Here we can all be heard for a little while. Part 2

Georgiegirl256

whitewing wrote: »

This will cheer up the cat-lovers

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3332177/A-fashion-catastrophe-Onesie-feline-lovers-features-pouch-pet-tail-play-with.html

I might have guessed it was from Japan! I'm not sure how my cat would react to that, affection is on his terms only, he hates being cuddled! Total control freak! Can't believe it's got an inbuilt nappy!

I get emails off notonthehighstree.com and saw this http://www.notonthehighstreet.com/oakdenedesigns/product/personalised-great-beard-man-mug Bit pricey, but a gift idea for Wellys husband perhaps!

Georgiegirl256

Ok, so it was match day for the secret Santa I'm doing today, and I got a guy who has gave very limited information....I haven't got a clue where to start!

Any ideas? :huh:

whitewing

What's the budget, georgiegirl?

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Arsenal-Football-Custom-Minifigure/dp/B00HLP5L6K/ref=sr_1_2?ie=UTF8&qid=1448409101&sr=8-2&keywords=lego+arsenal

http://www.amazon.co.uk/s/ref=nb_sb_noss_1?url=search-alias%3Daps&field-keywords=lego+fifa

https://www.etsy.com/uk/listing/191266516/mesut-ozil-arsenal-football-art-print?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=arsenal&ref=sr_gallery_30

https://www.etsy.com/uk/listing/196522860/alexis-sanchez-arsenal-football-print?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=arsenal&ref=sr_gallery_20

https://www.etsy.com/uk/listing/245486040/arsenal-shirt-gym-bag?ga_order=most_relevant&ga_search_type=all&ga_view_type=gallery&ga_search_query=arsenal&ref=sr_gallery_19

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Arsenal-F-C-Signed-Football/dp/B00AUF653Q/ref=sr_1_6?ie=UTF8&qid=1448411003&sr=8-6&keywords=arsenal

http://www.amazon.co.uk/Arsenal-Knitted-Bronx-Beanie-Hat/dp/B008LULPC8/ref=sr_1_14?ie=UTF8&qid=1448411059&sr=8-14&keywords=arsenal

Currently on offer http://www.amazon.co.uk/Arsenal-Emirates-Stadium-3D-Puzzle/dp/B00G5L61JM/ref=sr_1_21?ie=UTF8&qid=1448411112&sr=8-21&keywords=arsenal

Georgiegirl256

To be honest WW, I've forgot! I think it's about $20, so about £14.

I saw those prints, but he gives that little info, I wouldn't have a clue what he likes! I guess he does say 'Surprise Me' :rotfl:

System

Currently ruminating on how short life can be

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On sunday i heard reports that a young student had gone missing after being at the rock club i've always gone too, everyone in the rock community and student community was sharing the appeal trying to find her but i was saddened to find out today they have found a body they beleive to be hers. It;s really hit me hard as there have been so many times i've left that club, alone and worse for wear and its made me realise that could have been me or any of my friends. I can't imagine what her friends and family are going through. She was a first year student too, she'd only been here a few months and had her whole life ahead of her. I think its hit me hard as the club she was at, the people there, its like a family. So although i never met her it feels like we've lost one of our own. RIP Caroline.

***WaS, not your fault in case you read this.

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Waves_and_Smiles

I'm awake! I think. 17 hours of solid sleep with weird dreams but no psychosis now no voices so yay, I have perfect silence. However, it's time to cut the dose back down because I'm frustrated now. I am just taking the dose I actually physically need of anti-psychotics and I have no life on them at all, I simply can't stay awake. I am currently taking 400mgs of Chlorpromazine and life is at a standstill. I can't eat because I am sick and dizzy and thinking is like wading through treacle (hence 2 hours to write this so that it makes sense). I cannot lift my feet properly when I walk because my legs feel like lead, I am literally shuffling and I can't even hold a cup steadily. I also appear to be dribbling and I cannot stop stretching my arm above my head every few minutes (this is called Tardive Dyskinesia). This is why modern anti-psychotics were created, the old ones often do this unfortunately and it can become permanent on higher doses. I am currently completely free of psychosis but physically wrecked.

Excuse the whining but this drives me mad. I need to be on this dose mentally because it even blocks the voices but it's impossible because of side effects. What's worse is it comes down to a question of money, my psychiatrist made that clear to me. It is too expensive to create a modern anti-psychotic which won't have the old side effects for me- one that doesn't contain the current carrier chemical which causes entirely different problems in my body such as being sick every morning, incontinence, constant stabbing migraine, confusion and mania and is generally impossible for me to take.

It isn't impossible to create one because I take an antidepressant without the carrier, it's just too expensive to make for the handful of people that would need it. So I either have 17 hour sleeps and feel too ill to eat or function while risking permanent side effects that won't stop even if I stop taking the pill, or stay on a lower dose than I need while always slightly psychotic with the risk of relapse. It is extremely frustrating, I don't even have a problem with modern anti-psychotics themselves, my problem is with the carrier chemical that they contain that transports them around the body. I would willing donate my DLA every month to the NHS for a pill that worked but unfortunately that would be the tip of the iceberg financially.

I live my life always using coping strategies to deal with psychosis every day. I am very, very lucky that I have had so much therapy to teach me how to do it but it is just so exhausting, especially when at times like this it shows that enough anti-psychotics will stop the psychosis totally. Having a break from it makes me feel worse in a way, I just find it so depressing that it is possible to be free of this, only to find I have a whole new set of problems which are often worse as a result. There is no answer for me other than to carry on coping with each symptom as it arises and the psychosis itself cannot get better because my main problem isn't a mental or emotional one, my chemicals do not work correctly, it is a physical condition within my brain. No amount of therapy or understanding will fix a physically broken brain that cannot have the medication it needs to correct an imbalance. I have often said the following to psychiatrists- tiny penguin- If I ever take my own life it will be because I'm so tired. Not because anything has happened or I am in distress, just because I am so exhausted of doing this daily and I have nothing left to give. End tiny penguin.

One thing I am determined to do is leave my brain to medical science. There are distinctive differences and abnormalities in a schizophrenic brain that can only be seen when they look inside of it after death but because those with the condition are often seen as not able to make decisions for themselves relatives often refuse to donate their brain on their behalf. There isn't yet enough evidence to study to come to conclusions but they shall have mine and I really hope it helps others.

Oh well, onwards I go and carry on, I will. On the positive side many people with similar symptoms to me are sadly unable to live independently, but because therapists and psychiatrists took the time to teach me ways to cope (and because of my sheer stubbornness to keep fighting it), I can and long may it continue. So this is a good thing. Back down to the normal dose for me today and I shall cross my fingers that the imbalance has rectified itself, it usually has after 3 days on a higher dose particularly if the voices have stopped. The voices should be back by tomorrow but the break was nice while I was actually awake for it. I shall now grab several pints of coffee and read back and try to cheer up a bit. I am so confused, it still feels like it's Sunday to me, the days have just drifted by in a haze.

Excuse the novel, I'm like a bus, I say nothing for days and then all the paragraphs come at once!

Pyxis

codemonkey wrote: »

You can join me NCIS. I am freaking out. Apparently the company are interested in me and want more info. I'm ambivalent about it. On one hand it will give me more experience across different sectors and I am bored where I am. On the other hand, my current job is really flexible with my hours, gives me time off for doctor appointments, and has been really good about adapting to my disability. I keep telling myself that I can always ask them about these things and if they can't offer what I need, I can decline. Just because they're interested doesn't mean they'll offer me the job and they probably wont because I interview so badly, and even if they do that doesn't mean I have to take it, right? Over thinking much?

Well, you know Code, that this is entirely in your hands. You have total control over whether you take any job that is offered, or not. Just because you apply for a job, doesn't mean you are definitely taking it, if offered.
An interview is, after all, a two-way thing. You are interviewing them just as much as they are interviewing you. That's why they always ask if you have any questions to ask them. You need to suss out if they, their firm, their conditions of employment, their ethos, would all suit YOU. It 's not just a question of whether you suit them.

If you go into a shop because you need a new coat, you look around to see what they have. You don't think, "oh dear, I've come into this shop, so I can't leave without buying a coat", do you?

It's the same with jobs. You go into the job shop; you look around; you see one you quite like the look of; you try it on. Sometimes you think, "wow! That looks good! I'm having it!" Sometimes you think, "Hmm. It's not bad, but I'm not sure". You might decide to buy it, you might decide to go and think about it while you have a coffee, or you might decide to have a look in some other shops. You could, then, go back and buy it later, or you might decide that it's not right for you, given its price, so you leave it.

It's just the same with jobs.

Talking of jobs, remember that quote I posted, by Steve Jobs!




By the way, that little fracas at AmDram that I was upset about? Well, neither person said a word to me about it! And there's a definite coolness towards me. Well, I'm just going to get on with things, and ignore it.

Wellyboots6

Thanks Georgie. Ordered it!

Code, I would chat to new job about your appointments etc and see what they say. You will get an idea from their reaction what it would be like to work for them. You are in a lovely position of being able to do what suits you, make the most of it

Pyxis, stay positive and be really annoyingly cheerful around them!

WaS, pints of coffee sounds like a good idea, I might join you!

tea_lover

Did someone say pints of coffee.... I'm in.

Birdie85

On the subject of beardy gifts, I saw this the other day and thought it was pretty cool! If only my DH could grow a beard!

Code - there's nothing wrong with seeing what else is available job-wise, it may make you happy to stay where you are or take the leap! Try not to worry too much about the interview, maybe go in with a 'Ah, I'll probably screw this up anyway so I might as well relax' attitude and you may find yourself less worked up so you do better?!

Sorry things aren't great in WaS-land this week. Such a shame that you can't get the perfect pills... I wonder if there are very clever doctors somewhere who are looking for a complex test case for a study or suchlike who'd be interested in working with you?!