Just needed to be heard for a little while

DUKE

jobbingmusician wrote: »

Shhhhh - yes, I am the shopper! Sorry for confusion.

I'm still reading, even though I haven't had time to post properly. I haven't been doing any thanks so I know how far back I have to go to read properly when I get back home!

Just charging through & this caught my eye - a personal shopper? I'm intrigued, or just nosy

whitewing

Mystery shopper

ETA: When exactly is elsien's birthday?

Waves_and_Smiles

Afternoon!

I would have loved to take an endocrinology course, Pyxis. You are so correct that things cascade. As I have had said first I developed Rheumatoid arthritis, then signs of Lupus (and the test came back negative), then Schizophrenia, then Hashimotos disease, then Addisons Disease and then Psoriasis all within a year. There is no way I will accept that it was a coincidence. Of course, it is highly possible that these conditions may have started mildly a couple of years earlier but they all decided to flare at once enough for me to notice them. I was so ill for that year, the tiredness was unbelievable and more and more of me kept breaking, to say I was depressed was an understatement, I was terrified and I felt like I was waiting for death...

Even now something isn't stabilising and my Endocrinologist is looking at other autoimmune disorders, we are onto the rarer ones now. It is holding up things like trying Acupuncture because my GP won't try it if I have an as yet undiscovered underlying condition. It's annoying. Apparently I can expect a rough time during the first few months of menopause, too when there are big hormone changes. That even affects psychiatric medication so that is going to be fun...

Hahahaha LIR, when my Lupus test came back positive this year both my consultant and I grinned! We almost jumped and up and down and cheered "Yay! It's Lupus!" We were both so relieved because we were sure that I had it. I had constant headaches, the butterfly pattern of Rosacea, extreme tiredness, swollen glands and swollen legs. I was like a walking advertisement for it! My doctor wouldn't treat it, though as the symptoms may have also been related to the other disorders so he had to get confirmation first, but the poor man had been scratching his head about why I still had symptoms if I didn't have Lupus.. For once we were both happy that I was ill and it was official! He said in most people it shows with the first blood test but in others it masks itself and can do so for many years, particularly if you have other autoimmune disorders.

Thank you for thinking of me, whitewing. It makes me happy when people think of me when they go out. I was there a little bit! Your DD sounds as if she is learning social interaction very well. I love that she is trying out new things, brave little girl!

That is a really interesting article about ovulation, thank you. I will take it along to my psychiatrist. I can almost predict my psychosis to worsen at the same time every month, I feel myself becoming more distant and unable to stay in this world. Surprisingly periods themselves don't seem to affect it which is good at least.

Waves_and_Smiles

Errr, cognitive problem, help please. I have an electricity bill. I have been storing them in the cupboard of doom but that shelf is clear now so it doesn't go there anymore. I was sitting here staring at it and panicking and it is panic, I don't know what to do with it! It is paid online so I just need it for records. Now my brain feels totally foggy and I can't think so I have hidden it behind a cushion. I hate this, other people would think of a solution in a second but I feel like I am thinking through mud and just getting more and more anxious.

elsien

Some sort of file, box file, large envelope, that sort of thing? I have a letter tray I put things in that are waiting to go away.

White wing, my birthday is Thurs, thanks for asking. I am going for a spa day with friends, then a meal out, which should help me unwind a bit.

I have been contemplating a bit of mystery shopping. Now I've got more time I can read the thread and see which companies are worthwhile.

Waves_and_Smiles

A box file! I have box files with my crafting materials in them so I just transfer everything to the other boxes and use the empty one for bills! I think a box file of bills is ok to return to the cupboard of doom if it is useful.

Thank you so much, elsien, I get myself in such a state over things like that. Schizophrenia and longterm medication causes cognitive damage and I really cannot think of things sometimes, every thought turns to mud and then I feel useless and hate myself.

elsien

Why hate yourself over something that isn't your fault? I think you do remarkably well with everything going on in your life - you cope better than most people would. Why not give yourself credit for that instead.
Speaking of cupboards of doom, I have some day out vouchers I want to use this week that I have put "somewhere safe". Guess what tonight's job is?

elsien

Today I decided I needed to be out and about to clear my head, so I thought I'd fit in a bit of dog training and take Gitdog somewhere new, as he freaks out in new places so when I feel brave I'm extending his repertoire. We went to an arboretum with an Italianate garden and fountain. It was very peaceful sitting listening to the sound of the water and the wind rustling in the trees. Gitdog also discovered he's afraid of koi carp!

Waves_and_Smiles

Aw, I want to meet Gitdog! The more you post about him the more adorable and funny he sounds, he has such a great personality!

Electricity bill is now in a box file! Unfortunately the box file is in the middle of the floor waiting for a home... Is it ok to put the box file into the cupboard of doom as it will contain bills? I think it is but I am not sure. I get so frustrated because years ago I would have dealt with these things without thinking twice about it but it is so difficult to think of even the simplest of things sometimes. Then everything gets foggy and I feel pressure in my head and I panic.

Something else to sort out is behind the large cushion next to me. It is my hiding place for things that stress me and I am frightened to approach it because it is like a nest of things to make me anxious. It isn't something I can discuss often with my partner either because it scares him. He used to get angry and frustrated with me that I would get confused over where a teaspoon belongs but he has grasped that it is cognitive damage now. That makes the poor man feel even worse so I try to hide it as much as I can. We do manage to laugh over it sometimes though!

lostinrates

Put it in the cupboard of doom for now. It can be moved. . Why not ask your partner where he thinks is a good place for bills and paper work?

Do you keep a file for your medical stuff?

What other files and paper work can you file and organise.

Your partner has a desk, doesn't he? Are there shelves here that that might make a better long term home for a home 'organisation' area ? I ask that because if you need to pay some thing online, google something for a provider or whatever, it will be all in one place, near the computer?