We all need to be heard for a little while.

tea_lover

Just going to leave this here...
http://www.amazon.com/Crafting-Cat-Hair-Cute-Handicrafts/dp/1594745250

Ooh just noticed - old style is back!!

Pyxis

tea_lover wrote: »

Just going to leave this here...
http://www.amazon.com/Crafting-Cat-Hair-Cute-Handicrafts/dp/1594745250

Ooh just noticed - old style is back!!

That book looks interesting! I suppose the hair becomes felt.


Yes, old style back. Apparantly the new design was only supposed to be rolled out to the existing volunteers. However, Martin is adamant that the new style will come, although he has said that this style will be available for existing members, for as long as there are enough people wanting to use it. (:eek:)
Apparently, the new style is essential to stop Google pulling the plug on MSE....(?)........and to make it easier for mobile devices.

The latter I don't understand, as my only computer is an iPad, and I have never, ever had any problems at all with this format.
Bewildering!

Waves_and_Smiles

Oooh, does everyone have the white and wide layout now? I have been using it for a year, you do get used to it, promise! The green one looks really cramped to me now!

Sorry if I am quiet, I admit I am isolating. It is because people keep coming into my flat, I am hating every minute of it and it makes me lock myself away. I have a day of peace today and then from tomorrow someone could turn up at any time until next Tuesday, the sitting here not knowing is the worse part. Apparently all the wall sockets need rewiring so we have to pull furniture away from walls and everything will be a mess again for a while. Then sometime in April the smoke detectors which go off when you cook toast are swapped for heat sensors. I kind of pity my new landlady, she got a good deal at a £1.2 million mortgage for 15 flats but at the same time this has to be costing her fortune in work that needs doing for the insurance alone.

I am reading and keeping up with everyone, I just don't want to bore everyone to tears by whining about workmen coming in the whole time which is really my only thoughts these days.

On an amusing note I saw the thread here asking what your partner finds most annoying about you so I asked WaSp. Apparently it's my selflessness! For example, if I think he is tired and he asks if I want anything to eat I will say that it is up to him and to not bother just for me because I don't want him to have to make an effort, rather than give him a straight answer (even if I am starving). Apparently I do it a lot when he would prefer if I told him what I wanted outright and stopped trying to be nice. It quietly drives him mad, although he finds it funny too. If my most annoying feature is being too nice then I think I am doing well!

whitewing

WaS,

Keep talking on here, and whine away if you need to. (It will have the advantage that it will highlight how stressful the situation is to you-I would have said and similar people but you are fairly unique!).

tea_lover

Whine all you like WaS! I think you're being very restrained. If I had to put up with half of that disruption I'd be on the floor having a tantrum.

jobbingmusician

Soooo glad you have posted, WaS, I was worrying about you! Lovely to hear from you. This too will pass, and it sounds as if you're doing brilliantly, both with the workmen and with WaSP :rotfl:

whitewing

Yes, I agree. You are coping enormously well with many changes in your life since you set up the thread. Don't lose sight of how brilliantly you both are progressing overall in difficult circumstances.

Birdie85

Please let it out on here WaS, I'd hate to be in your position too, feel so bad for you! We had boiler issues at the end of last year (lovely big bill to pay 10 days before Christmas! :eek: ) and for just over a week we had engineers coming practically every day and I hated it, I hated knowing that they would turn up at some point in the day but couldn't tell me when, and then they would be in my living room (which is an open plan kitchen/living room so there was no-where to hide!), as well as stressing about them waking up DS as they always turned up either during morning nap time or after his bed time! :mad:

If it gets too much, do take yourself off to a hotel for some peace!

You can't really complain about your worst feature being too nice though! My DH would definitely say that my worst feature is how messy I am! He's got some sort of OCD though and needs things just so, so even when I'm trying to be tidy it's not good enough for him... so why even bother if he's going to complain and re-do everything I do anyway?! At least I have improved... maybe in another 5 years it'll be second nature?!

My friend is 'too nice' and I must admit that it can be annoying as she just comes across as really indecisive when she's trying to be nice and give other people options, there must be a happy medium!

Waves_and_Smiles

Aw, thank you everyone. You are all so lovely.

This is a testament to how well I am really, a few years ago this amount of disruption would have put me into hospital. The fact I am managing to hold it together is amazing even to me, I certainly couldn't have done it in previous years.

I am very, very paranoid, everytime I hear the front door to the block open I am sitting here frozen in an anxious ball of fear in case someone wants to come in. Also, the having to keep things spotlessly tidy is really hard for me. I have spoken before about how I use clutter as a shield, I used to live in an unhealthy environment due to this but now I can handle things being just untidyish and it gives me enough security. Right now everything is packed away so the place is spotless and it makes me feel incredibly vulnerable and exposed.

This has been going on since January and everytime I think there can't possibly anymore work to do something else happens. In late April someone is coming in to check the flooring which is rising up in the corners and leaving the area between the skirting boards and floor exposed so I fully expect that, that will be the next thing to be worked on. Mostly, it is my old landlords fault for not maintaining the building, he did no maintenance in the 6 years I have lived here so it has all fallen on the new landlady.

It is also really difficult because I have to keep cancelling my carer which messes around with my direct payments for care. If someone may have to come in I can't have her here because I can't lie on the bed in my underwear having physio exercises while it is all going on. This means I have a lot of muscle pain right now, I am dependant on physio to keep moving.

The voices are far worse and constantly telling me how I am going to get evicted because the workmen are going to tell the landlady that I am not maintaining the flat or that once she has finished the work that she won't want Housing Benefit tenants anymore. This is not helping, neither are the constant dreams about being thrown out of my flat. This is causing a knock on effect and making me panic about things like when my next ESA forms and DLA forms are due and if I will lose my benefit. There is no reason why I should, last time I was granted maximum time on ESA without an interview because my medical records are thorough enough, but knowing that doesn't help. My consultants have been telling me that I am on the wrong DLA for years and should be on high rate care, not medium due to my nightmares and sleep-walking, plus the fact that psychotic episodes can occur day and night. They are confident that when it is time for PIP that my payments will be increased which would enable me to pay for my carer and therefore physio for an extra day. Still panicking about it! Most stupidly of all, I am not due to be reassesed until next year but I am worrying it about now anyway, someone please stop my brain!

All in all, it just making me very anxious and paranoid, people in general are a huge trigger, people constantly coming in here and seeing my possessions as well is a massive one and causes lots of other anxiety-related reactions.

Now I shall stop whining again and I really will try to stop repeating myself about how awful this is for me.

tea_lover

Anyone heard from code lately? Hope you're ok, if you're reading this xx.