LonelyRat's (not so lonely) Road to Riches

doingitanyway

Glad you are on the up and well done for getting off alcohol again.

It isn't how often we fall down that matters but how many times we get up.

You have inspired me with the skincare stuff. There used to be someone on here called Orange Ena who used to do Facepack Friday and I did it too. I need to restart it

lonelyrat

Hello everyone, thanks for checking in Scott I was up at 20 kg loss but the diet/ exercise went a bit sideways there! Am back on track now and hopefully will shift some more Thanks SSDD23 - I'm glad too! Fingers crossed the positivity lasts!

Lucifa you're right, as always ... Having my monthly rail ticket saves me money and takes the stress (well some of the stress - grr scotrail!) out of my commute. It's just an eek moment when I pay for it! I know some people have it way worse with their travel costs as well.

I did make the call to the GP but the receptionist said something about emergencies only and told me to call back today. I should have just stood my ground and asked for an appointment but I don't think I count as an emergency unfortunately. OH has said he will call today and see if he can book an appointment for me as it really is something that sends me into a spiral. I'm getting a wee bit worried as I run out of my meds in a few days and don't know if I'll get an appointment in time. Fingers crossed OH gets somewhere for me I always leave calling too late as their phone system is really stressful, but then the fact I leave it late makes it even more stressy!

Day off was fab.... Went for a walk and did 17,062 steps It's been ages since I'd gone on a big walk and it felt really nice to be out and about. I did walk a bit too far away from home and the walk back was a bit tiring, but it felt good all the same. My leg got quite sore and is still aching today so am thinking I may need to speak to the GP about that too as it's been the same for months now. It kind of feels like my leg has popped out the hip socket... It's a sharp pain when I stand on it and an ache most of the time. Usually I just suck it up, but when walking a lot it gets quite bad.

Thanks DIA - feeling much, much better off the booze. I just needed a day or two without drinking to clear my head again. But it was tough. I think because I've been extra stressed recently it was easy just to fall back into it... but hey ho, am 4 days sober now. It's a shame to re-set my clock but this time I will do better Glad I could inspire you with something (I don't feel very inspirational :rotfl: am still sat in bed in my dressing gown right now!) I do really like it... It's nice to have something to unwind with before bed. I usually stop looking at my phone, burn some lavender oil and then do my skincare routine and the combination of it all just sends me to sleep straight after!

lonelyrat

Plans for today:
1. 10,000 steps
2. Shower
3. Laundry / general tidying
4. Return ASOS parcel to post office
5. OH phone GP for me

Didn't manage the gym before work on Tuesday (trains were very delayed and I didn't have enough time). Will be trying it tomorrow and see how I get on. Have gotten myself back into a routine with bed time thankfully and am feeling much more rested. Here's hoping I keep everything up!

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I'm glad your OH is calling again for you today, it's easy to feel like it's not important (been there and done that with the doctors countless times :mad: ) but it really is!

That's an impressive walk, but do bring up the pain, you don't want to end up with anything serious

Lovely to see you back xx

Lucifa73

lonelyrat wrote: »

Lucifa you're right, as always

This is what I keep telling my husband!!! He just laughs...

lonelyrat wrote: »

... Having my monthly rail ticket saves me money and takes the stress (well some of the stress - grr scotrail!) out of my commute. It's just an eek moment when I pay for it! I know some people have it way worse with their travel costs as well.

I am lucky enough to get a travel loan through work but it still hurt when I had to pay over £2k for my annual ticket :eek: The only way I keep chill is reminding myself I am actually saving a decent amount.

lonelyrat wrote: »

I did make the call to the GP but the receptionist said something about emergencies only and told me to call back today. I should have just stood my ground and asked for an appointment but I don't think I count as an emergency unfortunately.

Well done. I find doctors' receptionists tricky - I mean how dare we ask for the support we need from the people we pay tax and NI for. I hope OH gets something sorted for you.

Speaking of OH - any progress with finding work, or should I just not ask

lonelyrat wrote: »

It's a sharp pain when I stand on it and an ache most of the time. Usually I just suck it up, but when walking a lot it gets quite bad.

Sounds like an inflammation I had of a femoral ligament - it flared up when I started running. Definitely mention it to your doctor. I got a prescription for it and it lifted after a month or so.

You certainly are sounding much better which is fantastic.

dustydigger

Hi Lonelyrat - or Lovely as Lucifa named you! - so glad to see you back.So sorry not to comment earlier.Both me and Mr Dusty have been,indeed still are,ill,and I havent been online much.

Sorry for all your health problems. I also have some similar issues and I know and sympathise with your struggles.Hang in there!
Glad you are getting back control of the alcohol,I have only been tempted a couple of times when really depressed with the torrent of problems,but managed to keep off it,as I thought the alcohol would exacerbate the depression
. Totally lost the plot with the stress eating though.Put 30 lbs,over14 kg,back on since June,am gaining an horrendous kilo a week from stupid stress eating,sweets,bread,carbs,all the things I managed to do without almost effortlessly when losing 25 kg or more in 9 months. Then the thyroid stuff knocked me for a loop,discouraged me when I couldnt lose any weight. Then all the extra real life issues came in and really put the lid on it,and I am almost back where I started,(well,am still about 12 kg down on my original weight,but I am back to aches and pains,breathlessness because I am way back up in the bad zone,really upsets me,but I seem out of control.Very worried that my stupid behaviour will bring the diabetes back,that terrifies me after watching my poor sister suffer badly for years. I MUST get a grip..... What a life!:(
About the telephones,our surgery is also a nightmare to reach by phone.Mr Dusty was wanting to phone for an ambulance when repeated calls to the docs didnt get through. I phoned the 111 healthline,and Mr D was so pathetic and claiming to be at death's door(check up my diary for the apparently hilarious posts on the situation) they made an immediate emergency appointment at 7.30 pm,out of surgery hours.I had spent 2 days trying to get through. Occasionally in the past when I am ill but at least mobile I have gone into the surgery to book an appointment,and if you stress how ill you are they sometimes squeeze you in later in the day or within a day or two.Hard to put you off face to face. Are you far away from the surgery?
Oh for the good old days when I was young. You walked in the surgery,asked ''Who's last?'' Someone puts their hand up,you say''Right,I'm after you,''then sat for about an hour,but you always saw the doc that very day. Ah,the good old days. Now,even with an appointment system,I never wait less than 20 minutes after my appointment time - which is normally 4 or 5 days later.

The surgery is always complaining about how ''last month 123 people did not turn up for their appointment'' I know they should have cancelled,but waiting 4 days to see a doc,you are probably better,in hospital or dead!:D

Take care

lonelyrat

Lucifa73 wrote: »

This is what I keep telling my husband!!! He just laughs....

:rotfl: :rotfl:

Job front with OH not going particularly well... He was offered a job as a bus driver but has turned it down as if he left before a certain amount of time he'd need to pay back training costs. He also spoke to an agency lady the other day and she said there was some factory work going near us and he could do 9-5 there. But he's turned that down too as he feels he's better than it. Which is fine BUT I have no idea what he is actually going to do.

He started off saying he didn't want a desk job, now when he has opportunities for two different non - desk jobs he doesn't want them. He's now said he'd rather work in a call centre - which was what he adamantly, 110% did not want to do a few months ago.

I don't want to pressure him, as I feel like the worst decision I probably made job wise was panicking after Uni finished and going for a call centre job. It kind of erodes your confidence in the ability to do something else I think. I don't want him to get into the same sort of cycle I've gotten into.

I am, however, getting close to breaking point.... I feel like I can't imagine our life any further than a month in advance because we're so screwed money-wise. I can't make any plans or imagine our future because I can't see out of the rut I feel like we're in. I've started doing quite a bit of overtime so should hopefully make another £100/£150 next month. But that isn't a substitute for a 2nd wage and I don't really feel like I'm in the best headspace for it. BUT, we shall see how I get on

Sorry for such a whinge... It's just all bubbling quite close to the surface. Hopefully I have some good news soon. It's now been 6 months :eek:

On the job front I've been looking and have found/ applied for something in the town we'll be moving to. Fingers crossed I get an interview... Am currently waiting to hear back after some situational judgement tests. Although an interview will only add to my stress :rotfl:

lonelyrat

That whole post was just a massive long whine... So will move onto another more positive one to actually update what I've been up to :rotfl:

OH called the GP for me and got me an appointment. I may moan but he's a :A. Appointment was today and am just carrying on with how things are going with the anti-depressants. Review appointment will be needed again in a month... But now I know OH can book them for me I feel more chill.
Am actually enjoying the gym :eek: Have got myself into an OK routine re: gym/ work and think if I can just stick to counting my calories I should lose some of the weight I gained pretty quick. Hopefully, anyway. This morning I got an early train and got into town just after 6, it meant the gym was busier than if I went when I finished, but I got to travel on a quiet train both ways which I much prefer. Avoiding the commuter trains makes me happy.

Today I did 12755 steps I'm not managing 10,000 every day - but I think I'm going to ease back into it. Going to aim for 5 days a week and see how I feel. Maybe I'll get the walking bug again once I've been at it for a bit.

Pay day been and gone again... Thankful for the overtime that I did last month. It's going to be a tight one again. Made my debt payment and paid minimums to OH's stuff now just waiting for dd's to go out. Have about £175 to spend for the rest of the month once everything has gone so here's hoping nothing dramatic comes up. Am already counting down the days until payday

Some good news - I can upgrade my phone in a week. Which also means I can downgrade my phone in a week! I'm hoping it also means I can cancel, but I'm unsure. Will need to have a nosey. I currently pay £35 which is ridiculous. Am looking forward to having that drop... Have found a sim only deal I'm going to go for that's £15 a month and if you don't use all your data it gets refunded off your next bill :cool:

doingitanyway

Great on the SIM only deal
Well done on all the exercise, especially as you seem to enjoy it too. Win. Win.
You don't come over as a moaner to me at all. In fact I find you inspiring.
Life is tough sometimes, no point in pretending it isn't. It's what you do about it and you do loads to get back on track. Have a good day

Lucifa73

Excuse me but !!!!!! does OH think he's playing at? Get a job and earn some cash while you find what you really want. Does he understand the pressure on you as the sole earner. Also, if he is on JSA (or whatever it is called these days) he needs to be careful as he will lose them if he knocks back jobs.

Sorry if that is out of line but from where I'm sitting he is being pretty selfish on this one. I think you have every right to be fed up with this.

Hope the job down south comes through if that's what you want.

Well done on the steps/gym. I find once I'm in a routine its really enjoyable - for me getting past the first week and weekend is key, then it becomes second nature. I suspect the walking will pick up again when the days start to get longer and the weather is more agreeable which is totally understandable.