Depression Support Thread

johnroberts07

Everyone else cant get on with their life, i cant. And nobody can hate me more than myself

dawnylou

I feel like everyone can and everyone is though.
I look around me and see people going to work, doing their housework, doing their shopping. Just everyday things.
Just everyday things that I , at the moment, seem so incapable of!

When are things going to resolve themselves? I truly don't think I can put myself - or anyone else - through this for much longer!

My fiance is going to work all day every day, coming home and then sometimes having to make tea, do housework and look after me!
I'm sure this isn't the life he imagined us having together.

He would be better off with me out of the picture so he could meet someone young, carefree, pretty, kind, intelligent.
Rather than being stuck to some fat, ugly !!!!! like me with issues.

My parents, wasting time worrying about me. Dad can't sleep at night since he found out I was ill. At this rate he will get ill too and then i will all be my fault.

I am ruining everything for everyone.

Tel me - who wouldn't benefit if I was to leave this Earth??

johnroberts07

You sound like me! i think i am fat and ugly, and people tell me im not but i dont believe them. I was in hospital 3 weeks ago for taking an overdose

juno

dawnylou wrote: »

I feel like everyone can and everyone is though.
I look around me and see people going to work, doing their housework, doing their shopping. Just everyday things.
Just everyday things that I , at the moment, seem so incapable of!

When are things going to resolve themselves? I truly don't think I can put myself - or anyone else - through this for much longer!

My fiance is going to work all day every day, coming home and then sometimes having to make tea, do housework and look after me!
I'm sure this isn't the life he imagined us having together.

He would be better off with me out of the picture so he could meet someone young, carefree, pretty, kind, intelligent.
Rather than being stuck to some fat, ugly !!!!! like me with issues.

My parents, wasting time worrying about me. Dad can't sleep at night since he found out I was ill. At this rate he will get ill too and then i will all be my fault.

I am ruining everything for everyone.

Tel me - who wouldn't benefit if I was to leave this Earth??

Exactly - you're ill. Would you be so hard on yourself if you had a broken leg (or worse)? You'd still need looking after then, and probably wouldn't be able to do things either. But you'd probably just accept it, and realise that one day you'll be better and able to look after yourself again.

And one day, you will be better! :T

So instead of beating yourself up over the things you can't do, concentrate on what you can. Can you do internet shopping, for example? Then you would still be doing your shopping, but wouldn't have to face crowds or carry it home. I'm doing most of my Christmas shopping online this year, but you could do food shopping etc too if it helps you. And if you go to the discounts board, you'll probably be able to save money too

And maybe try setting yourself small targets. Just say, "today, I'm going to do the washing up", or "i'm going to hoover the living room". You don't have to do the whole house at a time, but if you try and do one thing a week you'll realise you're getting somewhere.
I have a sort of routine with mine. While I boil the kettle for my first coffee of the day, I run some washing up water and put things in to soak. Then 2nd coffee I wash them, and 3rd coffee I dry them. If you break things into smaller steps they're more manageable.

And do try not to worry about your dad. It's not your fault he can't sleep, and feeling bad won't help except to make things worse. Maybe advise him to go and see his doctor etc and see what they can do for him, or print out something like this for him to read.

dawnylou

Thank you for your help - but for weeks now I have tried the 'small target' approach and I can't even manage that.
I'm a complete and utter failure.

fantastico_2

I went to the doctors this morning and said to him that i was having panic attacks. He has percribed me some beta-blockers-Propranolol. Hope that they will help and hopefully i can getr back on track with living.

I hope that everyone is having a good day, and tomorrow is another day.

Lots and lots of love to all

H xxx

juno

dawnylou wrote: »

Thank you for your help - but for weeks now I have tried the 'small target' approach and I can't even manage that.
I'm a complete and utter failure.

well, maybe your target is unrealistic then! but even if you only manage to achieve it half the time or less, that's probably still better than you were doing before. you can't go from doing nothing to doing everything.

dawnylou

No I have really tried Juno.
I tried targets such as washing the dishes just to start me off. After just a couple of days I lost the motivation again.

I really don't know what to do, or where to go from here.

fantastico_2

dawnylou wrote: »

Thank you for your help - but for weeks now I have tried the 'small target' approach and I can't even manage that.
I'm a complete and utter failure.

No no, you are not, you musnt beat yourself up love. You are allowing depression to swallow you up, try to summon some energy (yes you do have some) and try the targets that Juno had suggested. They might seem trivial, but a little will go along way. Just imagine the boost you will have when you can do a little housework. Your family are would be thrilled if you can do it, but most of all do it for yourself.

H

gillette147

BigMummaF wrote: »

Second----Just what has our resident brockster been up to? Gillette, I told you to take it easy, but no...you have to work like a demon over the weekend, fall asleep at work & burn your lunch:rotfl: :rotfl: :rotfl: [news report of fire near olympic building site, yesterday]

Look, if it was me there'd been black and white smoke.
We were v. close to the fire - probably got a good gulp of asbestos!
Work was so depressing today I ran to McD for lunch.
Anyway I am going to do some DIY now, so love and hugs to you all.
xxx