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Almost 50, fat and depressed!
edited 30 June at 8:15AM in Health & Beauty MoneySaving
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Apologies in advance for the misery, self-pity and mixed up waffling. I know there are people who have things a lot worse than me, but, well menopause and depression don't work logically like that!
I'm on the verge of 50 and (fingers crossed, Covid dependant) will be able to take a long planned holiday in September to celebrate. However, I had wanted to lose some weight (about 1.5 stone) in time for the holiday because I wanted to be fab not fat at 50.
But it isn't working out.
What with Covid lockdown, working from home, the gym being closed, the onset of the menopause and a new bout of depression, I just can't seem to find the motivation. I'm tired all the time and just downright fed up.I start each new week with new plans, ideas and vigour and by the Friday they're all forgotten and I'm back to square one. I can't get into and stick to a routine.
I don't want to do WW or SW (neither has been very successful for me in the past), and can't really because I think, maybe, one of my biggest obstacles is my husband.
He does most of our shopping and cooking, which is really nice usually, but he is going through a phase of wanting to cook and eat nice curries, pies, all the tasty bad things and not really caring about weight control for himself or me!I can't get him to (consistently) cook stuff to help me (and him) lose weight and I can hardly refuse the food he does make.
I am not blaming him for one minute - after all I am lucky that he does all that. I guess I could cook more or cook my own food, but he is retired and I still work so it makes sense for him to do it, and it would work out pretty expensive the two of us cooking and eating differently all the time. I try to cook more at the weekends, but he enjoys a Sunday roast and is good at them! (Lots of excuses, when I read this back to check it makes sense!)
He also likes to have a drink of an evening (he is not an alcoholic though I do worry about the amount he drinks) and I don't have the will power to not join in when he cracks open a nice bottle of wine - so that isn't helping me much either, esp with the menopause!
I started Paul McKennas hypnotherapy thing 'I can Make you Slim', and I've actually put weight on since starting it! I'm thinking of trying a meal replacement programme for a few weeks just to give myself a kick-start (any recommendations?) and have ordered a new phone which I can put some apps on, like Couch25K. But I'm truly depressed by it all and am sat here crying, at 2AM, not being able to sleep. I hate clothes shopping at the best of times and at the moment I probably have about 3 items of clothing that fit me, that I just keep rotating. With a wardrobe full of clothes I can't get into.
I know the menopause doesn't help and am on HRT. Husband wants me to see doc about depression but I can't - I don't want more tabs and don't feel that I am a worthy, or urgent, enough cause for any counselling. There are people who have it worse and need the limited assistance more than me.
I guess I'm asking if anyone is in, or has been in, the same situation and can offer some advice or encouragement.
J.xEDIT: OMG! When I woke up I realised this had turned into a bit of a husband bash and that is NOT WHAT I MEANT! Just this morning he has suggested I go back to WW and he WILL help and cook and eat to their system! He is supportive. If I can do the exercise, grow some will power and fix my head, I can have what he cooks and some of what he drinks!
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