The Best View Comes After the Hardest Climb.

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Oh buffy.  I have just caught up on your diary.  I'm so sorry things are rubbish at the moment and so so sorry about the house bun.  It's no consolation and know it doesn't really help when you're going through it but things will change.  Things never stay the same x

Buffythedebtslayer

Ok So the week has be bloody hard. Monday = frantic sorting of work and mum so I could go to the funeral on Tuesday afternoon. That was hard. She was a lovely lovely woman and seeing my best mate so upset and to not be able to fix in any way was so painful, plus her lovely children and hubby. 

Nearly had a row with mum who didn't eat dinner or much else on Tuesday. Restrained myself (Was so proud!) as it wasn't worth it. She is a grown woman and I was broken hearted so didn't get involved. 

Wednesday was mass recycling day, 16 bags and 5 boxes. Nearly killed me. By Thursday I was exhausted. Went shopping Practically crying cos I couldn't lock the door! 

Due to shopping I had a nice lunch. Work is not the same. We are all stressed, no longer have lunch together and barely see each other, plus lots of people have left. Someone from SLT comes round and checks you are meeting the "guidelines and suggestions" given in the twice weekly briefing. It will be better but it is so highly stressed. You are under constant pressure and I don't know how long I will manage. I am of course meeting all the crap but I can't be that relentless on an endless cycle. 

Desperately missed !!!!!! head. Was going to text tonight. I do love him and miss him. Between the funeral, the house rabbit, the rise in gas prices, the petrol "crisis" and Mum being so ill Wednesday night I almost called an ambulance I am so lonely. So massively lonely. We would always message about the news, offer reassurance or jokes, distractions. It has been hard not sharing with him. 

Anyhow, I didn't. Instead I arranged the plumber and gardener to come in half term, annoyingly the plumber hasn't got back to me but I also texted the mechanic and am taking my car there on Sunday. Just got to keep making plans till the feelings go, till the first person I think of when I have news isn't him. 

I again have no money but am not doing anything this weekend aside from the tip, animals, gardening, and the massive tonne of work I have to do. 

Friday nights are so nice. The relief of the week being over and the expectation of a weekend of possibilities... 

Honeysucklelou2

Twice weekly briefings?😳😳😳😳🤦‍♀️.  So sorry to read that work is so pressured. Hope you are able to have some time for you this weekend.

Willowtree222

Following the suggestions? Seriously? Jeez Buffy. Education is really putting so much pressure on staff. 

Hope you have a lovely weekend Buffy and don’t burn out x

[Deleted User]

Hope you can have some down time this weekend hunny x

Buffythedebtslayer

Had the most STRESSFUL morning possible. (well I might be exaggerating a little) 

Had double booked myself for the dog groomers and hair dressers.... both at ten. 

I was late for the hairdressers but luckily she is lovely and didn't seem to mind. Thought I was ok after that... NOPE> 

dogs got done early, only just getting my hair cut at that point. Fine, had to rush, had to also get pills from chemist. Ok. Fine. Eventually made it to the dogs. all fine. 

Until 

I decided to walk the dogs up the road............Dog two - highly nervous decided to do a poo as dog one wrapped his lead round dog two's bottom. All three of us ended up pretty much covered in !!!!!!. Well Dog one was ok, his lead not so much. And the unmentionable was smeared all OVER my lovely clean dog two. 

I had a small nervous breakdown and had to back to the groomers to ask for wipes as we were in a right bloody state. 
The owner was lovely and so polite! Honestly wanted the ground to open up as the saying goes. All SO mortifying. 

Came home to a mum who didn't want lunch and I had a very nice spinach, ham and cheese sandwich. Plus a tea with sugar to help with the shock and horror!! 

Am now going to the garden once I have done a few more financial bits. 

beanielou

What a really ghastly week dear Buffster  xxx

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Nest week MUST be better

Buffythedebtslayer

I was gardening and disturbed a nest of something angry and buzzy. Have come in. Enough said I feel. 

Buffythedebtslayer

I let the buzzy creatures settle down and I cut the rest of the grass. Going to rain all sodding week mind. 

Dinner is cooking and I seem to be watching a programme on James Bond (who I love) but the dogs (Who have fully recovered from the trauma ) want their dinner............

XX