The Best View Comes After the Hardest Climb.

Willowtree222

Ah yes, I know exactly what you mean. 

Act with your own integrity and morals and you will always have a sense of peace with your own actions. 

beanielou

Buffythedebtslayer said:

I am just going to write something here to remind myself. 

 When nothing you do is good enough and when you give and give and when kindness is seen as weakness and failure you must understand that somehow people don't think how you do and don't accept reality and it is NOT a reflection on you but on them. 

And you carry on doing what is right. As that is what you believe in. and ultimately gives you peace. 

Love you all XXX 

Spot on Buffster.
Love you  xxx

Buffythedebtslayer

I must say I am tired and my back hurts A LOT and so I am feeling sorry for myself! 

However I am so so tired of having to be the work buffy, the home buffy and never just buffy. also frankly at times like this I would like to be buffy with someone special who I can rant with and moan without them saying things like don't shout and the neighbours will hear!

I am enjoying Bridgerton 2, The Gilded Age and re watching Charmed.  

I have a day and half of left of work. Then it is full on reorganisation of the house starting with the sheds(mainly binning and recycling/donation), conservatory(cleaning and a little sorting, it is mostly done), kitchen. Then the upstairs. The aim is to have the house far easier to manage so I can make it easier for me. I have got the freezer (!) under control and can reorganise the cupboards to my needs. Upstairs is a challenge.................there is little space. 

I know I have spoken of this for so long. This is the last time I will do this. I have picked a random date  - 23rd of April for all to be finished. Instead of having the jobs hanging over me I will be free.

Willowtree222

Hoping you manage to get this completed. I’m sure you will do a lot.

x

Buffythedebtslayer

and I am on Holiday. 

My new aim in life is to be Lady Danbury. 

My back is doing much better. 

I have had cake, napped and eaten fish and chips. Tomorrow is bacon sandwiches and afternoon tea and hopefully a movie night. 

I must check my bank. 
xx

Willowtree222

I’ve broken up too! It was very much needed. 

What are your holiday plans? Are you seeing your special friend? 

Buffythedebtslayer

Willowtree222 said:

I’ve broken up too! It was very much needed. 

What are your holiday plans? Are you seeing your special friend? 

I think sadly I am going to break things off him. He is great in many ways but he is far away, has very set ideas on women and I really feel like I am hiding myself from him? He has become more of a stress than a relief? Shame as he is good company. When we met I wasn't looking after mum and he was an easy escape but since Covid all that has changed. 

I am awake, for some reason sleeping seems to have made my back worse but the washing is on and it should be quite an easy day. 



XX

Willowtree222

Ah ok. If you’re hiding your true self then no point continuing if you don’t think or feel it’s right. 

X

badmemory

Just a vague suggestion but could the weight of the covers on your feet be affecting your back?

Buffythedebtslayer

badmemory said:

Just a vague suggestion but could the weight of the covers on your feet be affecting your back?

I think it was the way I slept. As I went to sleep last night it barely hurt. Now today am back to struggling to get up. Am ok once I get going! 

Bacon sandwich was nice. Now for Tea.