VelvetFreak is saving up to buy a house!

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sashybo

It's good that you're open to counselling and hopefully it will help you set boundaries with your mum. If she's not going to change then you need to have strategies to deal with her in a way that suits you.

My DH just needed time to come to terms with the emotional abuse and deal with the consequences of being brought up like that as an only child. To him it was normal although he did notice as a child that other families/parents were different. He got back in touch with his parents when he was ready. They didn't like being cut off as it meant that they weren't the ones in control anymore. 

Look after yourself Velvet. Hope you don't have another feline wake up call at 5am, 😱 sometimes I think they do things like that to amuse themselves. 🤣 

Cherryfudge

Wise words Sashybo.

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VelvetFreak

Just FYI for whoever might come across my diary and get confused: I have removed a few posts above, I decided they contained too much personal stuff. As much as I don't mind telling you guys, I also want my diary to remain at least somewhat positive so I decided to delete it.

I'm glad that Monday is over. I had a nice and productive day at work. The Annoying Coworker really turned on her antics but I was too busy to care

I did not hear anything from the recruitment guy today . Which is annoying but I've come to peace with whatever will be will be. New jobs have never come easily for me so I don't know why this one would be any different

I popped to the shops after work to get some tuna (for the cat) and chocolate (to soothe my nerves). Have just updated my spreadsheet and I still have $37.91 left in the spending budget and it's payday tomorrow. Where's the jumping emoji when you need it? Am feeling pleased as I had quite a busy fortnight with lots of social things and I spent money when I felt like it (within reason of course) and I didn't feel restricted at all I will roll what's leftover into next fortnight as I there seems to be a lot I will need to buy (hair conditioner, pet food, etc).

Am hoping to fall asleep easily tonight as sleep always helps. Will most likely have a quiet day at work tomorrow so am aiming to get a lot of my study done in case I end up with a new job and then I won't have as much time to do it anymore. 

VelvetFreak

I finally got a call from the recruitment guy and it was confusing and disappointing

The employer has decided to put the role on hold at this stage as it seems they are going through too many changes at the moment and don't think it's a great time to bring a new person on They may re-open in it 1-2 months once they get everything sorted out and he may be in contact again then. He seemed to think he might have another suitable position coming up that could be a good fit for me, so he is going to keep me in mind for that one. 

I'm definitely disappointed but they don't sound like the most organised people so I suppose it's probably for the best. At least now I can focus on finishing my diploma. I am going to try and get it done as soon as possible so I can add it to my resume. I made some good progress today and have almost finished the easier one of the two assignments but seem to be stuck on the more difficult one. I also did a practice exam and have brushed up in the areas where I got questions wrong and have booked my exam for next week.

In other news, today was payday so I have added $582.34 to the Savings which brings the total to $696.04

Positive things today:

• Have done a survey which has earned me $5.04 (although can't cash out til I reach $20)
• A bracelet that I bought on eB@y came in the mail
• Great progress on my study 
• Feeling good despite not being successful for the job (weight has been lifted)
• The weather is finally cooling down. I currently have a dressing gown on
• Planted seeds in the garden on the weekend. Hopefully all this rain will make them grow

Cherryfudge

It seems strange they should advertise a role then decide they aren't ready to fill it, but I've seen some very weird things go on where job adverts are concerned. And you weren't unsuccessful - they like you enough to keep you in mind for this other role. I agree though that it rings a (small) alarm bell when they aren't well organised. Perhaps see if you can find out any more about them by some means so you know which way to go if they contact you again. Meanwhile having time for the diploma sounds like a great idea. Study can be so time-consuming.
Yay to dressing gown weather (about time!) and a huge increase in savings! I think things are looking better.

VelvetFreak

They did tell me in the interview that it was a new role that they'd created because they were expanding and had the need for another person. They also said that they'd tried to advertise it before but no one suitable ever applied so when they saw my application they were very keen to meet me. I have actually have a good friend who used to work there a few years ago and she said it was awful but the awful people seemed to have retired? Not sure what's going on to be honest. I don't know why they'd bother advertising it through a recruiter and doing an interview (at 7:30 in the morning!) only to not go ahead with anything.  Strange.

VelvetFreak

I am tired as all heck. I was awake til 3am last night worrying about lord knows what, but nevertheless I have had a productive day.

I spent $125.99 on food for the cat and the goldfish! Have ordered it online in bulk. Gotta spend money to save money sometimes. They shouldn't need food for at least a year now.

Did the grocery shopping in my lunch break. Spent $80.32 but used $75 of store points that I have built up. Have earmarked the $75 cash to put into savings but I might end up using it as I think it will end up being an expensive fortnight. I will try and spend less next week as this lot should last me a while.

Have been busy at work but also working on my assignment, typing away like a woman possessed and ignoring the Annoying Coworker every time she reads aloud the rubbish that she sees on F@cebook (yes she goes on FB on the work computer, cue me rolling my eyes so hard that one of these days I'm going to tip my chair over backwards). I don't know how someone can lack self awareness so much. I wish she would channel her energy into something more constructive or at least shut up! Where's the "banging your head against a wall emoji" when you need it?

I am on track to finish this subject by the end of next week, and then I only have one subject left to get my diploma certificate. And then I will probably do more subjects because I enjoy punishing myself. And furthering my career of course Have booked my study day for next Friday. 

I am dead tired but need to find motivation to finish cleaning the kitchen, clean the cat litter and take the rubbish out. Was going to put a load of washing but have decided not to and will just wear strange clothing combinations from the depths of the wardrobe instead

VelvetFreak

Happy Friday! I think I need to need to join Overthinkers Anonymous

Spent most of the morning thinking about how I should refinance my mortgage to get a cheaper rate (always thinking about this as my rate is stupidly high despite having a staff discount at the time I took out the loan. Darn rotten banks! ) However there are some annoying roadblocks that make it quite difficult to achieve. One being that my unit hasn't really gone up in value since I bought it and two, the amount I owe is so low that it's below the amount that banks will typically give the good rates to. Anyway, I made a post on a FB group and a mortgage broker has offered to help me, so we'll see what she comes up with. I think in order to refinance I will need to put some more money into the loan as my lending to value ratio is not great! I only put 10% down when I bought it and like I said, it hasn't gone up in value. I don't think I even own 20% of my unit yet! If you're wondering how ridiculous interest rates are here in Aus, I'll tell you. Mine is 3.5%! With staff discount! Where is the EEEKKK emoji?

I'm happy to pay some extra towards it from my savings if that helps me to save lots of money on interest, but at the same time, I feel like that's a bad idea because it takes money out of my savings and I do want to buy a different place eventually as this one is so small and I'm just tying more and more money up in this damn 1bedroom unit.

Putting more money into the loan also takes that money away from being used for finishing the renovations which is very annoying as I just want to get them done!

In job/career news: Once again I have decided not to let The Annoying Coworker ruin my career. I found out yesterday that my other coworker is pregnant (but no one else knows yet!) so I've sent my boss a lengthy email asking to have a meeting about me taking on more advanced tasks especially once I finish my diploma. I will most likely be expected to take on my coworkers job when she goes on mat. leave so I might as well start learning stuff now. I also complained (constructively) about The Annoying Coworker and how we might work to fix the issues. I doubt anything will be done but at least my boss will be reminded of what she is like. I had to say something because I almost burst into tears yesterday talking to my friend about it. It's becoming so stressful. I plan to say more in the meeting but some of it I just didn't feeling like putting in writing because I don't want him to take it the wrong way.

I got another call from The Recruitment Guy (who I seem to be becoming very good friends with) to tell me that he put my name forward for a role he had in mind and they don't want me because I don't have enough experience . I feel like I'm in an awkward spot where I'm too experienced to get the same job elsewhere but too inexperienced to make it up to the next level so I am stuck. I have asked The Recruitment Guy for some help with my resumè so he is going to talk to me about that when he gets back from holidays in 2 weeks.

Anyway, that's my ranting for now. I am off to clean the house because I have a friend coming over tomorrow for a chat and to check out my renovations