Depression Support Thread

Stephb1986_2

im stressing i need a hotel in scarbourough for the 4th of april till the 6th
the hotel i wanted is now fully booked arghhhh!!!

Stephb xxx

slowlyfading

stephb1986, oh dear! is there another hotel you can go to instead? xx

week

I searched for one of my fav forums- "Boots" and it came up with this! Am I right in thinking this is a chat/support area re the dreaded "D" word? I dont want to start a whole load of chat and make a fool of myself! I do enough of that in normal life!

Diamond78

RBK-Glad your ok. Sometimes it helps to say how you feel and whats going on. Sometimes we just need someone to listen to us, especially if we dont really have anyone. Atleast on here, you know you can talk about things and not get judged,blamed,accused, belittled ect. I feel my posts are so depressing so Im sorry.

I went to my assesment today for the councelling. i didnt really feel right though. Im so tired as it is, hardly got any sleep last night.My knees and back are in pain and I feel like a zombie ready to drop.

Anyway, it lasted just over an hour, the guy seemed ok, i told him most of the stuff i have been through as quickly as I could, coz they kind of rush you. He said basically he has to discuss my treatment with staff as to what will suit me best and where it will be. Either the place I went today or the hospital!I dont mind either way as long as I get the help. For the 1st time i didnt cry-I think i did all that last night.I felt on a high today, not happiness wise, dunno maybe coz i knew i was going for this assesment i knew I had to put a brave face on and pretend to be strong.Actually i didnt have to just felt like i had to. Where as really you should be open and express how you feel. I ususally cry, I am very emotional and very sensitive but i was cold like ice and smiling-very strange!!!!He said there was a waiting list, as always and I would hear back from the place that takes me on.Huh so its a waiting game again.

I dont actually feel any better, i thought i would of, getting things off my chest but nope, feel rubbish again today.My knees really hurt(had blood tests last week)I feel weak and tired.It was nice and sunny today which lifted me up a bit and as i was on the bus was listenig to my mp3 which i find helps me. I listen to songs that make me feel good. I feel okish then, until the thinking starts again.

The guy who assesed me actually knows the school my son attends-hhmmm i hope hes child doesnt go there. He asked if i made any friends, I said no. I explained that usually I dont have a problem talking, making friends ect but i felt the parents at my sons school seemed snobish and he confirmed it was the case. he said majority of the parents are well off and the kids have 2 parents ect ect and they work with their own homes ect ect- well just coz im a single parent out of choice and stuck in a rut and suffer with depression doesnt make me a bad person. I get really angry some days with the parents, they are so ignorant, rude and bad mannered. I have now stopped making eye contact and smiling and saying goodmorning with a great big fake smile that looks genuine,coz it upsets me when they blank me, and i dont want to end up being a gobby cow and saying something out of line coz i feeel i want to. I actually made a comment to 1 mum who looked straight at me and ignored me when i said good morning-silly woman, i said out aloud* fine i hope you dont have a good morning* and she looked at me so she heard alright.
The councillor said to me if he had amagic wand what is the thing i would want most????Like thats not gonna happen is it??I told him for my depression to vanish but i know that will never happen coz I know it wont.
So what was the point of today??Its annoyed me, a day wasted explaining to a stranger whats happened in my life only to be refered somewhere else and again have to go through an assesment. Do they not realise its so hard for some of us???

Glad to see everyone is ok. Do you think its something in the air that makes us feel so low lately? I like it when its sunny, not they i go anywhere as i have no where to go but its still nice.Right am off to make a coffee coz am so sleepy, chat soon hugs to everyone xx

week

Hi Diamond
I am going to read your previous posts then I will post again. Having been through a lot of the same things you mention(including assessments!) I can sympathise. Will come bk later!

Stephb1986_2

hey week welcome to the board and yes its for the dreaded D word lol. we dont bite i promise

Stephb xx

week

Stephb1986 wrote: »

hey week welcome to the board and yes its for the dreaded D word lol. we dont bite i promise

Stephb xx

I wasnt sure!! I have only been foruming since last week and am hooked on a couple of other threads including Boots but as more interested in fellow D sufferers (I am Bi P) and you seem to reply to each other, so I am reading up on pre notes from here and hope to spend some time on later. My D is out and I am supposed to be tidying the messy house!!!!
K.

Horace

Hello everyone

Had a kinda odd day today, was told last night that I neednt go in to work today because they were using the office as a photographic studio so I got up this morning at 8am:j Washed my hair, put some washing on and settled down in front of my computer to do a bit of work (we are computerless at work at the mo). I nipped out to get some superglue, bought myself a bunch of daff for 50p (I got a few extra because some came out of another bunch so the shop owner let me have them), bought a newspaper, some milk and a ream of paper. I had loads of calls from work, as some peeps had gone in wanting to know if I had a contact list and if so where was it, then I had a call about the Birmingham Chamber of Commerce and did I know anyone with a digital SLR camera. The company I work for are producing a book in British Sign Language trouble is, this needs to be presented in China before the Olympics and the various peeps in our London office have done naff all about it thus leaving us in Birmingham to pick up the pieces and take 900 photos in one day:eek:

Had my lunch and vegged out in front of the TV (fell asleep) and was woken by the phone - yet another call from the office telling me not to go into work tomorrow either - so I have to work at home again. I don't mind because it means that I can wear nowt if I want:eek: (I am hoping to get a suntan from my halogen lights). So tomorrow will be spent looking for insurers who offer public liability/event insurance because I have to organise some public events and summer schools and I have a sneaky suspicion that no-one has thought about insurance.

Tried to do something about my debt today since I noticed that I had gone into my overdraft for the first time since I was made redundant in August:mad: I have signed up for a 0% balance transfer card with Virgin and shifted a largish debt over to it (I will not use the card for shopping). I hate being skint so now I am thinking about going to stand up the back of Rackhams (if you're a brummie you will know what I am on about).

RBK hope you are OK? Steph try looking at Activehotels.com for a hotel - you might find one cheaper than the one you were going to stay in (good luck).

QWB - I just love your emoticons - you have a fab selection.

Hugs to those that need them (((((HUGS)))))

Horace

week wrote: »

I wasnt sure!! I have only been foruming since last week and am hooked on a couple of other threads including Boots but as more interested in fellow D sufferers (I am Bi P) and you seem to reply to each other, so I am reading up on pre notes from here and hope to spend some time on later. My D is out and I am supposed to be tidying the messy house!!!!
K.

Welcome - we don't know each other really some of us haven't been posting on here for long (namely me but I am sure there are others). I visit this thread as well as the freebie forum and debt-free wannabe. Just jump in we don't bite (well I don't but can't say owt about the others:D ).

Stuff the housework - life is too short, I might have another go at mine tomorrow now I have been given an extra paid day off work.:j

meyore

gillette147 wrote: »

You've lost the fat off the bottom of your feet. That's why you've got smaller.
xx

Oh, I see... :rolleyes: