Depression Support Thread

Miroslav

shazrobo wrote: »

evening all, can't sleep so thought i would come online for a bit.
i keep trying to put on a brave face, but cry so much when i am home, and sons in bed, feel so lonely

Good place to be here tonight.......cos i'm here

We all try putting on our brave faces, which I think is sad, as we can't trust in anyone to accept who we are

geminilady

Miroslav wrote: »

Well, it's easier, because people don't understand.

My flatmate is the only non official person that knows and even though she has depression/anxiety, she is so inward looking, that although she says she understands me, she always talks about herself non stop and very forcefully too. On the other hand, i'm always doing alot for her. Last year she helped a little, but it was soon thrown back in my face

This thread is the only place I get to 'talk' so to speak.

I don't cry myself to sleep. As soon as I feel a tear, I stop myself as I hate crying, but every night I go to bed I dream about the life I wish I had and that I had someone that cared.

The fact is, people don't want to know.

Hope you are okay this evening

Hi Miro:hello: "every night I go to bed I dream about the life I wish I had and that I had someone that cared" Me to:o I might have said this before but i believe this is why a lot of people are suffering from depression and for the ones that have a OH it is not enough they still want something more.I do not cry either not for years infact i wrote a poem not so long ago about it hope nobody minds me posting it but its a kind of therapy for me.

I do not cry anymore
the tears dried up long ago

along with lost dreams and love not lost
because it was never truely given
not complete love not the all consuming
never ending love that i dreamed of
long ago when i still had tears to cry
tears are for other people the ones
who have arms to hold them
a shoulder to rest their head
I mingle with the crowd
smile with my mouth
laugh at their jokes
i breath so i must be alive
but i do not cry anymore

EthelBloggs

Miroslav wrote: »

I barely know how to use my Nokia which must be 1960's :rotfl: Good luck learning

Curried anything will finish me off. I'll stick to chicken breast

I prefer the thighs meself..
OH won't eat anything with bones in so he eats the breast too

I was brought up like a peasant.. I enjoy nothing better than gnawing on chops and ribs and stuff like that

shazrobo

Miroslav wrote: »

Good place to be here tonight.......cos i'm here

We all try putting on our brave faces, which I think is sad, as we can't trust in anyone to accept who we are

here is the best place, as we can tell people what we really feel like, which i cant in real life, and every one is so accepting and friendly, why cant real life be like this?
life is so hard, one of my sons has just being diagnosed with depression too, hes only 12, and i feel guilty maybe he's got it from me?
maybe cos he is so like me, he's ever so helpful kind, and taken advantage because of it

weegie.geek

Horace wrote: »

Meyore - glad you had a good day at work plus the offer of overtime at the new branch (can't be bad).

If you are going away for a weekend - well you don't need to pack much:

underwear
socks
jeans/trousers
jumper
skirt or a dress
top
tights
shoes
trainers/boots
hair stuff
tooth stuff
shower stuff
towel (you never know)
body stuff
perfume
hat n gloves (it might be cold)

Remember you are not going for 6 months just a few days:rotfl:

DON'T FORGET YOUR MEDS!

Stephb1986_2

i do talk to my OH about stuff but not properly i dont like getting upset infront of him. Its like when the 6 of us went on holiday me my OH my mum and step dad my step sister and her OH, in the middle of starbucks my step sister OH started asking about my real dad now thats a bit of a no go subject with me and my mum ive never really spoke about my dad to my OH either because i'd get really upset but he continued to probe and my OH could see i wasnt comfortable so we ended up leaving early, he said he had no clue how bad it was and i should of told him to be honest we only mentioned the mild stuff it was alot worse than we made out.

EthelBloggs

yeah I know wha tyou mean about being afraid for people to find it.. how about just a text document or somethng on the computer, don't even name it, just something like New Text Document.txt or whatever? looks v boring and unlikely to attract attention

Gem your poem is beautiful, how are you? x

weegie.geek

shazrobo wrote: »

here is the best place, as we can tell people what we really feel like, which i cant in real life, and every one is so accepting and friendly, why cant real life be like this?
life is so hard, one of my sons has just being diagnosed with depression too, hes only 12, and i feel guilty maybe he's got it from me?
maybe cos he is so like me, he's ever so helpful kind, and taken advantage because of it

You can't catch it, so don't blame yourself. If it's genetic, blame your ancestors.

weegie.geek

EthelBloggs wrote: »

yeah I know wha tyou mean about being afraid for people to find it.. how about just a text document or somethng on the computer, don't even name it, just something like New Text Document.txt or whatever? looks v boring and unlikely to attract attention

Gem your poem is beautiful, how are you? x

Or an anonymous blog.

shazrobo

think i'm going to make myself a milky drink and try getting some sleep, my eyes are stinging i'm so tired, and i have to be up at 7 in the morn, not done that for a long time
night night
sweet dreams
shaz x