Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

codemonkey

I feel really stupid. I am stressing out. Properly stressing out to the point where I want to have a toddler style meltdown. Why am I stressing so much? Because I need to pick shelves and paint colours. That's it. It can't be normal to stress so much about such stupid, insignificant things!

(I admit I'm already stressed about work and other stuff at home and dealing with family crap, but, still. It's just some pots of paint and shelves.)

Seriously code. Get a grip.

calleyw

elsien wrote: »

I'm on here because I'm struggling to finish a report I said I'd have in on Friday so I need to send it so it's there for start of work tomorrow.
I'm not sure I'm doing it right though, so MSE is currently acting as an avoidance mechanism.
I'm impressed by what you've got done though Calley.

Go and do it now. then you can have sweeties!!!:rotfl:

Its not that much as there are 4 doors and one radiator in the down stairs hall way.

I got a friend who always says about stuff like this. Every little bit means a move forward. And he is so right. Its not any where near being finished but even just a coat of white on the walls makes a huge difference.

Get the coat of colour on and then its just glossing. Maybe I should ask fly baby over. Nah would prefer her help in the garden :rotfl:

Not seen her around in a couple of days so hope everything is ok.

Yours

Calley

Georgiegirl256

codemonkey wrote: »

I feel really stupid. I am stressing out. Properly stressing out to the point where I want to have a toddler style meltdown. Why am I stressing so much? Because I need to pick shelves and paint colours. That's it. It can't be normal to stress so much about such stupid, insignificant things!

It totally can be if you're stressed about other things. One thing leads to another, and then the smallest thing can seem like a big thing and stress you out.

calleyw

codemonkey wrote: »

I feel really stupid. I am stressing out. Properly stressing out to the point where I want to have a toddler style meltdown. Why am I stressing so much? Because I need to pick shelves and paint colours. That's it. It can't be normal to stress so much about such stupid, insignificant things!

(I admit I'm already stressed about work and other stuff at home and dealing with family crap, but, still. It's just some pots of paint and shelves.)

Seriously code. Get a grip.

Please stop stressing. I will tell you about me and I have had a whole house to decorate. I hate choosing colours as I am rubbish at all that sort of stuff. And yes I am girlie LOL!!!!

My kitchen is bright yellow. My living room is magnolia on 3 walls and a feature wall which is called cappuccino. My hall way is buttermilk so a creamy yellow and the back bedroom is a made up colour from where I mixed magnolia and cappuccino as I thought the cappuccino was too dark for all the walls.

I have a another creamy colour for the front bedroom and another tub of coffee colour. That will do do for the front little bedroom as that is just plaster coloured at the moment and my bedroom when it ever gets started. I will mix and match to get colours I like LOL!!!!

I prefer to add colours via things such as cushions and curtains.

I once had a friend who painted the ceiling a purple colour and then did sort maroon colour on the picture rail. To say that it made the room look small and pokey is not an under statement.

I know lots of people yawn at magnolia or creamy colours. But they help to lighten up spaces. As when all the doors are shut up stairs my hall way is very dark. And in the winter even worse as I have a curtain up by the inner front door.

Yours

Calley

Waves_and_Smiles

Huge hugs, warm handshakes and squishes for everyone today. It sounds like we all feeling sad and/or upset today. I am ok but my memory has turned into 1800's smog (this is several steps up from fog brain) so I have no hope of individual replies. I have read everything though and feel for you all.

I do understand full well about guilty feelings after deaths, as you all know I carry an incredible amount of guilt for both of my parents deaths although I can rationalise it a bit better than I could. I think we all feel guilt when someone close to us dies that we love, we want to help them and we couldn't so without any other issues there is always a degree of guilt. The thing to remember is we did our best with the means we had at the time, we wanted to do all we could and that is good enough.

I will happily take a Gitdog kiss!

calleyw

Who was it who liked manatee's?

Some very cute pictures of a baby one here

Enjoy

Yours

Calley

Waves_and_Smiles

Aw how adorable Calley! I love manatees! I saw some in real life while I was in Florida, they are bigger than you would think! They live naturally in the Gulf Stream there along with dolphins and you can take boats out to visit them.

The amusing note of the day is I am currently listening to WaSp trying to explain to Milliefleur what a forum is and how the internet works in general, it has been going on for over an hour. One of her quiz shows mentioned that you could talk on their forum and now she has to know what that is! She has never used a computer or the internet in her life so WaSp might be a while.

Update- WaSp is now explaining how a computer actually works and Milliefleur is asking if blind people can use them. As WaSp can build them from scratch very cheaply we may have worked out Milliefleur's Christmas present!

Georgiegirl256

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

Huge hugs, warm handshakes and squishes for everyone today. It sounds like we all feeling sad and/or upset today. I am ok but my memory has turned into 1800's smog (this is several steps up from fog brain) so I have no hope of individual replies. I have read everything though and feel for you all.

I do understand full well about guilty feelings after deaths, as you all know I carry an incredible amount of guilt for both of my parents deaths although I can rationalise it a bit better than I could. I think we all feel guilt when someone close to us dies that we love, we want to help them and we couldn't so without any other issues there is always a degree of guilt. The thing to remember is we did our best with the means we had at the time, we wanted to do all we could and that is good enough.

I will happily take a Gitdog kiss!

I'm the same sometimes WaS, I find it hard sometimes to remember who said what and to do individual replies. Thank you for acknowledging my post though, I appreciate it

I'll take a huge hug, and also welcome any sloppy dog (and cat!) kisses too!

Waves_and_Smiles

Ok, I am going to admit something. My smog brain is because I haven't taken my medication since yesterday. I am partially in withdrawal. Fell free to yell at me a lot and make me take it.

Sometimes I find it very hard to take it, partly it's a symptom of Schizophrenia, it is a very common way psychosis shows itself. It's also because I occasionally wish that I could have my brain back. My medication makes me very relaxed and laid back, one of the reasons WaSp and I hardly ever disagree on anything is because almost nothing causes a negative reaction in me, my emotions are very stable and level unless I relapse. I am almost always calm and relaxed and I really don't sweat the small stuff at all. It wasn't this bad until the last medication increase, then I noticed a big difference. A large part of me just disappeared. I have almost no temper at all, I just don't get angry about anything. There are almost no extremes of emotion in any way unless something really triggers me, no anger, no real joy either. I am always just fine and content in day to day life.

However, sometimes I wish that I could think again without these effects. My brain used to be so sharp, I could think quickly and learn quickly, I was full of energy and felt very alive. My medication puts everything into soft focus and feels like being wrapped in cotton wool. Because I will be on these for the rest of my life sometimes I feel frustrated that this relaxed state is how I will always be. I miss my clear thoughts and spontaneity, I even slightly miss getting extremely upset about something because I felt real. Now everything is cushioned and distanced from me.

So sometimes I throw my toys out of the pram and don't take my medication for a day. Now please tell me off and make me take it.

Pyxis

codemonkey wrote: »

Would it be weird if I bought this

Not weird at all! Lovely!

Only one thing........the fact that it pools on the floor is beautiful, but is it very practical? Won't it get very dirty and/or trip you up?

If it's just just feet-length then Yey!




WaS! go and take your meds!


Elsien! Finish that report!