Fall too Pieces

Scott_Weiland79

I am trying to rebuild theres no going back to my ex oh , i have emailed her loads but she wont budge. I have even sent her flowers on flowers saying sorry, etc nothing fixes it. 

I am at my olds place and i am training loads to keep my head right i am not back to work till next week. I have renegotiated my dmp with Step change its going from a couple of hundred a month to 1000 ish pm, given twelve months i will be clear. Driving test is in a couple of months. Mental health wise i am not stable i am yoyo ing constant and i keep crying like a flipping girl at random stuff, yes ladies us blokes do cry, i love her and whats happening is cutting me to shreds. 

I feel like well i cant say, but i suppose the powerful play goes on and i still have another verse to contribuate.

Scott_Weiland79

I am sorry i havent posted in a long long time. 

I hope everyone is okay x 

efes_shareholder

Hope your ok Scott

Scott_Weiland79

No not really debts are flying down 1000pm but bar that everything else is meh. In 8 months i will be clear, but i miss my step kids and ex like crazy. Lost everything 

efes_shareholder

Scott_Weiland79 said:

No not really debts are flying down 1000pm but bar that everything else is meh. In 8 months i will be clear, but i miss my step kids and ex like crazy. Lost everything 

Be kind to yourself.
its quite possibly one of the worse feelings when a relationship you were invested in and valued doesn't work out , I know its an old cliche but time really does heal and although you may not feel you have many reasons to smile right now , please try , this world is and can be a wonderful be.

A positive is that the debts are flying down , take a day at a time and ride the waves of the emotions that come with a break up  and try and do something for you other then paying the debts 

Scott_Weiland79

Yeah it really doesnt feel that way, day by day i just have no hope. Day by day i just am not functioning at all. 

efes_shareholder

Hi Scott
Don't be afraid to reach out to people around you or medical proffesionals if things feel too bleak

EssexHebridean

Hope things are starting to feel a bit brighter Scott. 

Scott_Weiland79

EssexHebridean said:

Hope things are starting to feel a bit brighter Scott. 

They are now thanks Essex

I have moved into a new share house in December very very "This Life" the tv show. I live with 2 nhs staff, a marine biologist named after a hoover (Henry) and a guitar teacher.

I am living in central Newcastle which has being a bit of a culture shock, its going okay on the relationship front yes i am in a new one more details too follow.

I have sucked at posting recently but i am going to get my act together and post more often i promise guys, its time that 19years banking experience got put to good use.

Scott_Weiland79

Right details details details

Debts wise i am down to just under sub 9000 the ex from hell left me with a few unexpected lovelies

Survey wise i am hammering Qmee and prolific academic as thats all i really do these days, that and receipt uploading to cash back sites.

I cant wait till payday as i am recovering from the horrible thing called Valentines day lol, no i am joking i had a lovely day yesterday.  The new wife was spoilt Flowers/Chocolates/Prosecco/and more prosecco.