Depression Support Thread

meyore

It all depends on your body type and height really. I'd love to be that light, but I'd be see-through at 9 and a half stone! You could get one of those boots printouts, but its probably better asking your GP what he reckons your perfect weight would be.

Hes hopefully being posted to Newbury, but it could be anywhere at this stage. At least wherever it is I'll be able to go too.

I do the girly pressups too...

Night rose, talk soon.

Xx

rose07

RBK . how r u feelin now? I know there is nothing i can say to change your way of thinking, but i wnt you to know your not alone. I understand where you are at as i have been there, i know alot of people on this site can probably see that i have came along ok. And if i can do it soo can you hun. Have you been back to your gp? seen your cpn? There are ways out of this.

One of my mates commited suicide in November, and i remember leading up to it telling myself i would call her, but i never did. The next thing i knew she had killed herself as she thought no one would notice, but they do hun, your family, friends of the family, there friends there children, you say you dont have any friends but believe me if you did any thing stupid you would find there are soo many people that think about you always. You just gotta pick up the phone sometimes.

I still blame myself bout my mates death as i feel if i had just texted or rang her, told her how i cared then just maybe.. but it shows we never know what someone was thinking.

Please try and get some help hun, because we are all behind you and cheering you on, you just gotta put a bit a work in

xxx

queensway_boy

Night night everyone xxxxxxxxxxx

rose07

meyore wrote: »

It all depends on your body type and height really. I'd love to be that light, but I'd be see-through at 9 and a half stone! You could get one of those boots printouts, but its probably better asking your GP what he reckons your perfect weight would be.

Hes hopefully being posted to Newbury, but it could be anywhere at this stage. At least wherever it is I'll be able to go too.

I do the girly pressups too...

Night rose, talk soon.

Xx

Your tall tho arent ya? im a wee one :rotfl:bit depressing when ya see other girlies all well slim and your jiglging around, well off putting

did see my gp not long ago and he did say i have managed to level it out now, not sure what he meant tho :rotfl:
take care
xxx

rose07

right time for me to go..

lots of these for all that need em



and this is something i heard last week that brought me back... was a major song in my life, kinda turning poitn one, so see what ya think. .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTJ7AzBIJoI

and...




xxxxxxx

meyore

I'm 5'7" but I think I must have heavy bones, because no matter what my shape I don't seem to get much lighter. Try the boots scales-I hope they're more accurate where you are than down here!

Night Night (again, I just can't keep away!)

Xx

weegie.geek

rose07 wrote: »

Oh i weighed meself on the gym scales the other day, think .......shhhh dont tell noone....i was 9 and 1/2 stone :eek:, is that bad? see i got no way of knowing whats right. The only thing i do know is i used to be 8 stone, till i started taken me meds, then it all went waywards.

wheres ya oh posting?

oo no problem hun, anytime, u2

xxx

If you're 4 feet tall you're reeeeeeeeeally fat. If you're 6 feet tall you need to start eating.

http://www.nhsdirect.nhs.uk/magazine/interactive/bmi/index.aspx

BMI is far from carved in stone (fairly muscly people can be told they're overweight) but as long as you're within the range you're generally ok.

I haven't weighed myself for ages, but afaik I'm at the high end of being the right weight for my height, or maybe a little over.

A lot of meds will make you gain weight. It's been good for me because I was pretty skinny before. In the last 5 years I've put on 4 stone or something. One of the known side effects is craving sugar though

cat9586

weegie.geek wrote: »

If you're 4 feet tall you're reeeeeeeeeally fat. If you're 6 feet tall you need to start eating.

http://www.nhsdirect.nhs.uk/magazine/interactive/bmi/index.aspx

BMI is far from carved in stone (fairly muscly people can be told they're overweight) but as long as you're within the range you're generally ok.

I haven't weighed myself for ages, but afaik I'm at the high end of being the right weight for my height, or maybe a little over.

A lot of meds will make you gain weight. It's been good for me because I was pretty skinny before. In the last 5 years I've put on 4 stone or something. One of the known side effects is craving sugar though

Mine's 30.4 :rolleyes: Might vary slightly as I did a guess on the weight and put my average. Height stays at a very small 5'1" 3/4 though lol.

Diamond78

rose07, i know how you feel. But you must blame yourself. I was in a similar position. in 1999 I went on holiday as I was seeing a guy out there who Id know for years as i lived abroad from the age of 11. I came back to London when i was 18. Anyway my holiday romance was serious in my eyes not in his which i didnt know at the time. I got on well with all his family including brothers and cousins.

His one cousin who was a few years younger than me was like a brother in a way as we was very close, we would spend everyday togther, he worked on the beach and at night time we would all go out to the bar my then boyfriend worked(bars in holiday resorts are open till morning) I was at my happiest then or so I thought even tho I had depression.I will never ever forget as Im not really supersticious. It was friday the 13th and me and my boyfriend had a huge row and unfortuantly I was to gobby back then and said some nasty things to him. As a result of this my ex dumped me, but i was in my right to say the stuff as he was flirting with loads of women and i heard he had cheated on me, so i called him every name you could think of. In some holiday resorts, the local men will sleep with women just to get them to go to that bar every night-i should of known better really but i thought i was in love. Actaully it was lust.

His cousin was so supportive, so caring and cheered me up with his jokes.He had just turned 18 I think anyway he use to drink a lot, i think he actually had a drinking problem as he would be drinking whisky early in the morning and drink allday and then at night when we would go out.

He had a lot of personal problems, hes dad was very violent and a drinker himself, my friend was in love with a girl who was also in love with him but she lived in another country but his parents was against the relathionship which got him down. He also had a hisory of self harm, my then ex'x family was a family with a lot of problems but nothing that noone could handle. i remember we was talking about suicide, and if ever we would kill ourselves how we would do it. But although I had in the past taken overdoses, i didnt want to die. I didnt think my friend wanted to die. Ive had other friends be down and say i wish i was dead or im gonna kill myself and it never happened.On th 14th he rang me as i was visiting my mum also at the same time and my mum only lived a minute from there place. he sounded down so i went and had a few drinks with him. I didnt go out that night as I had split up with my bfriend.Me and pedro had a few drinks, he cried to me telling me how his dad had started on his mum, he didnt want to do his national service(army) and he wanted to be with his gfriend. Altho we had spoken about suicide the day b4 I never thought it was a serious chat.Im sure many ppl will call me stupid for that and yes i know i should of taken it seriously. I did in a way, but i was helpless who would of helped.His family wasnt the nicest really when he opened up and told me what they were like.My bfriend also treated him bad and bullied him over the years. I left him with another friend who i knew woud look after him. Im crying now just remembering, it was over 10 years ago, god i wish i could go back.

On the 15th of august, i woke up to go and see my friend at the beach, his cousin said he had gone home as he had a row with his dad and was drunk. so i went to the home but i bumped in to my ex and i was trying to win him back by begging him and trying to explain my rage of jealousy. Again we had a row so i went to see a friend in a near by hotel as my ex and his cousin shared the same room. When i stayed with my ex we all stayed in the same room (obviously the cousin and ex's brother wasnt in the room when we got intimate), just when we went to sleep. I felt like family.

I heard screams the next minute, i was stoppedfrom going to the home but all i could hear was my friends mum screaming and crying, i was in shock i dont rememebr what i was told, i remember only that pedron had died.But how????It was the worst ever day of my life. I found out he had a row with his dad, his mum was oing to leave and go back to her home town which was very far away, he had lots to drink and something about his gfriend. He left work early telling every1 he wasnt well. he went to the room we al woudl sleep in and put the music on loud and wrapped a thsirt around a gun so it could not be heard. He shot himself in the head.It was mayhem, i re live those moments so many times. Why did he do it??why didnt he shoot himself somewhere else so he could of survived. I told him the night before he could come to london and i would help him get to germany to see his gfriend as thats where she lived. it seemed such a blur, everyone crying, shouting, he was very popular and so loved. The pain he actually caused us might sound selfish of me but its not.His poor mother, his little brother, his other family and us his close friends, he had ripped us apart. I beg god to bring him back but his not coming back, i needed him so much. I wasnt allowed in the room at first, they had to wait for them ppl that come and take the body away. I was to scared to go and talk to my ex but i wanted him to know that i was there if he needed me as it was him who found the body.Pedro locked the door so the only was in was thru the window and my ex was greeted by the state which i dint want to mention. After the body was taken away, my ex spoke to me about what me and his cousin had spoken about as i was the last person he spoke to properly. I couldnt really tell him, it was confidential. What i wanted to know is where he got the gun from. I asked my ex if i could go in the room coz i still could not believe it, awwww it was awful. I will never forget the smell of the blood it was like something out of a movie. The smell of blod is disgusting, if only if only i had done something. The guilt ate me up, i came home 3 days later as my holiday had finished and i had work, i was so down, so depressed with the guilt, the if onlys all the questions. B4 i left his little brother showed me the brightest star in the sky and said thats pedro, hes looking at us. Even now i will look in the sky and speak to him.

I still cant belive it, he would would of been 28 now, married with kids, his broken my heart like no one else has, i so wish i could have him back, he had so much to live for. I cried for days and days, didnt eat and eventually couldnt work, i left my job and started smoking cannabis. from then on dunno i blocked everything out, tried not to think of it. Not a day goes by when i dont think of him, i have photos of the good times and a newspaper cutting of what happened to him. I didnt return to the resort for a few years until i was pregnat as i couldnt bare to go.My mum lived so close to the spot. When i did go i saw my ex, we had different lives but i couldnt help but blame him partly for what had happened. I still have anger in me and still want to know where he got the gun from.
The thing i have come to realise is however much i blame myself, i would not of been able to stop him, maybe i could of that day i dont knoe, but he planned it carefully with the way he did it, if i wasnt there and been back in london then he would of done it then, i miss him so much. I found it very hard to move on and this is the 1st time i have actually opened up about it.
When i watch tv and see a scene of someone being shot or suicide it makes me stiff with with fear.
Ppl dont really realise the pain it causes, the aftermath. For 3 years i suffered badly with what had happened and well i think my son saved my life when i fell pregnant to him.
My darling pedro would be so proud of me now, i know he watches over me, i feel i have aguardian angel that has protected me from many things and i feel sometimes it is him. I truelly feel awful now re living all that again, i know there was nothing i could of done i swaer if id had the slighest hint he would do suc a thing i would of never left him aone. Yes we spoke about it but it was just talk. Maybe if i had done it he wouldnt of.

So RBK please dont do anything silly, its awful it ruins lives, im still suffering, if something happens to you you will leave behind a lot of broken hearts that cannot get mended darling. It will not solve anything and things do get better, it just takes time. I know its so hard at times, believe me but there is help out there. Ive got to go through this all again tomorow at my councelling session. But i will be face to face with someone , i dont like crying iin front of others but i feel a bit better sharing this although i feel so hurt again like i could of saved my friend. RIP Pedro xxxxx

BigMummaF

Morning Guys.....

Got a lot on my mind at the mo, but can't seem to process it enough to work out what needs doing...if you catch my drift? Been up a couple of hours already, meaning to write some 'difficult' letters, cuz I've spent the past couple of nights laid awake composing them in my head! But today I really do have to commit words to paper......

Not heard any more about BIL..so no news is good etc etc:o

Looks like we have a contender worthy of QWB & his amazing graphics:rolleyes: ..."Hin tha blooo cornaa, weighing in at 2.5grams & wearing a fetching shade of green....Que Wan Boyyyyyaaaaa!:T :T :T :T Hin tha red corna, weighing in at 2.1grams & all prickles removed.....Roooooowsbuuuuud!:T :T :T :T "

Hope you find that elusive smile today & Peaceful Minds folks. BMFx