Depression Support Thread

Horasio

Anni just looked at your artwork - it is amazing:)

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Morning! hope you are all ok,I am up nice and early today as I am helping out at my church this morning so going off in a minute and helping until 12.30pm when Dad will come and pick me up for lunch,I normally bus over usually on a Thursday but wont make the bus as I am at the church

Have a lovely day everyone,its lovely and sunny here and got my designer sunglasses at the ready as the sun hurts my eyes

*hugs* to those that need one


love and light,

Katie xxx

Tibbie's_mum

rose07 wrote: »

Hi Tibbies mum

how r u today?

Its good you are getting out and about hun :T

And hun, you do deserve to take your medication if you want to, have you been back to see your GP does he know you dont take your meds? You dont deserve to suffer hun

Ahh baby steps are great something Tiff taught me lol. One thing at a time, break everything down, and take it one step at a time, very slowly.

Is your OH supportive? Have you spoke to him?

well done hun

take care and keep talking

xx

Yesterday was really good, thanks Rose.

Unfortunately, today didn't start off too well. My eldest is going on a school trip to the library and I should have got all his stuff ready last night, but as usual I didn't, so I spent early this morning berating myself for be such a bad mother.

My OH is wonderful and as supportive as he can be, he doesn't really understand what's going on for me and wishes that the doctors could just 'cure' me. He's not happy in his job and that adds to my depression, as there's nothing I can do to change that.

I know all the junk and clutter that surrounds me in the house is a physical mirror image of what's going on in my head. So if I tidy up and get myself organised, that's too much like looking after myself, which is well out of my comfort zone. What really upsets me, is that I comprehend what I'm doing (or not doing) and why, but I still can't get my act together.

Another thing that I can't stand, is that life carries on at great speed and I'm standing still, I'm so detatched from the outside world. I feel like my kids will be grown up and I will have missed it.

I'm really rambling today.

Hope everyone has a good day and gets out to enjoy the sun.

Diamond78

Morning Everyone,
How are you all?Hope good and enjoyinh the lovely weather. I am ok today. Woke up really early and couldnt get back to sleep so feeling a little tired. After I dropped son off to school there was a really bad accident. A guy got knocked off his motorbike.It was horrible, he couldnt move and lady that drove the car passed out. Went to docs to get my prescription but it wasnt ready so am little annoyed.
Was suppose to go shopping with my brother to the west end as he is off to cyprus soon but I cant face those areas. Its so crowded and packed.Feel bad for letting him down.
Im going to sunbath today in the garden for a while, try and get some colour as it makes me look a little healthy.I hope this weather lasts.It makes me happy.
Shaz, hope your ok hun.

LadyM, your work is fantastic, you are very very talented.Any news on plumbers?I hope its the nice one that comes back.

SF,feelingood,tiff,RBK,tulip,ccstar,meyore,milo and everyone else on here that I havent mentioned, sending you all lots of hugs xx

LadyMorticia

Heya everyone.

Does anyone here get IS and DLA? I have just had my DLA renewed but they are going to be paying it monthly and separately from my IS starting from July, whereas at the moment I get it paid with my IS and weekly. Has anyone had any success in having the DLA changed from monthly to how it was before? I find it a lot easier to budget my money weekly and when it's all together. I PM'd dmg24 (who is lovely) and she said to write to them explaining it, so I will do that but I was just wondering if anyone has had any success?

As for me, I'm not feeling too good today. I have really horrible stomach cramps and I just feel blurgh, but I'll be okay.

xx

feelinggood_2

Probably not much help LM, but when I applied for DLA they gave me the option of weekly, monthly or some other payment. I'd take that as meaning that they are able to pay weekly, so I shouldn't imagine it'll be a problem.

LadyMorticia

Thanks fg.

It's just easier having it paid weekly as I can keep track, and I hate change so having my DLA changed to monthly has really set me off.lol.

wannabe_sybil

Lady Morticia, I have not read all of the thread, because I have little time to catch up, and little bear is starting to wake up for his lunch because of the neighbours' loud music.

BUT

I thought it really important to let you know that while I was not physically or sexually abused, I had no love in my life after my father left when I was around 8. My mother never bonded with me, never cuddled with me or played with me. I was left with my grandmother who resented looking after me. And I didn't know what love was until I had my little bear. I bonded with him straight away, I love him so much it fills me with sunshine, and I am constantly working out new ways to play with him. If you are blessed with children (and I feel it is a blessing) someone who has the love and caring that you have will do fine with your children. I am sure that others on here will agree - if it is for your children it is amazing what you can do. And it is amazing how much support you can find on MSE and out in the world. Just because you will not have had an experience of a loving childhood does not mean that you are prevented from giving love to any child you are blessed with.

A bit of a rant there, I'm afraid, but I thought it was important to let you know that you do not need to repeat any cycle - from your posts you are an amazing person.

LadyMorticia

wannabe_sybil wrote: »

Lady Morticia, I have not read all of the thread, because I have little time to catch up, and little bear is starting to wake up for his lunch because of the neighbours' loud music.

BUT

I thought it really important to let you know that while I was not physically or sexually abused, I had no love in my life after my father left when I was around 8. My mother never bonded with me, never cuddled with me or played with me. I was left with my grandmother who resented looking after me. And I didn't know what love was until I had my little bear. I bonded with him straight away, I love him so much it fills me with sunshine, and I am constantly working out new ways to play with him. If you are blessed with children (and I feel it is a blessing) someone who has the love and caring that you have will do fine with your children. I am sure that others on here will agree - if it is for your children it is amazing what you can do. And it is amazing how much support you can find on MSE and out in the world. Just because you will not have had an experience of a loving childhood does not mean that you are prevented from giving love to any child you are blessed with.

A bit of a rant there, I'm afraid, but I thought it was important to let you know that you do not need to repeat any cycle - from your posts you are an amazing person.

Hello hun.

I'm sorry to hear that. I don't believe anyone should be deprived of love, and if you were my daughter then I would show you all the love in the world because you are a wonderful person.
Do you have any contact with your family? My nan keeps leaving messages on my answer phone getting mad at me. =/

It really brightens my heart to hear you talk with such joy about your son. I want children one day, but fear I might not be able to have them but even if I can't have them physically I know that there are other ways, and I could have IVF or adopt/foster, and make sure I'm nothing like my foster carers because they hurt me too. I am so determined not to repeat the cycle and if I do have children they will be brought up in a loving environment and will know that they are loved, and the moment anyone in my life tries to hurt my children, is the moment they will really find out what I'm made of.

I'm sure I'm not that amazing. I just be myself. I used to try and be whoever people wanted me to be but now I just be who I am. Thank you for your kind words. Everyone on this thread is so supportive of me. I feel right at home here. [[hugs]]

xx

gillette147

I'm at work and I'm enforcing my 1hr lunchbreak.
Sunshine is nice....altho a wall outside blocks most of it from the office.
If I hadn't got to revise I would be really pleased at how quickly the week is going. Oh well. At least by getting out there and doing some gardening I have started the chores that will leave the weekend free for revision and doing nothing. Oh how much I need my doing nothing.

Anyone near Chelmsford? The fire there yesterday was at one of our sites (not one of mine). And someone sadly died.

Once I have this exam out of the way I will be alot happier. I'm quite looking forward to being happy.

I hope you are all doing ok or better than that.
Hugs and handshakes to you all
xxx