Just needed to be heard for a little while

whitewing

WaS, how did you get to a point that they did the test? Were you always falling over or something?

Waves_and_Smiles

Yes, I did and I was sick and had to be helped to a chair! I have terrible problems with stairs, my head spins and everything goes out of perspective. There is the course I had JM to retrain your brain which can help? It doesn't remove the issues but it does teach you things like always look ahead! Even when getting up from a chair look straight ahead to retrain your brain, and the same for stairs, do not look up and down or it's hopeless. You could probably try it home without the course, actually. It won't do any harm and might help. Looking straight ahead at all times is the key (easier said than done when you think that you are about to fall over).

Yes, whitewing. My whole life. I could never take part on apparatus at school during PE because I would step up on a bar get dizzy and end up in a heap on the floor. I couldn't and still can't walk up slopes, I feel as if it is much steeper and fall backwards and feel very sick. I have also been severely travel sick my whole life. Even now I can't sit in a back of a car and have to have the car stop every 20 minutes or I will throw up and feel very ill. It was diagnosed when I was 21 and I have done one treatment course and two top up courses since. There is no cure, the balance centre of my brain is errr unbalanced.

elsien

I got vertigo temporarily a while back. I can't imagine feeling like that all the time. It was like being drunk while missing out on all the fun of getting that way.

jobbingmusician

No, they did that manoeuvre where they move your head around so that all the little bits of rubbish in your semicircular canals are moved out of the way. And they said I was coping very well by using other senses (translation - we aren't going to put any more resources your way )

I don't normally get full blown vertigo though - they are right, I can cope if I don't panic (it's horrible being at the top of a set of steep stone stairs, and I absolutely refuse to carry a musical instrument down them out of its case - you can imagine that this happens quite regularly when you play in churches, but there is normally a little corner downstairs to unpack).

Waves_and_Smiles

Hahahaha, yep! That's about right elsien. Mine is better than it was, at first getting up from a chair was dangerous because my brain wouldn't sense the balance change so I would get dizzy and stagger across the room. Most of the time with stairs now I shuffle up and down on my bottom because it is actually such a scary feeling. Stairs look further away than they are to me and kind of move in and out in my vision getting smaller and larger. Combine that with feeling very sick and dizzy and it's easier just to sit down.

Eeeek! no, carrying something valuable would be a huge risk JM. I find I don't fall that often nowadays but the feeling is always there that I might do. It is actually another thing that puts me off of going out. I can't step down a kerb without an arm to hold because everything just spins.

Waves_and_Smiles

Ok, replies.

I love the idea of Cupboard of Doom for an autobiography, Pyxis! It made me laugh out loud! It's also quite clever, my life is a bit of a cupboard of doom in general. Of course, first I actually have to write the thing. My teacher friend who is also a published author told me to go for the stream of conciousness approach and just write, ignoring grammar and spelling and then send it to him and he would make it readable. I am building up to it (have been for 5 years now)...

I try not to analyse people online, haybel as you can't really get a full perspective of someone. However, there are certain times when I can't help it and I have a passing thought that they sound like they have whatever. Because I grew up having psychotherapy it became part of my development to analyse everything, it is as natural to me as general observations of people. My therapist told me that because I started therapy so young that it would always be part of me, sometimes I don't even notice that I am looking deeply into someone's motivations more than others would.

We got storms here! It was wonderful! I am hoping for more at the weekend. It is probably no surprise that my favourite season is autumn, rain everywhere.

I distracted from the man pee conversation when we got onto poo. I think he got carried away!

haybel19

I think psychology is so fascinating. I always think that to those who are in the know and have studied some things about me must be pretty obvious like my low self esteem and confidence, my anxiety and my desire to please.


But then I wonder how much about me can be deduced through what I say or even what I don't!


Or perhaps because I am aware of those things I unwittingly draw attention to them? I really do find it all fascinating.


Very muggy here- hoping for a storm to cool it down a bit. Myy house is currently 29 degrees!

whitewing

Waves_and_Smiles wrote: »

I distracted from the man pee conversation when we got onto poo. I think he got carried away!

How do you know he isn't one of your hallucinations?

What are the voices saying today? Anything interesting?

oldestgnome

Well done WW

WaS and JM - keep up the good work with the creation of new adventures for things no longer needed and new houses for small animals! Amazing that with 5 cats the mice were only ever played with I decluttered a couple of ornaments, some clothes and books to the CS but came home with 18 new books to read - grand total of £1.80 spent! I have already read one in the garden this evening very pleasant.

The lighting here was amazing last night, stunning to watch and there is more forecast tonight - hope it wakes me up again so I can watch.

How are things now Duke - did you contact the crisis team for Harry?

Pyxis - that is an awesome title

Waves_and_Smiles

It is quite hard to analyse someone just from the written word haybel. Psychologists trained in therapy (not all psychologists are therapists, some go into the media and advertising, for example) are trained to look at body language, facial expression, and voice pitch as well. After a while you don't consciously realise you are doing it, it just becomes a natural part of your interaction with people. I rarely think that I am going to analyse someone because it is very unhealthy to do so outside of a therapy setting but I do look quite deeply sometimes without really meaning to. Funnily enough, my partner used to be paranoid at first that I was analysing him but he soon realised it didn't change how I behaved towards him at all and most of the time I didn't even realise I was doing it . I also never offered any viewpoints I may have had as a result unless asked because to do so without permission is just rude and slightly creepy.

I could have done with my partner being a hallucination this afternoon, whitewing! Oh, the awkward stories of man pee...

The voices seem to be muttering about suicide today. Or more specifically listing off reasons why I should do it. One of the advantages of getting travel sick was I was too busy feeling ill to pay much attention to them.

Oh, and my cats were big softies and useless hunters and very lazy. I always had a window open but they hardly ever went out, they preferred to laze on the sofa, raising their heads slightly as a mouse dashed across the floor. The fact mice came in with 5 cats there says quite a lot about how much of a threat they were. Only one really bothered with them and then insisted they all came to me to dispose of. She seemed quite grateful when they left the house so that she could go back to sleep in peace.