Mooloo's little tapestry of life, 2016

Savvy_sewing

thorsoak wrote: »

Well done Mooloo! And so what if something fails? At least you have tried!

Fear is like a cancer - grows in the night, it eats at you, your self-esteem, your confidence, it worries at "what will others think/judge" and enhances negative thoughts. But when you face it, fear shrinks away - it doesn't do well in the light. Turn it back on itself - so what if you are left "alone"? You have DGD with you at the moment, but when she hs grown up, you can do what you want, when you want - or not do anything! Budgeting? What have you been doing successfully for the last umpteen years? You have managed - and managed quite well - albeit by the seat of your pants!

You've done most of this on your own - without support of a partner - and if and when you do get a partner, it will be someone who will be in awe of what you have achieved, and will respect you for the beautiful person that you've become.

Just keep trucking on, pull on your big girl knickers, and your brave girl boots - and walk all over your problems xxx

You just brought a tear to my eyes then.
Thankyou for believing in me.
I must remember to believe in my self and go and get those dreams sorted out

thorsoak

One foot at a time, sweetheart, one foot at a time! Don't look too far ahead at the moment, concentrate on the Here and Now - enjoy living in the present!xxxxxx

Savvy_sewing

In the last two days with staff off, I have had to serve in the shop again and chat with my customers.
Actually I enjoy talking to them, (but it slows my work), however one thing I feel differently about is the shop.
I don't know what is best, yet, but the amount of people who have said how great it is to have a shop like mine and that they are glad they found me, the compliments on things, have helped to boost my feelings about the shop.
I have been listening to staff telling me that I can't do it all, that I would be better off at home as I would pocket more of the money etc.
But I did not start the shop just for money, though it helps.
I still love my shop, and I think she may be also putting a dampener on my dreams.
I lost the drive to expand more, or to consider it.
I have slowed down my ambition and I don't think I should have been doing that.
I do still want family time and time with my mum.
I was believing that I had to downsize and it did sound logical.
But if I spin it , what if I do more on the shop floor again and employ others to sew again.
What if I train a different apprentice and let the other person sew?
Could I then afford the time to promote the business, and to expand it because I can be less of a sewer and more of the business woman?
Obviously I cannot do the shop floor until the end of July when staff retires but I can certainly relook at the business with another slant.once I employ staff, or training with the apprentice then I might not have to work all the time myself
This is just a thought of course
But it helps me to feel more positive and alive than I did last week or so.

thorsoak

Now that sounds more positive!

thorsoak

Now that's more like it! In the new year, why not approach your nearest FE college that runs art and design courses - you may be able to find your apprentice that way!

Savvy_sewing

I think in the spring I will look for another part time sewer. Making sure that they have enough skills to cover on most things.
Then I will look for another apprentice to come on board in September when I renew my lease ( see unless I can't afford it), then I can do front of house and train up others. As long as the accounts hold up for the extra wages etc.
When staff leaves her wages will cover the apprentice and a little towards some body else.
I can manage on the £100 I now pay my self unless the tax credits change or the guardian funds stop. ( although they might).

That's my positive thoughts for the day.
Now to go get my son to his job

Savvy_sewing

A positive day.
Christmas presents now wrapped. The ones I had bought ex ( before he was ex), will be redistributed to others for birthdays etc, however I will use the olive oil from Cyprus and I don't know anyone who is a size 10 shoe for the footwear, but can always sell on Facebook I suppose.
Heard about the air strikes over Christmas so lucky we are going the day before! I am not so worried about coming back, I would not mind an extra day or two !!
Now time to cook dinner and enjoy a relaxing evening with dgd the tv, and some festive cheer.
Mum has stopped being sick, and I hope she will feel better before we go.
My neighbour's now got the cough bug and sounds awful. I am hoping that I will not get anything so close to the holiday as I still have a few sewing jobs in to finish.
Although I started to turn work away these last two days, as I try to keep the stress levels down

Savvy_sewing

Because texting was still happening occasionally between ex and I, be it mundane things I have just text him to say that I can't keep texting as it gives him false hope that I will reconsider and that I don't want life to be on pause over Christmas, that I need to move on.
He did say he would miss me, and I know his number if I change my mind.
I said I won't be changing my mind as we have done this to death.

I got bye then back.

Now, as I go about the house and I find bits and pieces of his or that give me memories that I can't deal with I will put them all in a drawer and leave them there.
At some stage in the future I will parcel stuff up and send it back.

Now I am having a soak in the bath, a hair wash, and then I am going to deliver Christmas presents to some of the family and see my Mum.
When I get back I will continue with the washing and ironing and pack dgd a suitcase for her Mums. Oh and get the school uniform ready for the next two days.
We fly on 22nd, so should be ok as strike is 23rd I think, and hopefully we will be able to have a suitcase on the way back. By 29th.
Here is to a positive outcome for all.
And when I feel lost and Sad remind me to fill up my time better and get those Positive vibes back into action. Thankyou for helping me stay strong this time.

whiteguineapig

i think the blocking his number is a good idea
if you are serious about ending it then block him
you'v been here before so he won't leave it at "bye"
unless you block him he'll just give it a week then be back in touch

Eager_Elephant

Just catching up Mooloo and wanted to say a few things:


Well done for helping your friend claim what she is entitled to.


Well done for getting your local council to sort your Overpayments out - it may have taken them a while but I knew we would get there eventually!!


Well done on ending a toxic relationship - each time you posted about your friend I did wonder whether it was your boyfriend from before. You can manage so much on your own and if I am not mistaken DGD was a big issue before as she took up so much of your time (as kids do) and as your ex was presumably in his late fifties he probably thought he was past all that.


I also want to say how brilliantly you have done this year - even when you had to fight the council, sort your older children out, manage the business and DGD you have coped amazingly!! You are an inspiration to people everywhere!!


Hope you have a fab holiday with your mum and hope DGD has a fab holiday with her mum!!


Here's to an even better 2017 and your business continuing to go from strength to strength!!


Sending love and hugs to you and DGD