We all need to be heard for a little while.

codemonkey

I make no apology. I love jammies but I never sleep in them cause I get too hot. My current pair are covered in cats and I changed into them because I had the dreaded chub rub.

tea_lover

I am wearing my fox jammies

Pyxis

I've just got a tatty old long nightie on!

I can get too hot in jimjams.

elsien

I can't wear pyjamas and nighties to lounge around the house in - doesn't feel right for some reason. A friend has pyjama days when she spends all day lounging and watching dvd's - I just can't seem to manage it. I think it's a lovely idea, but I start to feel guilty and lazy and all the other silly things that don't make much sense. (Plus unless it's very dark/midnight I also can't face scurrying down the road in jimjams and dressing gown with Gitdog in tow when he needs a wee.)

tea_lover

If I'm not going out of an evening the pj's go on. Have been in mine since 6.30pm today, when I got back from the gym. I can't wear them all day though, unless I'm ill, but even then I have to have a shower then put a clean pair on. PJ's are the best

dragonette

*creeps back in nervously* I am to live in jammies some days atm. Got a v foggy mind today so can only remember a few things, tho I do read everyday.

LIR - I'm glad the app went better than feared, and hopefully it was useful.

TEA - lots of warm thoughts, it'll get better once things have settled

I know there are more things I wanted to say

dragonette

So. Has been a funny day. Brain was fairly foggy but physically wasn't too bad. The sort of day where I can be fairly active and productive (relatively speaking) if I can just run on autopilot.

Then a bra broke in the washing machine and part of the rubber seal is damaged. Which means I need to dig out the info for the machine and call/email someone about it to get it checked. Also need to call the council, the factors, the hospital and the GP about a whole range of things.

The problem is, when my brain is foggy I have trouble speaking clearly and am very quiet on the phone. I knew I couldn't do it today, so will have to do it tomoz. The thought of it had me in a bit of a tailspin for the rest of the day. I know my writing seems fine, but my speech isn't! Penguining the next bit - is not hugely bad but I prefer this system to the trigger warnings on the other groups I follow for support.

This anxiety made me start having easily spooked reactions - like a weird mix of agora- and claustrophobia. My surroundings either need to be very close, so I'm safe from the outside, or I need huge spaces so I can see any threats coming. Normal sized rooms are stressful to try to be still in as if there was a threat, it would be so close by the time I see it, i would struggle to defeat it.


I think it's from not being able to be proactive about issues as I would when I was well - the lower capability to deal with issues is hugely affecting my MH because, as an abuse survivor, i rely on my ability to survive to help overcome those scars. To suddenly be less capable of looking after myself is therefore terrifying.


Currently feeling very calm, but not peaceful. Unsure if it's exhaustion, being emotionally drained or some degree of dissociation. Whatever it is, it sucks and I can't settle to sleep

Joanthebone

Hi Dragonette, I hope you managed to get some sleep and are feeling a bit better today.


I mainly lurk, I do have trouble communicating, in all ways. Last week I had a couple of panic attacks and my friend got a bit cross with me and said I should 'talk to someone about it'. She does not realise that the more anxious and stressed I am the less able I am to speak to anyone, I think this is because I am scared to start talking, scared that if I start to 'let it out', I might not be able to stop.


runs back to lurk mode>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

tea_lover

Hi dragonette and joan - hope you both have better days today xx.

codemonkey

Dragonette, I know what you mean about foggy brain. I used to he very intelligent. I had a mind like a steel trap. Nowadays, my brain is like mush and I can't remember anything.. My thoughts have gone from lightning speed to traffic at rush hour speed and I have the memory of a goldfish with a head injury. I also have no concentration span to speak of. For things like phone calls which are anxiety inducing for some reason, I write down all the points I need to make in a kind of cheat sheet which helps a bit because I know I have something to fall back on.

Hi joan. Hope you feel better today.

I have had to buy new jeans from the internets. Because I am tall and have long legs, I'm limited to where I can buy jeans that are long enough. I also have thunder thighs so its harder to find jeanis to fit those. Also the thighs and the large amounts of walking I do mean my jeans wear away at the thighs and now I have a hole in my favourite pair

ETA: And I can't find my other pair.