Crazy Cat Lady Chapter 2 - Groundhog Day

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all :wave:
DH finally opened up to me yesterday about how he's lost all of his confidence again. There is one aspect of his job that he doesn't do very often but has had to do every day over the past week. I think he feels he's not very good at it and so is giving himself a hard time about it. Thankfully he seemed a bit brighter when he got home last night. Hopefully he'll get through today ok as well - it's a big day for him - 6 years today since his mam died. I don't know how much he thinks about it or if it affects him a lot but I know it would if it were me. I'm going to buy some flowers today - I usually do on her anniversary.
Yesterday afternoon was pretty quiet - me and the kids went out pokemon hunting at a local park but had been there less than 10 minutes when it started chucking it down. We stuck it out for another 10 minutes but then came home and snuggled under some blankets on the sofa with a bit of tv for the kids and crochet for me. I had a nap (yay for afternoon naps!) and then made dinner.
Today, we have one of my best friends and her kids coming to visit, which will be lovely. We've been friends for a long time, and no matter how down I'm feeling she always manages to make me feel an awful lot better. She's a fantastic person and I think the world of her. So we'll be out for lunch - then I have a suspicion she might want to go to Primarni as she normally does when she's here. I have a £50 budget for clothes for the kids that I can spend if we do go there. We'll see what's what when she gets here. In the meantime I need to do a very quick tidy round and hoover.
I'll be back later to update - have a good one :j

crazy_cat_lady

Quick check in before bed. My lovely friend has only been gone an hour, and I have completely blown the budget today. I might care about it tomorrow, but I don't today - it's just been so good. I spent a fortune on clothes for the kids (£98 - but that includes all underwear for the year ahead and 3 outfits each) and we had lunch out as well. I just love being in her company - not that it makes me spend or anything. I had budgeted £50 for kids clothes but went way over, and £40 for lunch and came in a bit under.
DH seems ok - went to work without a bother today. I've filled a holiday form in for him and given him strict instruction to get it handed in asap. Also did a little PAD on the cc. Think I'm going to make a very generous PAD tomorrow to make up for the overspend today and remind me where I should be with my money.
Have a good one and I'll be back tomorrow.

Bobarella

Sounds a lovely day. And glad to hear DH is feeling better.

AspiringButAnxious

Happy new diary! :j

Dh is bound to have ups and downs — I'm only just learning to accept that having a bad day (or week, or more...) doesn't inevitably mean that my mental health is deteriorating. Sometimes intense reactions are normal — most people would be badly affected by having to do a task which they feel unconfident about, let alone when it's around the anniversary of a loved one's death. The trick is to accept this without catastrophising, though that's easier said than done!

Florence_J

Hi CCL,

I have lost my way a bit, as I am unfortunately basically unemployed (I technically am not, but won't go into detail when for all intents and purposes I am unemployed), and have been using a Credit Card to support myself.

I thought I would go back to basics. I thought I would have a quick glance at the debt free diary section of this site to find more inspiration, and I saw yours and recognised you from other threads on here so I knew it would be a good one to start with.

Wow, can I just say from this brief and new diary of yours you have already inspired me a lot. I love the way you carry on, the way you PAD (with no incoming income this is something i've had to stop), the way you look after your family (your OH and kids) not to mention your kitty's (especially naughty tortie).

Yes there will be moments when things are tough, but i admire the way you can see that there is a pathway to a brighter future.

Fact, you have been here before and you have achieved great things.

Fact, you will succeed again.

I just want to say thank you as my last post on my DFD was a bit negative and I feel like I have a new vision for the future.

Thank you, and keep going.

Have subscribed. x

crazy_cat_lady

Hi all
Quick check in from my phone... So rubbish formatting and spelling mistakes ahoy. I did intend to come on here and update earlier but got caught up with my crochet and have literally had to force myself to put it down and come to bed. And now I've done the sin of picking my phone up
So my Marinke blanket is almost done It's been a heck of a project. Marinke was a lovely lady whose blog I followed, who sadly killed herself due to depression. The blanket I've made is a CAL that she was working on and some of her friends have finished off. The kit came with a donation to Mind and I almost have a gorgeous blanket just for me...
Other than that it's been a quiet day all in all. Picked up dd's school uniform and bought her PE trainers. Almost there - just ds PE kit, shoes and coats for both to go.
Went Pokemon hunting in the rain by the coast. Kids were hyper to catch a Pikachu each. I'm thrilled that they're generally happy with this low spend activity every single day...
DH up at the moment. We got through yesterday ok and he's doing ok, although not sure how he will be when I have to ask him for money...
Quick hello to everyone. Thanks ABA for the always sound advice. And hello Florence :wave: Your kind words have almost brought a tear to my eye...
Ok. I need some sleep - see you all tomorrow :hello:

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all :coffee:
My sleeping patterns are starting to get a bit rubbish again to be honest. Had a rough night Wednesday and have been awake on and off since half four this morning. I wonder if I'm not doing enough during the day to properly tire myself out. (Here I go overthinking everything again) Thankfully the sun is out today for the moment so we should get a good hour or two out pokemon hunting. That's if I can drag myself away from finishing my blanket. I have a funny feeling that once I start here again with it then I may not move - so I'd better wash dishes and get the washing started before I even pick my crochet up :o:o
Florence - thanks for your kind post. I certainly don't feel inspirational - I'm just a permanently stressed woman trying to hold everything together... I'm going to go and take a look at your diary.
So, no real plans for today other than ds has a friend coming later for a sleepover. Surely that should be motivational for getting a bit of housework done. The kitchen is a mess at the moment - I hardly even want to go in there. Also, I bought some reduced iced buns which I now want to dismantle and make into something else because they are well past their best. I'm wondering if it might be worth attempting some sort of bread and butter pudding... or trifle...
As time is ticking on, I'm off to finish catching up on here and then we'll see what today brings. Have a good one!

crazy_cat_lady

Morning all :hello:
See previous post re rubbish sleep patterns. I went to bed at 1130 last night - woke up just after 1am feeling really unwell and was up for a bit, then woke up at 445 this morning and just haven't been able to get back to sleep. I don't feel sick any more - and I have a training session at half past seven so there's no point trying to get back to sleep again at the moment. I suspect I'll be tired enough to nap when I get home after my training. DS has a friend staying over, but they have a football match later, and dh should be dealing with that.
No real plans for the day other than to try and be kind to myself because I'll no doubt be irrational and emotional later on. In fact I'm already feeling more miserable than I should be - I hate being tired because it really gets me down.
Yesterday was reasonably uneventful - I managed to bag a nsd which is good going at the moment. I spent a long time working on the blanket but it's still not done so that will be on the list for today as well. Other than that I think it will be sleep and telly watching. I will just take it easy and see how I go.

juliejim

Morning CCL

A nice relaxing day in front of the tv with your crochet seems in order. After your training session of course.

Hope you get a better night's sleep tonight.

Jue

crazy_cat_lady

I lied - I was sick after all _pale_
Got up to go and get changed for training then went all funny and ended up lying on the bathroom floor for half an hour (the cold floor helps me feel better if I feel unwell - weird but true). So I've done literally nothing today except nap (for 3 hours) and some crochet. I'm ok if I'm sitting down but if I try and get up to do anything I feel awful. So I'm staying firmly sat down
Nothing else to report - today has been a complete nothingness of nothing.