Depression Support Thread

Tulip

Stephb1986 wrote: »

lol sorry just corrected myself im a world of my own in the morning! no breakfast and all that!

how are you today??

Steph xx

thats ok,I am fine thanks Steph,had a good day today,went to parents,then I saw my CPN,told her I was upset about my weight and then I just cried and cried,I couldnt stop and the tears just flowed right out.I had a bath and washed hair for tonight and then had a little sleep.I rang mum to say I was awake again and I feel better,mum says I am overtired because I am on here so late and its true I am on here far too long at night so I will go and log off at 10pm in the future if I can but its just so hard to switch off :rotfl:

*hugs*

love and light,

Katie xxx

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,

Hope you are all ok,I am now fine,refreshed and ready to go to holiday on Ice Romanza,cant wait to tell you all about it

have a nice evening everyone


love and light,

Katie xxx

week

Hi to everyone,
I will make up a list of names and save them(somewhere!) so I can mention you individually when I have time, so apologies for the general mention.
Bad hair day mark 2, looked lovely after I did it this morning, left without a brolly, need I saw more!!! Still didnt feel dressed right, thought everyone was staring at my tights and shoes again. Said some very strange things to people, they just came out!! my mind was racing off in different directions at the same time and I get all mixed up. I hope next week I am more calm and less "mad" and I feel my hair and clothes look right.
Re the personality disorder, my dad was diagnosed as manic depressive with a borderline personality disorder. I am "bipolar(the new word for manic depression!) with rapid cycling", not been told I have a personality disorder as yet. My dad was very odd a lot of the time. Aggressive(but he never hit me) and loud. he was sadistic and was cruel in a mental way. Let me give an example; mum was away visiting a relative and dad was in charge. I was about 12 and he made the dinner. It was soup with apples and cabbage in it! He wore a mohair jumper while making it and I said to watch the loose fibres didnt go into the soup, so he then pulled loads of fluff from it and put it in the soup. We had to eat it, it tasted awful. Every meal that weekend had cabbage with it(he grew veg in the garden and we had to eat it all), macaroni cheese and cabbage!!
Example 2 When my daughter visited with me as a child to my dads home he made fish with the head and eyes etc(which he caught) and gave her it on a plate with nothing else. She nearly threw up. He was angry with her because she didnt want it. So what did he make each time we visited? Yep fish!! I would say "dad she doesnt like fish" and he would act like it was news to him. She hated going there.
I dont know if that is typical of the personality disorder or not, its just my experience of it.
k.

Tulip

week wrote: »

Hi to everyone,
I will make up a list of names and save them(somewhere!) so I can mention you individually when I have time, so apologies for the general mention.
Bad hair day mark 2, looked lovely after I did it this morning, left without a brolly, need I saw more!!! Still didnt feel dressed right, thought everyone was staring at my tights and shoes again. Said some very strange things to people, they just came out!! my mind was racing off in different directions at the same time and I get all mixed up. I hope next week I am more calm and less "mad" and I feel my hair and clothes look right.
Re the personality disorder, my dad was diagnosed as manic depressive with a borderline personality disorder. I am "bipolar(the new word for manic depression!) with rapid cycling", not been told I have a personality disorder as yet. My dad was very odd a lot of the time. Aggressive(but he never hit me) and loud. he was sadistic and was cruel in a mental way. Let me give an example; mum was away visiting a relative and dad was in charge. I was about 12 and he made the dinner. It was soup with apples and cabbage in it! He wore a mohair jumper while making it and I said to watch the loose fibres didnt go into the soup, so he then pulled loads of fluff from it and put it in the soup. We had to eat it, it tasted awful. Every meal that weekend had cabbage with it(he grew veg in the garden and we had to eat it all), macaroni cheese and cabbage!!
Example 2 When my daughter visited with me as a child to my dads home he made fish with the head and eyes etc(which he caught) and gave her it on a plate with nothing else. She nearly threw up. He was angry with her because she didnt want it. So what did he make each time we visited? Yep fish!! I would say "dad she doesnt like fish" and he would act like it was news to him. She hated going there.
I dont know if that is typical of the personality disorder or not, its just my experience of it.
k.

I am also Bipolar as my mood used to yoyo alot and go from one place to the next and I was on a high most times and also got my lows as well,Now I am on medication for it I am alot better but I will always have bipolar

Must go now to finish getting ready for iceshow,dad getting me in a few mins not sure what time I will be back but I will say good night now to you all as I want to go straight to bed as I will be so tired so I will chat tomorrow

love and light,


Katie

Horace

Hi all

It was another of those days today. My alarm woke me at 6.30am but I couldn't be bothered to get out of bed so re-set it for 8.30am by which time I had gotten up and dressed etc. Spent time ringing the Council about my HB - now I have to re-supply all the details they have had before about my savings:mad: I then had to ring my ex because Virgin Media had sent an email to me about my virgin.net account - apparently I had to ring into the PAYG system to get it to work again, if I didn't do it I'd lose it - seems they cannot transfer this email to broadband (how stoopid). In the end I rang my ex and he has agreed to dial up into Virgin for me so that I don't lose my email address (he last dialled into it about 2 years ago:eek: ).

My work colleague phoned me today too as well as an estate agent, I then had to phone another colleague who advised me that he was going to view properties again today so I tagged along, pity though that he didn't want to come with me on my visit because he had a spreadsheet and report to prepare (I can do the bloomin' report). I ended up freezing my nicknacks off waiting for the agent to arrive. Managed to get into the office space and spoke to the concierge who recognised me and we came to the conclusion that we had met when I worked at the University - he left 7 years ago. I saw a whole suite which was relatively cheap but bigger than we actually need.

Didnt get home til gone 3 and then I had to go out and get some milk, a paper and I treated myself to a trashy mag. I didn't eat my lunch until 4.30pm after which I had another phone call from one of my work colleagues. I can't get warm neither after spending nearly all afternoon out in freezing wind:rolleyes:

I am feeling tired and skint - just hope I get paid next week otherwise I shall have to go back on the dole.

Hope everyone is well? sorry to hear about your keys though Shaz and I am glad you found them. I am forever losing stuff - I can hunt around for things that I then find in plain sight. I once thought that I had lost my purse in a restaurant in London so I made my OH drive me all the way back to the restaurant so that I could have a mooch for it, we checked his car, the walk from the restaurant to the car, the walk from the car to his flat and where was the dratted thing - in a different coat pocket to the one I would normally put it in:o

I am off to mooch and may be back later.

Hugs to all
Horace x

RainbowChild_2

Hi All

Feeling down today so am a bit quiet. Hope you are all ok. Looking forward to a quiet night doing nothing. x

week

Sorry you are not so good today rainbowchild. Is there anything on TV tonight you might watch?
K.

Stephb1986_2

hey everyone i hope your ok!

whats up rainbow hun?

Steph xx

juno

I'm bipolar too, woohoo! There's quite a crowd of us now

I'm gonna be in trouble I didn't tell my daddy about my OU course coz I knew he wouldn't approve. But today some stuff came through the post for it, and they print "OPEN UNIVERSITY EDUCATIONAL MATERIAL" in big letters on the outside. And he was in to get it

I love not drinking. it makes me such a lightweight that one glass gets me nicely tipsy.

shazrobo

evening all, how is everyone?
hope you have a fantastic night katie

not had a great evening, josh's school rang, to let me know that he had threatened to stab a teacher with a pair of scissors so he is excluded, have to go to a meeting with his headteacher and the police monday morning
shaz x