Depression Support Thread

slowlyfading

Feeling really low today. Can I show you an msn convo on here? Its reminded me of older days, and I'm feeling really down.

Diamond78

meyore wrote: »

I'm happy enough today-its the first day of my fortnight off and I've kept busy. Had my legs waxed for the first time ever today! Went and did touristy type things-I don't appreciate what a nice place I live in sometimes.

Sorry to hear about your problems-at least your son is keeping you going

Xx

:j glad u had a good day and keeping urself busy. Did you enjoy having your legs waxed lol??:o I had it done once when i was younger and it hurt me bad but that was a friend who done it,maybe its different when you have it done proffesionaly. Its good to do touristy things and get out and about.Me and my boy do that sometimes, not often bt its nice to see nice places thats natural and unspoilt.x

meyore

slowlyfading wrote: »

Feeling really low today. Can I show you an msn convo on here? Its reminded me of older days, and I'm feeling really down.

Hi SF whats up? Wanna chat? (((HUGS)))

Xx

Diamond78

slowlyfading wrote: »

Feeling really low today. Can I show you an msn convo on here? Its reminded me of older days, and I'm feeling really down.

Hey Hun,
Why are you feeling down today?Has something happened to trigger it off?I hope it will go soon and you will feel a little happier but i know the feeling and know its not easy. i dont know about msn and if you can show it on here, im not experienced int hem things hun sorry xxxx
sending u lots of hugs, love and kisses xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stephb1986_2

Hey SF whats up hun?

Steph xx

RainbowChild_2

Hi Steph
Ha now that's a funny question depending on what time you ask lol

atm I'm ok...been fed by OH, kids being good and keeping meself together

RainbowChild_2

Hi SF..I'm new here but still felt like giving you a HUG xx

slowlyfading

This is with a girl I went to school with, and was pretty close to for a while, but then she moved abroad and i've not heard from her for ages until i found her on facebook a few days ago! this is the convo:

Her: can i ask u sumat n i wud like if u were honest
Me: sure
Her: uum dnt get annoyed wit me im just worried
but r u still obsessed wit ur weight or sumat
Me: still obsessed? i was never obsessed.. was i?
Her: well yeh kinda
Her: u used to av days where u wudnt eat
Her: coz u thought u were fat
Her: wen u were always perfect
Me: i did? god i don't remember that - and no, I'm not obsessed. still fat but not obsessed
Me: and thanks for saying that, it means a lot. I don't remember that i never ate, i always seem to eat loads! and you've seen the photos on facebook, i've gained a few in recent years
Her: r u mad wit me
Me: no, of course not! its funny what other people notice and remember
Me: i honestly can't remember school that much, was i that bad?
Her: well we wud b in music lessons n u wud ask if ud put weight on n weneva i ate wit yaz at lunch u never ate a great deal
Her: we were always worried bout ya
Me: you were? who's "we"? lol i can't believe i didn't eat much - i eat like a horse now! lol
Her: well kayleigh n me for 2 ppl
Her: kat, nic, katie
Me: really? coz nic was always going on about how thin she was, lol
Her: funny
Me: kayleigh was worried? i thought she didn't like me lol
Her:shes always worried bout u u used to b best friends remember der r mor ppl dat care bout u dan u fink n know or so it seems
Me: we did used to be best friends, that's true
Me: and thanks for saying that its strange, i used to think people didn't use to notice me at all - perhaps they did.
Her: of course we did u muppet


How strange is that. One, I can't remember much of school as it all passed in a blur of self harming and hating. and Two, I always though I was pretty unnoticed at school. strange what other people observe, huh.
But you know the thing that is upsetting me now, is that I MISS having that kind of control around food. I am so huge now, and urgh, I really do hate myself. I miss being able to go days without eating and feeling so hungry that it hurts. I just have no control now. Is that stupid?

meyore

slowlyfading wrote: »

How strange is that. One, I can't remember much of school as it all passed in a blur of self harming and hating. and Two, I always though I was pretty unnoticed at school. strange what other people observe, huh.
But you know the thing that is upsetting me now, is that I MISS having that kind of control around food. I am so huge now, and urgh, I really do hate myself. I miss being able to go days without eating and feeling so hungry that it hurts. I just have no control now. Is that stupid?

I think it shows you're doing better now tbh. I don't think it shows less control, just that your priorities have changed. I know the feeling though, in school I was the same, never eating but now I can't stop. Don't beat yourself up about it please

Xx

meyore

SF-Also, if you're not happy with you're weight then controlling your eating to that extent is bad-have you tried the gym? I know you've probably heard it before, but it releases chemicals in your brain which make you happy, as well as helping you lose weight. Sorry, I know you didn't ask for my advice on this, but I don't want to think you're going to start starving yourself.

Xx