Depression Support Thread

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juno wrote: »

Slowlyfading, when I was at uni, I went to the counselling service there and they really did help. And if they can't, they'll be able to suggest somewhere that can. If you're too scared to go in and see them then you could probably email them and book an appointment that way?

Also, does your uni have a Nightline service? It's run by students so they're people your own age and might be easier to approach. They won't offer counselling etc themselves, but again they can provide you with details of anywhere else that can. And they're open overnight, so if you ever feel unsafe you can pop in and chat (they have biscuits too!) There's a list of all unis with Nightline here

I went to the counselling service on campus in my first year - that's where the woman said it was okay. There is a nightline on this campus, but can't they see who's ringing? I'd feel really... weird and ashamed. x

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EthelBloggs wrote: »

Thanks SF.. I hope you didn't cut too badly.. make sure you keep it clean cos my girlie has had to have swaps taken and put on a big dose of antibiotics because some of her cuts and burns don't look too healthy, even tho they're not very new.

I'm alright thanks Ethel, *hugs* I hope you're okay this morning and coping with all this that you've been landed with. I notice that you had put about something you did wrong when she was growing up - I'm sure its nothing to do with you. Most of the time, or at least for me, its because I'm so inadequate and useless. I could not have a better set of parents, my mum is amazing and so is my dad, and I'm sure she feels the same. x x

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EthelBloggs wrote: »

SF.. if the thought of going to A&E and waiting around for hours puts you off, ask your gp for an emergency card, you present it at reception and they whizz you through very quickly.

I never knew that, thanks for the information. x

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Tulip wrote: »

SF: Hope you can get some help as well for yourself take it easy

today I am seeing my physcologist and then I have got some ironing to do

Have a lovely day everyone


love and light,

Katie xxx

Thanks Katie, I hope you have a good day x x

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Sazbo wrote: »

SF - how are you today? Thinking of you and hoping you get the support you really deserve. You've been through a lot recently hun, go easy on yourself ok? big hugs x

Good morning I'm alright today, though my arm's a little sore. my own fault though :mad: thanks. *hugs* I'll be okay, I always am x x

feelinggood_2

Morning All.

Nice to see you SF. What are your plans for today? The emergency card for the Doctor sounds like a good idea - I was waiting at A&E for several hours once, in the end I just went home. I've not cut for 10 months, but I still get really bad urges, and I still do other self-harming behaviours. It is a very difficult thing to get away from, but it is possible. I know that I've got to keep a lid on the SH, because if I don't, I'll end up drinking. If I end up drinking, I'll die.

I'm so up and down these days, its really hard to cope with. I'm not sure if its a good thing or not lol. Really hope the CMHT get in touch soon.

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feelinggood wrote: »

Morning All.

Nice to see you SF. What are your plans for today? The emergency card for the Doctor sounds like a good idea - I was waiting at A&E for several hours once, in the end I just went home. I've not cut for 10 months, but I still get really bad urges, and I still do other self-harming behaviours. It is a very difficult thing to get away from, but it is possible. I know that I've got to keep a lid on the SH, because if I don't, I'll end up drinking. If I end up drinking, I'll die.

I'm so up and down these days, its really hard to cope with. I'm not sure if its a good thing or not lol. Really hope the CMHT get in touch soon.

Hello feelinggood I am meeting a friend for lunch and then I need to go to the library for some books to do with my dissertation. How are you today? 10 months is a very impressive accomplishment! You should be proud of that :T I hope that maybe one day I'll be able to say the same. who knows I hope you have a good day. x x

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slowlyfading wrote: »

Hello feelinggood I am meeting a friend for lunch and then I need to go to the library for some books to do with my dissertation. How are you today? 10 months is a very impressive accomplishment! You should be proud of that :T I hope that maybe one day I'll be able to say the same. who knows I hope you have a good day. x x

I'm alright today. Not unhappy as such, just a weird feeling of unease. Don't have anything to do today, so I think I'll have a day off.

Enjoy seeing your friend

dawnylou

Morning - first of all I want to apologise fornot being around so much!
I do care about you all and I have been thinking about you all & I have been popping on in between naps.
However I have been slowly getting a little bit worse each day and have therefore not really felt up to replying. Sowwy! x

Gillette - I hope your head is ok now! Good on you for trying so heard to remain positive, I hope that you can keep this up! x

Feelinggood - I hope you are feeling good today! I hope that the recommendation for your meds turns out to be for the best and hope it works wonders for you. Well done on your weight loss too!! :T x

Tulip - I hope some of your luck rubs off on me! I have been entering comps like crazy and have yet to win anything! I got a parcel yesterday and was convinced it was a win - but it was a freebie. Oh well I'm sure my time will come! Fingers crossed for a wii for you though! Well done on your decision, that was indeed a huge decision to make and I know exactly how you must feel with regards to making a decision as I can't even make one as simple as what flavour slim fast to have for my lunch!:o I am glad that you enjoyed your birthday meal! x

Juno - I am so sorry that you have had a slight lapse, but don't beat yourself up over it otherwise things will be ten times worse - just focus on each day as it comes! It is very hard to stop once you start. I managed to stop myself after just 2 glasses of wine on Saturday and was very proud of myself, but it wasn't that I had great willpower at all! And I did then have a disaronna before bed! :eek: x

BMF - With regards to your meal, after you have been for your posh do you could make a point of telling everyone how much fun it was and how you never expected to enjoy it so much and they might still go ahead with your birthday meal if that's what they were planning? Or make on you have no idea think of something you would really enjoy but that they would enjoy too and suggest it? x

Tiff - I still cannot believe what a wonderfully strong woman you are! I do hope that you are well. I just wish I could cope half as well as you! You are like Wonder Woman to me! :T x

Pills - I am sorry that I wasn't around when you needed support. It looks like everything will be fine for you now though and I am very happy for you! x

Geminilady - I hope you manage to resolve your problems with your friend - we all need friends so badly. However I see everyone here as a circle of friends for me and I find at times that can really help. x

Rose - The above applies to you too huni. x

Ethel - I am glad you enjoyed having some 'me-time'. I wish I could.
I always have such plans when I am going to be alone, but lately can't be bothered. Also I am sure that your daughter is in the right place, things can only get better if she is now recognising those feelings and is prepared to take action against them. x

Consnmattsmom - I only had citalopram for 2 weeks. In that time the only side effects I seemed to have were constant yawning and terrible headaches. Everyone is different though and everyone will react differently to meds. Sweating was listed as a side effect though. As for being tired - not sure if that is a side effect or not, I seem to feel tired all of the time lately... x

RBK - I hope that you feel a bit better after having a little bit of a break. x

Ilovegreatdanes - I am glad to read that you have been feeling cheerful! And you certainly seem to have been very productive! I only wish I could haul my a$$ off the couch/bed I lay on every day! :rotfl:x

Sazzy - I hope you get your sleeping pattern back again. Theres nothing worse! I used to drink Horlicks when I was younger, and slept quite well back then.... might be worth a try? x

SF - I am so sorry that you felt the need to self harm. I wish there was something I could do for you sweetheart. I pray that you will get through this. And please don't think of yourself as being useless - you are a very special, unique individual. x

To anyone not mentioned above :hello:
I hope you are all well.



As for me...
I haven't been posting as I have been feeling very low. I was prescribed Citalopram and given a 2 week sicknote to let them take effect.
Unfortunately it looks as if this was not the best medication for me. Not only did I sleep constantly but I got the most terrible headaches - it literally felt as if my brain was being crushed!
I have now been off for 3 weeks as I had a weeks holiday booked in too for my birthday. In those 3 weeks I have tried as hard as possible to not leave the house. I just feel so anxious about seeing people, having to talk to people etc. I don't know if this is because I am not able to control my emotions and so am afraid of an outburst? I am not sure.
I went back to the doctors on Friday and felt so panicky waiting to be seen. My heart was racing and I felt I would burst into tears at any moment - I nearly ran out!
Anyway she said the headaches sound like stress headaches, but could be a side effect and so she advised she would prefer to try me on fluoxetine (sp?) instead.
I started these on Saturday and so far am unable to tell if these pills will help. I also have been given another 2 week sicknote. I am glad as I seriously don't feel as if I can cope at work just now.

My typical day now seems to be wake up, have breakfast, nap. Wake up browse forums, drink my slimfast, nap. Wake up, browse forums again, maybe nap - make tea, watch TV with Fiance, bed.
This is basically it every day. I know it sounds disgusting and pathetic but I don't wash, I don't go out. I don't do anything. I just lie here all day like some pathetic, lazy cow. And yet I don't feel able to change that.

I sit in silence every day - no TV or radio. Fiance puts TV on when he gets in from work. I dread that the doorbell might go, or the phone might ring and I have to actually deal with someone.

It is ridiculous - but I feel as if I can't do anything unless my Fiance is holding my hand!

We went out on Saturday - just to a friends. I felt like I was freaking out. I couldn't relax or enjoy myself and my heart kept going dead fast. I couldn't wait to get home.

I just don't know what on earth is happening to me - or what I can do to fix it?

I am on a waiting list to see a psychologist - but that could take up to a year I have been warned.

Is anybody here on fluoxetine? If so is it helpful? Would you recommend it?
Can you drink on these? It doesn't mention it on the leaflet, but want to be sure....

Also those of you seeing a psychologist at the moment - is this helpful? Would you recommend it? Do you feel as if you are betraying those closest to you by going elsewhere to chat? What sort of things are you expected to chat about? What happens with all of the info that you do chat about? Is it passed onto anyone else? Will a psychologist maybe contact police or other officials if they feel they should without your permission?

Sorry to suddently through all of this at you all, but I am turmoil at the moment and very confused.

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dawnylou wrote: »

SF - I am so sorry that you felt the need to self harm. I wish there was something I could do for you sweetheart. I pray that you will get through this. And please don't think of yourself as being useless - you are a very special, unique individual. x

thanks for your kind words - i am alright and i will get through this *hugs*

Also those of you seeing a psychologist at the moment - is this helpful? Would you recommend it? Do you feel as if you are betraying those closest to you by going elsewhere to chat? What sort of things are you expected to chat about? What happens with all of the info that you do chat about? Is it passed onto anyone else? Will a psychologist maybe contact police or other officials if they feel they should without your permission?

Sorry to suddently through all of this at you all, but I am turmoil at the moment and very confused.

I dont know what to suggest about all the stuff you're going through - I have never been on medication for anything so I dont know about side effects or anything. *hugs* sounds like you're having a rough time though. When I went to a counseller, they just ask you questions, mainly about yourself and then pick up on things that bother you or whatever. It shouldn't be passed on to anyone else, nor should they ring the police or anyone else without your permission. I dont know if its about betraying those close to you, or just being able to talk to someone outside of the situation who can help you through emotions and feelings that you wouldn't be able to talk about otherwise. I guess it depends on how you look at it!
Sending *big hugs* your way. I feel so silly for being in such a mess when there are other people out here who are clearly hurting more than I am. Keep that chin up.
sf xx