Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 4 - The Aftermath

Baileys_Babe

Chrystal said:

Maybe the school needs to raid the petty cash box to make this type of thing available, as it's obviously needed. 

That's a very good suggestion @Chrystal especially as it is only for 4 children, even if it was only a breakfast bar or instant porridge and a drink of water or milk or juice. Not perfect but infinitely better than nothing. 

beanielou

Our FB supports this by giving cereal & juice ect to the support staff 

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all  
We do normally have petty cash for stuff - think it's just something that's been overlooked at the minute with everything going on. It had to come in useful at some point that I overthink absolutely everything. Anyway, it's all done now and as I say my conscience is clear.
So I'm sure that you're all waiting with baited breath to know exactly whether or not I got going yesterday... the answer there is unfortunately not. However, I did still get stuff done by employing the tried and tested method of 'do something I want to for an hour, then spend 20 mins doing something I don't want to'. I finished my book, and am on the second to last round of one of my crochet blankets. Went out for my walk with dd, and got the daily exercise in. Also managed to wash and dry 2 loads of laundry, change all the cat litter trays and clean the kitchen. Not properly but I cleared and tidied, wiped surfaces and mopped the floor. And then while I was washing dishes I dropped my favourite mug and this time it didn't bounce back... It smashed into about 10 pieces I know it's only a mug but it was like the last straw and I had a couple of tears about it for absolutely no good reason at all. Well, that's not entirely true. I don't know if you remember, or I mentioned, that one of my best and oldest friends stopped speaking to me a couple of weeks ago after I told her that I felt she was struggling to cope mentally. I left the door open for her to contact me as and when she wanted to, and a few days ago she started messaging me again. It has been incredibly awkward, basically because she's angry with me but I refuse to take back what I said, because I meant it. I apologised to her for the fact that she'd misinterpreted what I'd said as an implication that she wasn't trying hard enough but I still think that she needs some help and I'm very frustrated on her behalf that she can't seem to get it. So I thought we were just about sorted, but since then I've been thinking about me (rather than her) and how it's made me feel, and why I'm running round apologising and playing the bad ****** when I was trying to help. And it reminded me that I was feeling exactly how my ex would make me feel when I would try and help him and he would make me feel bad. So rather than risk another argument I've just stepped right back from the situation. I spent over an hour on the phone to another friend talking it through and I had a good cry about it but I think I need to just leave things for the minute for the sake of my own sanity. She clearly doesn't want my help so I should not be putting effort into trying to help. But we've been friends for a lot of years and it feels very sad. Time for a break - nothing like a global pandemic to make you reassess your life and what you're doing with it.
Anyway, I slept ok last night - clearly better for having gotten things off my chest with my other friend. But have woken again this morning feeling quite unmotivated. It's very grey and windy outside and I don't feel like doing much. However, a list helped yesterday so I shall list again today.
Sunday Lunch!
Finish blanket 1 AND sew the ends in...
Message out friends and family to see how we're all surviving
Maybe do that 1 hour of schoolwork I ignored yesterday  
Daily walk, forcing ds if necessary as it's been a while - staying away from places that are likely to be busy.
Choose a new book to read
Make a start on finishing blanket 2 that's more than half done
Put the rubbish and recycling out
Get the kids to hoover upstairs
Take care everyone. and have a good day  

apple_muncher

''Time for a break - nothing like a global pandemic to make you reassess your life and what you're doing with it.''

Absolutely.

Take care ccl x

Baileys_Babe

I think I might adopt the method of do what I want for an hour then 20 minutes of something I don't want to do. At least this way I should achieve something on those days when my get up and go has taken a day off

Chrystal

Glad to hear that there's a petty cash box that can be utilised.   

It's a sad situation with your friend Cat, but you've done as much as you possibly could.  Realising the way it was making you feel is also a step forward for you, insight can be a wonderful thing if you use it correctly.

So yes: ''Time for a break - nothing like a global pandemic to make you reassess your life and what you're doing with it.''

And you know what?  I think a lot of people will be doing exactly the same thing.  (((hugs)))

crazy_cat_lady

Good morning  
I must have slept funny because I have an awful pain in my shoulder today. Hardly feel raring to go at all but I've been like that for a few days now - I feel as though I'm not doing anything but I am actually doing lots of little things and staying fairly busy.
Yesterday was a work day so I had a Z00m meeting, did some GCSE grading stuff and a bit of my training - I'm learning about autism this week, and also adding BSL to my additional languages. Also managed to get a load of washing done and dried, hoover through and tidied the living room. Had to force myself out for my walk and it was after 6pm before I went - we needed bread and milk so I ventured to L1dl which has become a bit of a free for all in the past week - no security ensuring numbers in the shop any more. So I thought by 6pm it would be quieter which it was but alas they had run out of milk so that is top of the list today once school stuff is done. I do have a small shop at the top of the street which I'll venture to if it gets late again before I can motivate myself to move. I wish the weather was a bit less grey - that might help. It's certainly warm enough but quite miserable out there today. 
Working till lunchtime again today then kicking my kids backsides to do some work. Hoping to get some crochet done and I have a load of washing to hang out but it looks like it might rain (whatever I do it will be wrong).
Just more of the same really so I'd better get on otherwise I will be working much later when I want to relax.

apple_muncher

Could you get some cartons of long life milk to keep in the cupboard?

crazy_cat_lady

I have one emergency carton, which I hope I might be able to replace now - haven't checked on the shelves for that for ages. 

PurpleFairy26

Or freeze normal milk.