Debt Reset....

jwil

Baileys_Babe said:

Well done @CRANKY40 that is a huge loss and your BMI is fastly improved. Thank you for sharing how you achieved your loss. It is stories like yours that make me hopeful I can shift my access weight. I know this is illogical but what is stopping me from trying to lose weight is the thought of failing. Yes, I know by not trying I have failed but I feel like there is a gigantic wall preventing me from taking action.

I can relate to that, it's a bit like 'I've always failed before, so why would it be any different this time?'

CRANKY40

jwil said:

That is an amazing result, well done!  You should be proud of all your hard work  

I agree there's definitely a link between overeating and debt.  Mine also relates to my mental health.

Last time I asked my GP for help, I got told to go join a slimming club and always leave a meal slightly hungry.

That’s outrageous. As I pointed out in my final phone call to the NHS lady yesterday I would be a diet club fail. What I did stop was putting food in my face mindlessly. My parents were born during WW2 and to them and to my grandparents the availability of food was an awesome thing. I don’t know how many times I was told “starving children in Africa would be glad of that dinner you’ve left” but I was forced to eat beyond comfortable on a regular basis. 

I became more aware of portion size when I had the House Troll and refused to let anyone force feed him. My mind shift for losing weight this time was that I wasn’t wasting food if I left it on my plate, I was saving myself. Gradually I became more aware of what the correct portion size for me actually was. 

Going hungry after you’ve just eaten should not be an option - we all know how that ends I assume?  It was actually a physiotherapist that referred me to the NHS service. Maybe if you ask for physio assessment of your knee problems that could be a way forward? 

CRANKY40

jwil said:

Baileys_Babe said:

Well done @CRANKY40 that is a huge loss and your BMI is fastly improved. Thank you for sharing how you achieved your loss. It is stories like yours that make me hopeful I can shift my access weight. I know this is illogical but what is stopping me from trying to lose weight is the thought of failing. Yes, I know by not trying I have failed but I feel like there is a gigantic wall preventing me from taking action.

I can relate to that, it's a bit like 'I've always failed before, so why would it be any different this time?'

The stakes were higher this time. Surgery to make walking less painful or spend the rest of my life (I'm 56) with my knees giving way and not able to walk far. I've never been particularly interested in fashion so clothes not fitting me wasn't that interesting. Not being able to go up or down stairs properly is a constant reminder - I need the other knee doing too so the up and down stairs thing will take a while. I didn't use the mindset of I might fail, I did the opposite - I want surgery. I'd never really thought about it until now, but for probably the first time I didn't think I'd failed if I didn't lose every week, my only remit was that no matter how long it took I had to reach surgery weight and every time the scales gave me a lesser number no matter if it took 3 days or 3 weeks before it changed then I was getting closer. It was a completely different mindset to previous weight loss attempts. 

I also didn't have to listen to how 20 or so people ate junk food or drank alcohol and still lost weight. I'm not saying every slimming club is like that but by the time I'd listened to all the food talk I'd leave wanting one of everything. Not very motivating to me or the two friends that I went with. We used to head straight to the bakery afterwards....

jwil

My knee has improved a lot so I'm not sure about physio.  I am trying to remotivate myself with my fitness though, as it is frustrating not being able to do as much as I want to do.

I've also got to keep my mind focussed on my early retirement plans, it would be awful to have those scuppered by not being physically able to enjoy it.

I've got to go for my bloods soon, I might use that as an excuse and ask the nurse if there's anything.  I do think I need the support.

Baileys_Babe

@CRANKY40 Your comments have be thought provoking, I need to change my mindset, more along the lines of no gain is good, losing is also good/better. I also think I might feel like I'm not failing if other things are improving, like my sleep, inches, pain, movement, energy...

Sun_Addict

That's amazing to reduce your BMI by so much. You've got a great incentive to keep going too. Well done 😊

EssexHebridean

There are a good number of doctors now who are hugely frustrated by the NHS rules around knee surgery and BMI - firstly because for at least 50% of the people needing the surgery BMI is an entirely pointless measure (for those who aren't aware, it was never intended as an individual measure, only as a population level one, and as it is solely based on white european males, there are almost certainly more of us on here for whom it is a nonsense than otherwise!) but also that it's a complete vicious circle - the best way of getting fitter and so hopefully healthier is to take more exercise, but if someone is in constant pain there is little incentive to do the things that make it hurt even more - so denying them surgery that could help to make that increased movement easier on the basis that a  completely pointless unit of measurement is in the wrong place is crazy. Hopefully the number of orthopaedic surgeons now pointing out that there is no clinical reason for insisting that most of those folk can't just have the op will start to have an effect - but I suspect as with all things involving the NHS it will be a slow process of change. 

I'm delighted to hear how fast your recovery has been Cranky - that's great to hear! Also that the HT had the opportunity to go to a prom. The tale of the gaining of the £70 also made me chuckle - fair play! 

CRANKY40

My sister had her op in Southern Ireland and there was no mention of BMI @EssexHebridean. She wouldn't have been referred here in the UK. 

This morning I have put a shelving unit together for the HT who is updating his bedroom slightly. One more to do after my lunch/teabreak. Lunch is late as the HT had an orthodontist appointment and I did the grocery shopping on the way home. Just under £61 food spend but I still need a few bits from HBs so will probably end up just under this weeks budget of £70.

CRANKY40

I'm not sure if this is a month end summary for July or a month start intention list for August but anyway....

My sister visited mid July and told me off for wearing clothes that are too big for me. She took two pairs of M&S cargo pants off me (on the grounds that they fit her better) and quite a few t shirts. I hadn't even worn a couple of the t shirts - they were bought last year and the weather has been so awful that I've been gardening in old clothes. She even made me take the top off that I was wearing (charity shop find) and give it to her on the grounds that it was very big on me. It was but it was comfy. Never mind, it's moved house to Ireland now. 

Finances are looking OK despite buying two pairs of replacement M&S cargo pants in a size closer to the size that I should be wearing. I can't wear jeans just yet as they press on my operated on knee when I sit down and it stings a bit. I had an appointment to check my knee yesterday and the op has been a success. I have full bend and I have full straighten too. 

It's time to get back to healthy eating I think. I haven't gained any weight but I haven't lost any more either. I stopped the HT going downstairs 20 minutes ago for crisps and asked him to consider a healthy option instead. He made hot drinks while I sorted some weetabix for his breakfast. I had my breakfast at 8am because I was up and dressed for a grocery delivery. We've both been eating way too much junk/snacks because it's the easy option. I found a recipe for oatcakes so I'm going to try that at some point (figuring that my scottish peasant metabolism may recognise them as food and process them accordingly instead of trying to store every single calorie that I eat). I'm also on day three of making a sourdough starter. That'll be interesting. 

I had £28.02 left in the grocery shopping pot this morning so before filling the pot up for the new month I transferred £25 to the Christmas savings. I left the odd £3.02 in the account to add to this month's spends. I read S_A's diary first thing today so I'm adopting her motto of "A positive mind brings positive things". Thanks for sharing @Sun_Addict 😊

Take care all of you 😊

Sun_Addict

Your sister has literally taken the clothes off your back 😆 You’ll feel much better in clothes that fit properly though. Baggy clothes baggy mind - there’s another motto for you 🤣