Slaying my Debts

kika

You will get through this, it won't be easy but you've come so far. As Churchill said keep bu88ering on. Toothache is dragging you down. I hope everything went well. Did the little darlings behave for you?

Buffythedebtslayer

well the tooth is painful - or rather the gapping hole in my mouth.

it cost 123 pounds which apparently isn't bad. (hmmmmmm budget anyone?)

work has been very pressured but I just don't care any more. I will write crap reports and they will be happy, the kids will ask me why they are wrong and I will write a proper report in their books. whole thing is a bureaucratic nonsense. depressing soul destroying nonsense.

I don' know what else is going on. I need the weekend. but then I am out with my friends - which is good but what about Ou? and then sunday race for life.

just got to get through

((((kika)))

xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

quicj up date, its late I had a nice day with my friends but I think having the tooth out has made me really quite ill, so haven't felt well today. slept this afternoon so didn't write reports as I thought I would.

instead checked all my bills and moved all cc to 0% which is a good thing.
Haven't touched OU or been in touch with my tutors.

really started to feel ill about that and my reports. they need to be done tomorrow after race for life.

hopefully that won't take too long and I can just write them all night tomorrow. should have done them this after noon. still cannt shake the miseries.

once the weekend comes its such a relief and I don't want to think about anything.

any off to bed now xxxxxxxxxxx

kika

:grouphug: Hug for you. Is tooth still aching? Well done on moving things, I've had a real lazy day,

Buffythedebtslayer

I sort of forget to post here,

am so tired so this will be a short update.


good things

- finished my reports (all 266)
- did parents evening and it was good.
- moved my money on to a 0% cc
- had steak egg and chips for dinner.
- my Mum is the best mum in the whole world.


Bad things

- failed my OU course. am so disappointed. gutted in fact.
- am VERY behind in my other courses.
- can't get time off to go to the doctors.
- am shattered due to finishing reports last night and doing a 12 hour day at work.

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I wanted to sit tonight and work out a six month plan but am so disappointed with my OU result.


I am so sick of failing. just when I felt things were looking up - school is nearly done and I don't have much big stuff left to do. well actually that is not true. this weekend I am working.

maybe I never was clever? maybe it has all been luck - college, uni, I don't know. I am a teacher for God's sake.

I am going to bed.

will work on the six month plan tomorrow.

xxx

mum2one

You are clever, a very clever and careing person, who for one reason and another has been dealt a bad hand of cars.

Theres few people who are cut out for teaching, ur one of those special people, trust me I live next dr to a primary school, and some of those children, I couldnt manage 5 mins with! xx

mum2one

Buffythedebtslayer wrote: »

I sort of forget to post here,

am so tired so this will be a short update. My memory is like a sieve trying to remember what to answer to hense cheated and used ur post!!


good things

- finished my reports (all 266) well done
- did parents evening and it was good. that is a miracle in itself!
- moved my money on to a 0% cc - positive step, shows u have a gd credit rateing to get a 0% card, espically in this current climate
- had steak egg and chips for dinner. - mmmmm thou have to confess went to pub 4 tea, love steak
- my Mum is the best mum in the whole world. - good guess uve had a heart to heart


Bad things - Not bad things just a blitch in the day

- failed my OU course. am so disappointed. gutted in fact. Ok, maybe u took on too much at the wrong time, theres always another course in the future
- am VERY behind in my other courses. - have u spoke to ur tutor, they do have flexability beyond a weeks extension
- can't get time off to go to the doctors. - You need to put urself 1st, if u need the docs u need to go
- am shattered due to finishing reports last night and doing a 12 hour day at work. - cant help with that one! Really positive that u got the reports done, ok 12 hr day, but ur over half way through the week, and u need to do something for u at the weekend.

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I wanted to sit tonight and work out a six month plan but am so disappointed with my OU result. Is the OU result, an assisgnment, as there maybe chance to substitute the assisgnment?


I am so sick of failing. Ur not failing, u just trying to juggle to many balls, in one go. if it was a man they'd drop them, being a woman we try to keep them up in the air!!

just when I felt things were looking up - school is nearly done and I don't have much big stuff left to do. well actually that is not true. this weekend I am working.

maybe I never was clever? You are clever, you got a degree, u have a gd job, a lot of friends on this site, (I think of everyone as friends that I just havent met yet)maybe it has all been luck - college, uni, I don't know. I am a teacher for God's sake. No its not been luck its hard work! Hard work that u did and that u need to be pround of.

I am going to bed.

will work on the six month plan tomorrow.

xxx

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U take care, u have worked really hard, maybe u just took on too much, I cant believe how organised u are. I have to have post it notes stuck everywhere, I was such a dozy mare I turned up at my tutorial 2 weeks early! Glad i only lived 5 mins away!! xx

Bayblue

Aww cheer up buffy hun. I sort of know how you feel, sometimes life can be such a struggle. I hate (well... dislike I suppose) my job at the moment and it's absurdly stressful for the money. I swear that sometimes in my darker moments it almost seems like things were easier when I was unemployed and it felt like everyone was falling over themselves to offer me 'discounts' and reductions on my bills.

I've slightly overspent a bit his month as well, oops.

I am not around here so much any more (for a few reasons) but you were someone who was always kind enough to offer me advice and encouragement and it was much appreciated. Oh, and you've also inspired me to go to the dentist! My teeth are OK but I've let visits lapse have been storing up trouble for the future I think. So when I passed a new surgery I remembered reading how brave you've been has made me think I should sign up and get a check up. Alright, I'll be honest, I haven't actually done so yet, but hey, the thought is there .

Anyway, just wanted to send you my good wishes- chin up - I'm sure things will start looking up for you soon.

Buffythedebtslayer

Oh God I love this place. you have both made me cry!

its just great to come back on today and have such lovely replies. you are both:A thank you times a million:j :beer: :j xxxx

Well at least I went to bed pretty early last night. I had a busy emotional day at work, loads of kids loads of problems....

but hey tomorrow I have a kinda activity day so no work to do tonight so I have a chocolate mousse, a twirl, a can of coke and the simpsons.

so I shall have a think tonight about the next six months. that whole its six months to Christmas thread that started me off.

The course I failed is one of many unfortunately. I started on the OU as a way to get more quailifications, but I took on too much and withdrew, I left it for a few years and then tried again and had to with draw again, I decided it was all a big waste of money but then realised I actually missed the studying, so I tried again,

Basically I have a lot of plans that never last, I do stuff but do not stick to them. sometimes its life and other times i am just lazy. I think also at the moment I have taken on too much. I am already thinking about all the stuff I have to do in the summer. its only six weeks long but work have got us loads "development" tasks to do and i have new courses to teach plus do the garden the loft and the conservatory so they are all useable again (see what I mean!) oh and learn to drive.............

Ok. before this turns in to my complete life story I shall go and ahve a think. for once I have some time!

thank you so much Mumt2one and Bayblue, you are both fab - oh and good luck at the dentist Bayxxxx


xxxxx

mum2one

I've slightly overspent a bit his month as well, oops. Any consilation ive overspent as well, started off with good intentions.

How was the dentist, hope it went ok. xx

Theres Buffy mentionng xmas.... just under 6 mths to go!!! One of these days my lottery numbers will come up...... i keep asking for tall dark and handsome with a bulgeing wallet, but Santa never obligies....... so I think I'll ask for the lottery numbers instead xx