Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 3

Pyxis

dandy-candy wrote: »

Firstly hugs to those who need them xx

I spoke to my cousin today for the first time in 2 years. She tentatively asked if I was still not talking to my sister (I'm not) and if I ever would again. I ended up going on a rant about what a cow my sister is and how I never would. I repeated conversations I'd had with her verbatim and just poured it all out.
After I got of the phon I just thought omg I'm so not dealing with this even thought it's been 7 years and I've had tons of counselling. I have undoubtedly had some really bad hands dealt to me in the past but what stops me moving on and my mh getting better is me. I just can't let go and it's actually embarrassing how I'm still living in the past. Does anyone have any advice on how to let things go?

It could just be that your cousin picked off a well-healed scab, rather than you're not dealing with it.

That's the problem with families; if there is still some contact with other members, it's a lot harder to put it behind you, because the others keep raking it up.

The way I've dealt with similar is to field questions with a simple "I'd rather not talk about that, thanks", and simply to not talk about it.

I don't know whether that's the right thing to do, but it does avoid the rant button being pressed.

System

Think i may be a little.....up. Not had more than 5 hours sleep the last 2 days (Swain is off work atm so bedtime for him is about 6am, he forgot i had work!) so that might be behind it, but i have a doctors appointment tomorrow so i'll mention it then.

Got talking to one of the homeless guys outsode work and i feel bad for him. Hes actually a nice bloke once you get talking to him. We talked a lot about mental health (he has schizophrenia) and i told him i have bipolar and we chatted for ages. It really hits home because at my worst, in different circumstances that could have been me. Someone gave him a box of donuts and he came in and gave them to use because he said he wouldn't eat them all, i gave him a free coffee today. I'm in a bit of "its my mission to save everyone" frame of mind atm, should probably mention that to my doctor.

WaS sorry the assessment is the day after your birthday, and sorry its worrying you so much. I do completely understand why, its quite terrifying when you rely on something to make life better/bearable and you feel you could lose it all. Im amazed my renewal isnt here yet. I'm hoping it comes after the mental health assessment so i at least have some recent eviddence to back me up. My bipolar certainly hasn;t improved, i've spent nearly all year either manic or depressed with barely any stable periods inbetween, i think i might be rapid cycyling. Apparently most people with bipolar average 2 episode a year, this is my 7th or 8th episode so far.

dandy-candy

MU I'm so glad you are keeping on top of things and recognising when you need to talk to your dr, well done I hope they can give you good advice and adjust you meds if necessary.

System

dandy-candy wrote: »

MU I'm so glad you are keeping on top of things and recognising when you need to talk to your dr, well done I hope they can give you good advice and adjust you meds if necessary.

My anti depressant will probably be reduced, hopefuly shouldnt trigger another depression as im only a bit up and not full blown swinging from the chandeliers manic yet


I've been up and down for so long i can;t remember what stability feels like

Pyxis

Sunny, that sounds bad.

calleyw

Afternoon everyone,


Hugs and squishes and handshakes all round.



Well its been two weeks today AM went away for his course. And it seems that things can't seem to stop going wrong that cost money.



My phone decided to be stupid and the screen broke making it unusable. I am terrible when it comes to buying things like that. So I have had no phone for about a week. Ordered one yesterday arrives sunday.


Got to go out in the car and it wont start!!! Looks like the battery is dead. cheapest was £115 for a car battery:eek: Thank goodness for black friday as they have 40% off. Fingers crossed that will solve it as my dad is coming down in while to help collect and fit.


Oh my mum did go and have her afternoon tea about 3 weeks ago. And neglected to tell me. She enjoyed it I think.


Also finally got the dog barrier from my neighbour. It nearly ended up in the bin as it was a right fiddle to fit and I really did not want to have to get in the boot as I know what the dog has done in it:eek:


Just when I think things are going ok :rotfl:


I do apologise for this being a me me me post. just needed to get it off my chest and out of my head.



I hope everyone can stay strong as I know lots of people are having issues at the moment. And hope they get sorted very quickly with the least amount of stress.


Everyone take care and try and eat, drink plenty of fluids and get as much rest/sleep as you can.


yours


Calley x

heartbreak_star

Oh Calley, bless you! They say these things come in threes, so you've definitely had your three there. Lots of love!

SI, that sounds like a horrid situation. I hope you are alright

HBS x

calleyw

Update: For the princely sum of £64 and a few pints for my dad for fitting.


I now have a car that starts.


At least I can now pick up AM when he finishes the course:j


Yours


Calley x

calleyw

Sunny_Intervals wrote: »

I'm on a massive hyper and rather disorientated, but home and in one(ish) piece. No more deliveries or workmen, so will hopefully have a nice long quiet period to recover.

Calley - I know the feeling. I think (touch wood) that I'm finally done haemorrhaging cash and I can start rebuilding my savings again, but I was starting to think I'm need some kind of clotting agent for a while there. :eek:

Sunny,


Sorry to hear you feel like that. Do you have any fave calming things you do e.g colouring, cleaning etc.


If you like drink hot drinks might be worth making one sitting on the sofa with with a nice fluffy blanket and settling down for a while.


My partners parents offered to pay for the battery as its his car. You can guess my answer thank you for the offer but no.


Now the phone is sorted and on its away. Much faffing as been meaning to buy a new one but when the screen has squiggly lines all over it and you can't press on anything. Time for a new one. Got one from amazon. More than I wanted to pay but I can pay for it over 5 months interest free. Ordered a skin type case but will also get a wallet type case as well. Belt and braces so I don't damage it again. This is my third phone in 17 months. Yes please don't ask. Still paying for the first one until june next year. Good job its only a £5 a month.


The next purchase is a new fitness watch. And as you can guess I am faffing again. As I have nice watches but don't wear them as I want to know how many steps I have done. And I want it to look like a watch and not just a strip of plastic on my wrist. yes I am fussy mare :rotfl:


But might defer it and let AM buy it for me as a xmas pressie. As according to him I never let him spend any money on me. He should be grateful that I don't want expensive stuff all the time :rotfl:


Take care


Yours


Calley x

dandy-candy

My son and his friends are renting our old house off us. Yesterday the washing machine broke and I ordered a new one to be delivered today. I told him he'd get a call at 8 with his delivery time. I got the email saying between 7-11 am. I rang him 7 times, no reply, then I get an email saying they tried to deliver and no one answered the door. I'm livid. At 25 I was married with 3 kids to look after, he's 26 and can't even answer a bloody door. Now I'm going to have to sit there tomorrow for the redelivery because they will be at work. Stress levels are up.