one day at a time

safehouse

Thanks TG, I knew you would totally understand, I’m hoping it will help me build my confidence, maybe a start of more good things to come and shoes wish I had your way with words….every time I feel a pinch of guilt I will look back on my diary 2015.
After almost pooping my pants Lol, finally told OH this morning he took it quite well really, maybe too well to be honest…. Quite unnerving!! He is acting all “oh I don’t mind and have a great time blah, blah”.. I know he is bothered and I have a feeling I will be made aware of the fact along with him trying to make me feel guilty over the coming months. I don’t regret booking it though, if anything I can’t wait and at least now the worry of a boozy horrible Xmas is gone……………….DS is also over the moon about the holiday. He doesn’t say much but I’m sure he feels as relieved as me.
EF and mortgage balance raided and adjusted for a good cause, Xmas fund below now changed to Happy Holiday fund.:D....didn't I do well HaHa :T:T

A.. store Card £400 /CC B £1,420/ CC S £1,600/ CC A £800....£4,200 total …. Mortgage £100,000 /£70,130 paid £29,870 remaining…(**Total 70,130**)........Happy Holiday fund £12

please-let-me-be-lucky

Well done you for having the guts to go ahead with it :T:T Xx

Bobarella

Good for you lovely and for your son. You are giving him a wonderful gift.

safehouse

Thanks guys but looking like I will be paying the price in more ways than one over the coming months....
OH drinking most of the day yesterday "not surprisingly he started when he returned from a visit to his parents...he couldn't wait to give them the news and soak in their sympathy "Ooh what a wicked witch I am for leaving him at Xmas", why do they always have to get involved??"..
Yep I may have given him a new excuse to drink ..annoyed should have really seen it coming and hold off telling him till it got much closer.
As you can see I am more than angry this morning but the gloves are now off ....
Have day off work today so off out with my rock DS, starts Uni in a couple of weeks so will be treating him to some new clothes/shoes/bag etc and myself some sunny holiday clothes because I wont allow him to spoil this for us. I will buy OH a nice big bright blue dummy so he can carry on playing the baby of the family Lol
Sounding off again, sorry people...........but meant every word Xx

safehouse

Phew have calmed down now ................. Had a lovely day out enjoyed a naughty Macdoonalds and spent almost £100 on DS jacket, boots T.shirts and hat he was more than happy...bad as used CC, but have plenty of overtime to cover it so not worrying. OH keeping well out of my way, he knows he was a complete twit yesterday and keeps sending sheepish texts..What ever, he is what he is and I haven't got the energy or do I care enough to have a go at him. Instead I am looking for a day out this coming Saturday & Sunday for myself and DS

A.. store Card £400 /CC B £1,420/ CC S £1,600/ CC A £800....£4,300 total …. Mortgage £100,000 /£70,130 paid £29,870 remaining…(**Total 70,130**)........Happy Holiday fund £12

safehouse

:eek:Oh no slept in :eek:........have council coming today to sort out my forest of a garden, exciting really.................fingers crossed they do a good job and don't hack away at all my favorite trees.
3 house cleans on the books today need the cash more than ever now with holiday booked.
Must start listing items on Teabay again.
House mood still slightly gloomy.............good I have no time to dwell..
Right no time to babble this morning xx

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hope garden looks good.

Sorry (but not surprised) to hear about OH's poor me drinking Xx

safehouse

Thanks Lucky....Xx
Off to local flea market this morning before work have taken another 3 house cleans today but taking tomorrow morning off as my knees and wrists are playing up Ouch.............I have accumulated quite a good chunk of cash with all my hard work will pay into my mortgage and Hol of course next week. Saying that might cutback the overtime for a little while..aching everywhere needing a break from the mop and broom Lol.
Garden still ongoing, lovely lads and they are doing a smashing job but council definitely underestimated the amount of work needed...the finish date is now tomorrow, but I have a feeling it will go into next week...will have to buy them a nice little thankyou gift .
Still living in an icebox and with the weekend almost upon us, usual knot in stomach. I have told my Dmammy and Dsis they should expect a visit. If what it takes is for us to stay out of my own house as much as possible over the weekends to avoid friction, then fine, our lives are becoming more and more separate now anyway..........hoping OH has to work Saturday, but head in sand at the moment so will just hope for the best...:)
Need a nice second cuppa, shower then plaster a smile on my face for Dmammy....have to give my head a good shake and start thinking more positive

TallGirl

Sounds very familiar that one about spending as much time away as possible and pretenting all is fine but at least your family knows the score and why you're going to be seeing them. Sounds like you need to take it easy indeed I need a company to do a final clean on my empty house after the painter is finished any idea how much they charge for a small 4 bed? I'm assuming that's the type of work you do? Don't worry if you don't know.

safehouse

Hi TG....you really have done a marvelous job getting so much done in such a short space of time looks like you also need to take things easy, we should take each others advice Lol
.... My OH takes on property refurbishments, painting, plumbing etc. Normally we would pay a cleaning company from anything from £60 basic clean per property and well over if wanting a deep clean...ie windows, carpets etc. This is totally depending on the state of the previous tenants have left them, I have been doing the cleaning myself on our properties which led to me also getting work from a large letting agency, I would advise you to pay the extra and get a deep clean on the property, well worth it....saying that I am the worlds worse OCD sufferer, even have a draw filled with marigolds...how sad is that??