Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

whitewing

We saw the most glorious double rainbow as we came back from MIL's just now. (Do you see the word rainbow as rainbow-coloured, WaS?)

I was feeling slightly resentful about the family visits today but took my scrapbooking stuff with me and did it there. So I am very pleased as I managed to finish it. Plus I had a few glasses of alcohol too so am mellow.

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahaha! I love the minion shed! Do it Fly!

Rainbow is indeed in rainbow colours whitewing, with lots of little colours bouncing off it like sparklers.

Thank you, JM! It is really hard to describe some aspects of how catatonia is because there is little to compare it to for those that don't suffer with it. I certainly experienced nothing like it until it developed. It isn't just switching off in my case, it is literally going into the void which is a tangible place and then time and emotion stops and there is just deep darkness. The world doesn't exist there but at the same time I am in a place which I have named, not unconscious as such. It is as equally hard to describe the feelings that lead to it but I did my best! It might be different for others, it isn't something people discuss for various reasons which is a tad frustrating for me because I would love to compare experiences.

We messed up the clocks going forward until midday too, elsien! I have also not had an easter egg yet which I need to deal with right now.

System

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The wedding was actually lovely, it was a beautiful ceremony and my cousin looked stunning in her wedding dress. And as for my Grandma, i actually feel really bad for thinking she'd say something, its been 10 years since i last saw her and tbh she's very very frail now She told me i looked beautiful and it was nice to see her again.

Unfortunately although i made it through the wedding the cold i've had has gotten worse and i ended up staying in last night and not seeing Swain today as i feel horrendous *if you need me i'll be feeling sorry for myself in the duvet fort!* My weekend plans have somewhat gone to pot :mad: but there's nothing i can do but rest and look after myself.

Forgot to say work bought me a hello kitty easter egg for helping us win the super selling day the other week its so pretty i can't bear to eat it! Also cos we won we get a £10 voucher, i've been saving mine up (have £50 worth now! ) and i'm going to buy Swain some Lego with it.

Pyxis

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What was the Super-Selling day?

Waves_and_Smiles

I am so pleased that the wedding went so well, MU! Enjoy your easter egg and well done on the Super-Selling day! Boo to the cold though, time to snuggle up in blankets and watch lots of tv.

System

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What was the Super-Selling day?

Donuts i sold about 75 that day, and we won in our whole area for selling the most (week before i got 91)

WaS i'm feeling sorry for myself as Swain's mum was cooking a sunday roast and i've missed out on it! I has blankets and if i can find my tv remote shall stick the telly on, otherwise i'll get netflix on the go

Waves_and_Smiles

Nooo, I would be upset to miss a Sunday roast too, MU! It is one of my favourite things! Netflix sounds good, binge-watch an entire series for the weekend. I am considering watching Lost again from the beginning, it is something I watched to the end when I was more well than I am now so it is one of the few series that I don't have to worry about upsetting me. Having said that the final episode makes me sob my heart out every time.

Torry_Quine

(((((Messed up))))) glad the wedding went well. Hope you soon feel better.

System

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Nooo, I would be upset to miss a Sunday roast too, MU! It is one of my favourite things! Netflix sounds good, binge-watch an entire series for the weekend. I am considering watching Lost again from the beginning, it is something I watched to the end when I was more well than I am now so it is one of the few series that I don't have to worry about upsetting me. Having said that the final episode makes me sob my heart out every time.

Ive been watching series 2 of Daredevil, has quite a bit of violence and death so not sure if it would be safe for you, it's a very good series though

My current plan is watch this episode, have a bath (I got a free lush bath bomb! Someone from there came Ito my work and asked if we had spare banking bags then came and brought us bath bombs which was very kind of them!) then watch the last episode and head to bed.

Ive got new bedding on, though it took me the best part of half and hour to put on as I had to have a break halfway through cos I felt so drained

Thank you Torry and Melly, hope you're both ok, I'm glad I went to the wwedding and got to see everyone (last time I saw one of my cousins she was about 5! Shes now a beautiful young woman!). We lost My aunty 4 years ago to cancer and when my u cle made his speech he mentioned her and got quite choked up which in turn made me somewhat emotional, it was a beautiful day and Id like to think she was there in spirit watching over the family. I can't imagine how hard it was for my cousin not to have her mum there but she was remembered and was a part of it.

whitewing

I watched The Queen at 90 tonight, without particularly intending to, as it was on for two hours and I thought that may drag. I did enjoy it though. It was gentle. My grandparents loved her and Prince Philip. My grandmother was offered the opportunity to meet the queen once but she turned it down because she was too nervous.

I am trying to drink lots of water tonight as I have had a sugar-filled weekend, which is beginning to impact my mental health. Slightly dreading tomorrow as I am back at work on Tues and I don't feel that I have had enough time off. We have spent a lot of time with people over the past few days. Although it has been good, I don't feel that I have had enough time with just us.

Littlewing too seems to need to follow certain routines of playing before she can switch off, regardless of how late it is. I remember feeling like this as a child without understanding it (really until I twigged that Littlewing is the same). I wonder if it's an introvert thing?

I was idly thinking about my love of crime documentaries and so on too. I think this developed for multiple reasons. Firstly, anxiety - I didn't necessarily feel that death was the worse thing that could happen to me (when I was ill) but society seemed to think it was bad so I needed to be prepared by learning what I could to avoid it. Also, I think at the point where I realised that I wasn't adopted(!) and was stuck with the parents I had, I liked the hero American crime stories so I thought I'd be rescued by a big-hearted cop. It has taken me years and years to realise that police officers are just as human as the rest of us.

I run the risk of thinking too much for tonight so I think I will just shut up now!