I want to believe I can do this!

LexieLou

Hey Pidge,

How are you?

Me x

pidge04

LexieLou wrote: »

Hey Pidge,

How are you?

Me x

Completely lost ... down in the dumps and cannot see for the wood for the trees right now. Got to lift myself out of this. Need to find a second job. Got some free time this morning to try and be proactive. How are you, LL?

pidge04

I have applied for work at the shop I worked at as a Saturday girl in the 1990s.

I am not sure though if it is a viable option because I do need to make sure I am around for my daughter.

Shift work at a large supermarket would be best I think.

But it is a start.

pidge04

I have paid the £24.99 to join a babysitting website. Really hope it pays off!
I have contacted 5 families. Fingers crossed.

pidge04

Ok I have signed up for babysitting in 3 places online. Really hope something comes of this.

LexieLou

Hey Pidge

I have a friend who works on a Sat am at a local supermarket distribution centre. Stupid hours, from 7am - 1pm on a Sat, but she gets staff discount in said supermarket and also its a weekly slot. Is this a possibility?

Keep taking each day as it comes, 'this too shall pass' as they say

Much love
xx

pidge04

LexieLou wrote: »

Hey Pidge

I have a friend who works on a Sat am at a local supermarket distribution centre. Stupid hours, from 7am - 1pm on a Sat, but she gets staff discount in said supermarket and also its a weekly slot. Is this a possibility?

Keep taking each day as it comes, 'this too shall pass' as they say

Much love
xx

That would suit me perfectly. Thanks. I never look at the distribution jobs. I will include them in my search tonight!

Feel like there is lots of money going out today Lexie Lou and nothing coming in!! How are you?

ftbwannabe

Just a quick hello from me. Sorry to hear you've been down. Totally 100% think finding counselling is a good idea, it can feel scary to arrange but it's helped me & others. It's wonderful to have someone you can talk to who's job it is to listen, you don't have to justify yourself or sugarcoat things with a pro like that.
Maybe, too, while it can be helpful to obsess a bit about money in order to keep paying attention to it (that's what I do), that can be exhausting & add to anxiety when there's other things going on. This is a marathon, not a sprint (& we'll be cheering you on in 2020 when you make that last payment!)
You've done brilliantly, we can all see what a nice person & great mum you are from your diary here, it always cheers me up to see your positive comments on our diaries. I hope some of that shines back on you, you deserve it.

LexieLou

pidge04 wrote: »

That would suit me perfectly. Thanks. I never look at the distribution jobs. I will include them in my search tonight!

Feel like there is lots of money going out today Lexie Lou and nothing coming in!! How are you?

I'm tired Pidge, not sleeping early enough and then sleeping in, you know that vicious cycle.

Made a huge pot of soup tonight. I've some set aside to freeze. I do worry about things too. At the min I'm super positive and motivated, but I know that won't last .

Cleaned the living room and hoovered the hall...go me. Only cleaned the living room as I need to iron bedlinen and there were dog hairs on the floor. After that I couldn't face getting the iron out so put the bedlinen on the bed unironed and reckoned the heat of me would iron out the creases by morning....:rotfl:

Someone mentioned a counsellor, have you considered that? I went to one once, it was amazing....I think at times about going back to one. I've also noticed recently that as I'm walking the dog for 2-3 miles each night I'm more zen like. It's also been commented in work (while the others had a mammoth rant about a boss - I just listened (not like me usually). Change of circumstance means I'm walking the dog each night. Prior to that it was once / twice a week only.

Sorry for the novel, and totally taking over your page. Hope some of my crazy life made you smile xxx

Night Pidge:A

LL xx

pidge04

ftbwannabe wrote: »

Just a quick hello from me. Sorry to hear you've been down. Totally 100% think finding counselling is a good idea, it can feel scary to arrange but it's helped me & others. It's wonderful to have someone you can talk to who's job it is to listen, you don't have to justify yourself or sugarcoat things with a pro like that.
Maybe, too, while it can be helpful to obsess a bit about money in order to keep paying attention to it (that's what I do), that can be exhausting & add to anxiety when there's other things going on. This is a marathon, not a sprint (& we'll be cheering you on in 2020 when you make that last payment!)
You've done brilliantly, we can all see what a nice person & great mum you are from your diary here, it always cheers me up to see your positive comments on our diaries. I hope some of that shines back on you, you deserve it.

Thank you, my MSE friend! I reckon I will get out of this slump with the return of work on Monday - back into my routine, will hardly be spending any money etc. It will be a long and twisty road for us both until Summer 2020 but we can do it!