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Diary of a 30-something idiot

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  • WinterWarrior
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    I’m so sorry to read about Ronnie. Poor puppy and poor you. You did your best for him and he’ll know that xx
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  • kayannie
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    So very sorry to hear your sad news about your puppy, so unexpected. Be kind to yourself & remember the happiness that Ronnie brought to you albeit too briefly. xx
    KA
  • Small update time:

    Posted on the local community group the other day to see if any local jobs going as the fact Stepson has not paid any rent so far is driving me mental. Yesterday he had interview for both window cleaning and labouring. Either way, by the end of today he will be somewhat employed. If labouring, full time, if window cleaning part time, but he has signed up for UC too. So hopefully we can get him contributing ASAP. 

    He is a good egg and went to summer school with Mini Fox yesterday for a cooking session. She loved it, and made very tasty fluffy pancakes with his assistance. I am glad he is with us, even if he has hollow legs. 

    Mr Fox has decided to vape instead of smoke as he has determined it will be infinitely cheaper. This month £220 has gone on 'smoking' so vaping instead will be about £50... I am glad he's come to that conclusion himself and therefore it is not an argument. He has been more vulnerable with me in the last week than I have ever seen before. It's been interesting watching him navigate the first real tragedy of his adult life and has weirdly brought us closer. 

    I am absolutely hating my job. It's making me want to defenestrate myself on a daily basis. Got pulled into a meeting yesterday and was told they aren't sure how to deal with my diagnosis (aka me being autistic) so are referring me to Occupational Health with HR backing. Which sounds to me like they want to get rid of me. I applied for another job last night in Brokerage. I know the people in the team and they are all kind and friendly and a lot more accepting of neurodivergence, and the work is less technical. Position closes on the 2nd August so I'm hoping I get it. It's down a pay grade, but if we make some changes we can make that work. I am miserable. I am absolutely wiped out at the end of each day from trying to compress myself into a corporate box, and I am scared I am headed for another burnout. Last summer was really bad, and I don't want to go through that again. 

    Payday tomorrow. I have so many people to pay back for helping with Ronnie's upfront vet costs etc that it looks like another lean month ahead. Hopefully the insurance pays out. Because he was less than a year old we could get some money back on his purchase cost, so I've submitted a claim for that. Now I'm just waiting to see if they uphold it. 
    ❀ total debt at LBM 01/2023: £47,178.76  ❀ debt at highest point: £51,062.14  
    ❁ currently - £24,950 ❁ emergency fund - £2,500 ❁ 
     ⚜  decluttering medals: ⭐️ || running total physical items in: 74 out: 160
    £1600+ made on vinted since 2023 ⚜
    we could get better, because we're not dead yet - frank turner.  ❧ 
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  • Hi Fox, just popping on to say I think you should think really carefully before moving to a new job that goes down a paygrade. It sounds like work is hard but you may find the OH a really useful intervention. They should at least know what they are talking about. I believe you can do a good job if you stay the course. Less money would be a disaster right now. Sorry about your puppy xx 
  • MFWannabe
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    Small update time:

    Posted on the local community group the other day to see if any local jobs going as the fact Stepson has not paid any rent so far is driving me mental. Yesterday he had interview for both window cleaning and labouring. Either way, by the end of today he will be somewhat employed. If labouring, full time, if window cleaning part time, but he has signed up for UC too. So hopefully we can get him contributing ASAP. 

    He is a good egg and went to summer school with Mini Fox yesterday for a cooking session. She loved it, and made very tasty fluffy pancakes with his assistance. I am glad he is with us, even if he has hollow legs. 

    Mr Fox has decided to vape instead of smoke as he has determined it will be infinitely cheaper. This month £220 has gone on 'smoking' so vaping instead will be about £50... I am glad he's come to that conclusion himself and therefore it is not an argument. He has been more vulnerable with me in the last week than I have ever seen before. It's been interesting watching him navigate the first real tragedy of his adult life and has weirdly brought us closer. 

    I am absolutely hating my job. It's making me want to defenestrate myself on a daily basis. Got pulled into a meeting yesterday and was told they aren't sure how to deal with my diagnosis (aka me being autistic) so are referring me to Occupational Health with HR backing. Which sounds to me like they want to get rid of me. I applied for another job last night in Brokerage. I know the people in the team and they are all kind and friendly and a lot more accepting of neurodivergence, and the work is less technical. Position closes on the 2nd August so I'm hoping I get it. It's down a pay grade, but if we make some changes we can make that work. I am miserable. I am absolutely wiped out at the end of each day from trying to compress myself into a corporate box, and I am scared I am headed for another burnout. Last summer was really bad, and I don't want to go through that again. 

    Payday tomorrow. I have so many people to pay back for helping with Ronnie's upfront vet costs etc that it looks like another lean month ahead. Hopefully the insurance pays out. Because he was less than a year old we could get some money back on his purchase cost, so I've submitted a claim for that. Now I'm just waiting to see if they uphold it. 
    I thought stepson had a job working in a bar? Or is this extra work on top he’s looking for? 
    Re the job; only you can decide as you are the one working there x Would it be a small decrease or significant? 
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    07/03/25: Mortgage: £67,000.00
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    27/12/24: Mortgage: £69,278.38 

    27/12/24: Debt: £0 🥳😁
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  • @Otter_Saving thanks - I have been thinking about it a lot. The work is awful, the management is awful and the training is non existent. Have been through Occ Health before and did not enjoy it, although I was not diagnosed formally at that point.  

    @MFWannabe Bar is only occasional work unfortunately, so the hunt continues for full time for him. 
    Decrease is about £80 a month, although that would be absorbed by no longer having to pay for the puppy. I think/hope I could rejig the budget to absorb it.
    ❀ total debt at LBM 01/2023: £47,178.76  ❀ debt at highest point: £51,062.14  
    ❁ currently - £24,950 ❁ emergency fund - £2,500 ❁ 
     ⚜  decluttering medals: ⭐️ || running total physical items in: 74 out: 160
    £1600+ made on vinted since 2023 ⚜
    we could get better, because we're not dead yet - frank turner.  ❧ 
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    twentytwentythriving.
  • teamkathy
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    I'm really sorry to hear about your loss, @foxandflowers. Sending you lots of love and hope you are able to get some down-time to process and rest. I'm also sorry to hear you are not happy in your job. A poor work environment can have such a huge impact on you, so I hope you are able to secure something better where you get the support you deserve. 
  • kayannie
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    I'm not surprised that you're feeling wiped out! You're grieving over Ronnie, you're the sole earner & working your socks off to keep your household together, you're in a job you hate, you're doing all the cooking & cleaning & doing your best to make ends meet! Added to that is that you've moved house (always stressful) & that you had to make a painful decision about your other dog recently.

    Are you due any annual leave? You probably can't afford to go away, but how about spending some time to yourself or with little Fox? I think you've mentioned that you live near the sea - a few hours on a beach, playing with your daughter, would be relaxing. It won't make problems go away but you will get to unwind for a while.

    Take care

    KA


  • MFWannabe
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    @Otter_Saving thanks - I have been thinking about it a lot. The work is awful, the management is awful and the training is non existent. Have been through Occ Health before and did not enjoy it, although I was not diagnosed formally at that point.  

    @MFWannabe Bar is only occasional work unfortunately, so the hunt continues for full time for him. 
    Decrease is about £80 a month, although that would be absorbed by no longer having to pay for the puppy. I think/hope I could rejig the budget to absorb it.
    It’s awful being in a job you hate so my sympathies on that x 
    why don’t you do your budget based on the lower salary so you can see if you’ll manage?
    MFW 2025 #50: £1139.75/£6000

    12/06/25: Mortgage: £65,000.00
    07/03/25: Mortgage: £67,000.00
    18/01/25: Mortgage: £68,500.14
    27/12/24: Mortgage: £69,278.38 

    27/12/24: Debt: £0 🥳😁
    27/12/24: Savings: £12,000

    07/03/25: Savings: £16,500

  • Stepson has full time employment starting on Monday as a roofing labourer/apprentice. Over the moon. He also passed his driving theory test yesterday, so now needs to get on with finding an instructor and booking his practical. He will be paying £50 a week rent which will help us hugely. Positive steps. 

    I was going to pay the deposit on a narrowboat holiday for next summer, but the van needs tyres and I've been quoted £335 for all four tyres which is more than the deposit would have been :( Mr Fox and I were going to have a 'date' this weekend and go to the cinema to see the new Deadpool, but unfortunately, we are still surrounded by children so that's a no go. Luckily, Stepson's ex and baby are not coming to stay any more. So we are down to five people in the house as of about 4pm. I really need to do a food shop, there appears to be a packet of ham, a wilted lettuce and some oat milk in the fridge, and nothing else. Did manage to score some lamb cutlets, caramelised onion sausages and beef meatballs on orange sticker in co-op last night for £7 so they've gone straight in the freezer.

    I have been paid (finally) and have already got minimal funds left. Have had to pay back my friend who lent me the money for Ronnie's cremation, buy middle child football boots, and pay back FIL for when he lent us food money. So this month is not off to a great start. Had a problem with one of my Vinted sales where the item was damaged and I didn't realise, so have asked for it to be posted back. Both my claims with the pet insurance are still at the "Gathering Details" stage, so I don't know how much longer that is going to take. The Electrician is due next weekend, and then its Mini Fox's birthday in August and I already have a pit in my stomach over how I am going to afford presents.

    Didn't want to do any work yesterday morning, so ended up working out how much I'd spent this year so far. This year has cost me £14,798.71 so far, or £2114.10 a month. Looking at those figures I do wonder how worth it it would be changing jobs :( 
    ❀ total debt at LBM 01/2023: £47,178.76  ❀ debt at highest point: £51,062.14  
    ❁ currently - £24,950 ❁ emergency fund - £2,500 ❁ 
     ⚜  decluttering medals: ⭐️ || running total physical items in: 74 out: 160
    £1600+ made on vinted since 2023 ⚜
    we could get better, because we're not dead yet - frank turner.  ❧ 
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    twentytwentythriving.
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