote: »

Thanks LM. Have you had treatment with the Eating Disorders Service before?

I'm suprised at how quick I got an appointment, less than a month from referal to appointment. Not sure if thats good or not. I want help, but then again I don't. And I don't think I deserve it, I'm not a 'real' bulimic, and I feel like I'll be wasting thier time! That said, they might just tell me to stop being silly and send me on my way.

How is your anxiety this afternoon? You feeling any better?

I went to GP earlier, got some stuff to see me through the next few days. Seeing a different Pysch on Thursday, then ED Service on Friday. Cannot believe how awful the withdrawl has been, and how much it has messed me up. Everyone is pretty shocked at Pysch taking me off meds suddenly with no support in place. Hopefully this other Pysch will be a bit more sensible!

Nope. I had a psychiatrist who said that he didn't want to get me "trapped" in the system but that I did have anorexia but that he would work with me on it. I was 14 at the time. It never occurred to me to go to the doctor to get a second opinion at the time. I was the kind of child who took everything that people told me as fact.

I was referred to the ED clinic in February and got the appointment though in April. There's a long waiting list here for everything.lol.

Darling, if the doctor didn't think you needed help, then he/she wouldn't have referred you. Think of this as a positive step to conquering your inner demons. That's what I'm trying to do. Although, I understand it's very hard...very very hard....

My anxiety is a bit better. I feel really ill though. You know when you feel drained and run down and feel all headachy etc? It's horrible.

Did your psych take you off of the meds cold turkey? That's terrible. You should be weaned off of meds as withdrawal is a horrendous thing to go through. [[[[[[hugs]]]]]]

xx

feelinggood_2

LadyMorticia wrote: »

Nope. I had a psychiatrist who said that he didn't want to get me "trapped" in the system but that I did have anorexia but that he would work with me on it. I was 14 at the time. It never occurred to me to go to the doctor to get a second opinion at the time. I was the kind of child who took everything that people told me as fact.

I was referred to the ED clinic in February and got the appointment though in April. There's a long waiting list here for everything.lol.

Darling, if the doctor didn't think you needed help, then he/she wouldn't have referred you. Think of this as a positive step to conquering your inner demons. That's what I'm trying to do. Although, I understand it's very hard...very very hard....

My anxiety is a bit better. I feel really ill though. You know when you feel drained and run down and feel all headachy etc? It's horrible.

Did your psych take you off of the meds cold turkey? That's terrible. You should be weaned off of meds as withdrawal is a horrendous thing to go through. [[[[[[hugs]]]]]]

xx

Its weird that I've been refered to the ED Service, seeing as I can't get refered for CBT, DBT or Pyschotherapy. It was the only thing Pysch offered, so I said I'd go for it, despite not really wanting to recover from my ED.

Pysch wanted to increase my dose, and I said I didn't really like the side-effects so she told me to just stop taking it. I explained that I felt ill if I miss a dose, but she said that cutting down would just make things worse, and that it'd be very hard for 7-10 days, but then would be over and done with. I can cope with the physical withdrawls, its just the scary thoughts that I don't like.

LadyMorticia

feelinggood wrote: »

Its weird that I've been refered to the ED Service, seeing as I can't get refered for CBT, DBT or Pyschotherapy. It was the only thing Pysch offered, so I said I'd go for it, despite not really wanting to recover from my ED.

Pysch wanted to increase my dose, and I said I didn't really like the side-effects so she told me to just stop taking it. I explained that I felt ill if I miss a dose, but she said that cutting down would just make things worse, and that it'd be very hard for 7-10 days, but then would be over and done with. I can cope with the physical withdrawls, its just the scary thoughts that I don't like.

I've been told that I might benefit from DBT but they don't have it in this area. I've had CBT and CAT. It seems that the love to send people for therapy here. :rotfl:

I want to eat normally but I want to do it without putting on the weight, if that makes sense? I know it's going to be hard. I'll always feel fat and part of my ED is about punishing myself and the thought of getting better does slightly scare me but I really don't want to die through starvation. I want to have nice hair and skin and I want my chest to stop hurting from the pressure I'm putting on it. It's going to be a long hard road though. Maybe we could help eachother?

I can't believe any psych would just tell you to stop taking it. That's horrendous. I thought decreasing the meds steadily would be far better than just stopping all together.

xx

feelinggood_2

LadyMorticia wrote: »

I've been told that I might benefit from DBT but they don't have it in this area. I've had CBT and CAT. It seems that the love to send people for therapy here. :rotfl:

I want to eat normally but I want to do it without putting on the weight, if that makes sense? I know it's going to be hard. I'll always feel fat and part of my ED is about punishing myself and the thought of getting better does slightly scare me but I really don't want to die through starvation. I want to have nice hair and skin and I want my chest to stop hurting from the pressure I'm putting on it. It's going to be a long hard road though. Maybe we could help eachother?

I can't believe any psych would just tell you to stop taking it. That's horrendous. I thought decreasing the meds steadily would be far better than just stopping all together.

xx

The three doctors, nurse and crisis team guy I saw all were shocked at the Pysch. She does seem pretty rubbish. Hopefully this new Pysch will be nice and I'll get to stick with him!

I want to not purge, but I'd rather binge and purge, than just purge is that make sense? I don't know how not to binge though. Hopefully the ED team will be able to help with that.

I know a little about DBT and CBT, but what is CAT like? Did any of them help?

LadyMorticia

feelinggood wrote: »

The three doctors, nurse and crisis team guy I saw all were shocked at the Pysch. She does seem pretty rubbish. Hopefully this new Pysch will be nice and I'll get to stick with him!

I want to not purge, but I'd rather binge and purge, than just purge is that make sense? I don't know how not to binge though. Hopefully the ED team will be able to help with that.

I know a little about DBT and CBT, but what is CAT like? Did any of them help?

I've never binged and purged as I have a really big phobia about throwing up and the thought terrifies me. I'm not sure what binging and purging feels like. Does it feel like a sense of control etc?

CAT is....weird....lol. Well it was for me. I had it primarily to help my PTSD because I have flashbacks and nightmares. In one of our sessions I had to put myself into a flashback and then go through it. Then when I came out of the flashback I had to put myself into the same flashback again but with my adult self rescuing my child self. It really caused a lot of deep rooted memories to come back to the surface and they have never shifted since I had the therapy. I found it very stressful but different therapies work for different people. The therapy is about analysing your thought patterns and the vicious cycles they cause and trying to change the thought patterns so that there are better outcomes.
CBT didn't help me but I was about 15 or so when I had it and at a very bad place in my head then so my mind wasn't really open to therapy at that time. CAT therapy just made me feel a lot worse. It was very hard work.

xx