Just needed to be heard for a little while

jobbingmusician

Big hugs to all who need them or would like one, especially LIR as it is hard to lose a good friend, but you are being an even better friend by choosing the right moment, even though it is hard xxxxx

And all the very best to littlewing xxxx

System

elsien wrote: »

I am feeling virtuous this evening - I finally got to the end of my couch to 5K and managed the 5K run.

Does dumbass dog zumba as well?

My motto for the evening is "let sleeping Gitdogs lie." He's taken to his bed and ignoring me which suits me fine as it doesn't happen very often.
(Not that I want to rub it in that I have a non-annoying dog for once. It's just such a rare occurrence!)

You can come to mine and hoover if you have surplus energy to spare. If I leave it much longer I'm going to end up on obsessive compulsive cleaners. I can offer hobnobs.

Congrats Elsien! So proud of you for sticking with it!

I remember when i ran race for life and it felt exhilarating to do it.

Have to admit i've been far to lax and never really picked up C25K again, but i'm glad you did. Might make it a new years resolution.

Had a bad night last night , really need to pick up my meds tomorrow. Ended up worryin half my friends, and the beau. Ended up with 8 missed skype calls from him trying to get hold of me (ironic seeing as i'd been trying to get hold of him all day...but yes..). Felt better after talking to him, but i may have done something stupid, and haven't told him yet. (will penguin the next bit)

PENGUIN
I self harmed not badly, but it was stupid of me to do it. i just didn't feel well and had had several panic attacks and when i couldn't get hold of beau i ended up panicking further and ended up doing that. i'm really worried as i have to see him on sunday and he's going to notice, but i don't want to tell him cos i don't want him to feel bad or think i'm crazy.
PENGUIN

Hope everyone is ok, hope LittleWing is alright, and that its nothing to worry about

And LiR sorry about big dog not being well, i'm sure this is a difficult time but you're in my thoughts

Sending hugs and warm handshakes

Waves_and_Smiles

Hugs MU. It was a blip and I am sure beau will understand that. You mean a lot to him and I doubt very much he will walk away from you over last night. I do know it is embarrassing, I have been there myself but usually people cope better than I give them credit for. Are you feeling more stable now? Do get your meds tomorrow, remember it isn't a weakness that you need them, your chemicals don;t work properly and that is physical. I always explain your penguin to people that way, I need meds to stop things like that happening just as I need blood pressure tablets to lower that, both are physical and out of my control. Perhaps Beau might be able to understand a little more if you explain things that way?

System

It was a blip. A silly heat of the moment blip. I know if i'd had my meds, it wouldn't have happened, so at least if i can reassure him i will be a good xXMessedUpXx and not run out of meds, it hopefully won't happen again. I'm just really worried he will somehow blame himself even though really it wasn't him, it was just my mind playing up. Albeit honestly if i had managed to talk to him, it might have been a different outcome, but i dont want him thinking it was because of him.

I feel better today, i'm just annoyed that i got into a state yesterday. I really shouldn't have run out of meds, i just hadn't had time with work to go pick them up. But have a day off tomorrow so will most definetly get them.

Pyxis

Thank you for telling us your penguin, MessedUp. :A
Yes, blame it on the no meds. After all, if I don't use my inhalers, I get wheezy again.if a diabetic doesn't take insulin, they deteriorate rapidly. It's just the same, so do explain to Beau in these terms. Not taking your meds makes you view things differently, your brain chemistry changes, and that's why.

He sounds very nice and caring, so you are right not to want to let him think he was somehow to blame. :A

Go get those meds, girl! . (And maybe a bright red lipstick at the same time?)!!

lostinrates

In quite close view from my bedroom window is a tree, it still has some pale green leaves but most of them are yellow now. In the bad weather they are fluttering relentlessly in the wind, like a gathering of citrus coloured butterflies hanging on for stability.

I must stop gazing at them because I have to go out in quarter of an hour, but its so captivating.

seven-day-weekend

Hi all, just a quick hello from me.

My husband is not too bad at the moment, he has plenty of physical work to do, and whilst he sometimes grizzles about it, he also knows it helps him mentally.

I'm thinking of you all and especially the decision about the dog, I know this is a really challenging one. Whatever you decide it will be with love for your friend xx.

Hope everyone has the best day they can have.

Solarjunkie

Tuesday's Recovery Letter -

From a loving friend

Dear You,
I understand that you don't want to get out of bed today, you don't want to talk to anyone about anything. Nothing is wrong, you just feel as if living is a waste of time. I'm here to tell you recovery is possible. Pain is temporary and you can overcome anything. Some day your cloudy skies will turn blue and the sun will shine down and show you all of your beauty that you can't see now. Just never give up, I didn't, and I don't want you to either. Remember, scars are a sign you are strong, not weak.

Love, a caring friend.

Waves_and_Smiles

Good morning all! Just making a quick post before my long day starts. I am booked in for blood tests at the hospital at 8.45am, then I get to hide in the car with Sir P and WaSp until 11am for my psychiatrists appointment. Then back to the car to hide again and try to eat something if I am not in a state of panic by then, and my endocrinology appointment is at 2pm when he will hopefully have the test results. Remind me again why I didn't rebook some of these appointments? After today-3 down, 2 to go. On the bright side I took so many anti-psychotics yesterday that I am much calmer than usual which could be very handy.

Thinking of you and Big dog today LIR, hugs.

See you all later! Sir P says woof!

Pyxis

Good luck, WaS!
Think of the multiple appointment day as a limitation exercise! By having all the appointments on one day, that's only one rough day, as opposed to several! And what an achievement to even consider doing that!

Is it pouring with rain where you are? If so, you might not need your blanket in the car, as the windows will be so rainy, no-one can see in anyway!, and people will be too busy trying to get out of the driving rain!


Good luck, and have a good rest when you get home! xx