In Search Of Me's brand spanking (behave SS!) new 2008 diary...

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In_Search_Of_Me wrote: »

oo wheres that?!! How you doing pap?

bbc2 now , not too good hun, I owe you an email i think... shall do that tommorow shall stick a postit note on this pc screen before I go to bed :rotfl:

In_Search_Of_Me

Hang in there me lovely...ooo hacking that fish! Yuck!!

In_Search_Of_Me

Morning all! Woke up at 5.30am and couldnt suss why & then realised that I left the heating on constant which is really annoying as its really warm! Feel ok - a bit odd, tired and not at all hungry! Made toast but cant eat it...wont do me any harm though! Weighed myself this am and have put on almost a stone since December which isnt good so missed breakfast wont hurt! Wil drink lots of sweet tea and a can of coke - not healthy but it will do short term.
Mum coming later and the house is clean already which is good! This am I plan to do my CJ entry and potter. I'm reading my book group book which is quite good and relaxing! Sun is shining here...doubtful that I'll get to the allotment though (hospital at 2) which is a shame as prime digging weather! Hope you all have a good day!

taxi73

Sounds like you can chill out today and hope the hospital goes well

In_Search_Of_Me

Eveing all! Had a good day despit setbacks! Went to see the consultat & glad I did (yukky stuff coming up so look away if squeemish!!). Turns out that (a) there was fuid in the lump which I though so he drained that! A fascinating mix that was!! (b) The lump remains so I may need to have it done again which is not good news. Advice is leave it 2 months & see if it drains & if not he'll book me in again. He was as apologetic as he could be but its annoying but I suspect that it will need to be done again - its very uneven, the scar on one side is very painful, lump still huge (even with fluid removed)...what a waste of time & money eh! Suggested that I loose some weight so he could tell what was "me"(ie fat"") & what is lump... so I asked if he had a cunning plan & explained that I'd literaly starved for 6 months & still only lost 5 stone & now put 2 back on!! Said I will try but have accepted that I will never be much below 10 stone and that I am happy with that, albeit safe in the knowledge that I will have a fat ar@e!!
Then went with mum to M&S & got her a new bra & nicks, had lunch (late) & tried to get me new trousers (18 too small, 20 too big!) & top but didnt like either in size on label or look generally so back to matalan me thinks! I only need a few to make do while I shift some ibs...
Back now for a chilled eve. Mum just having nice bath & I'm in my Pj's aready! CJ is finished!
How you all doing?

pania

Ahem young lady a missed breakfast will hurt actually!!! we are meant to eat 5 small meals a day doncha know! and breakfast is the most important of those meals! so slapped wrist in the nicest possible way, now on to the lump. what a bummer that is. is there any way that it may drain on it's own at all?
thanks for the PM, have got an appointment in about 20 mins then i will call after that if that is ok? big hugs. xxx

In_Search_Of_Me

thats fine i aint moving!!

taxi73

Poor ISOM...sorry about the lunp and I really hope you don't have to have it done again..how awful!!!
I think now the only way to lose weight is to eat smaller portions and exercise and that fad diets are no good.I have tried them all and am just going to eat healthier and exercise..breakfast is something I've tended to skip as well.
Well done on finishing your cj and enjoy mums visit

Sea78

Hi honey - so sorry to hear about your app - how annoying that it's not been dealt with properly. Big hugs.

You do sound positive tho which is great. I can relate about the weight - up and down like a yo yo here except more up than down. We'll just have to go for it and see what happens!

Sea xxx

Lemon_Tree

sorry to hear about them not sorting out the lump properly, i've got the cj planned to be finished either tomorrow night or Saturday so i'm on time with it. Can't wait to see the next one, think i've decided to definately not go to the crop on Saturday, i've got to bring some work home this weekend, a very remote chance i'll get paid for it, but i really must get it done and there's no other way around it.