Depression Support Thread

feelinggood_2

Morning all

I've been feeling a little low the past couple of days. Know that I've started having a few good days, the bad days seem a bit worse. Hopefully the stressful period will end soon. I'm awaiting delivery of a printer today, and thats the last of the buisness start up expenses. Just got to wait for some money to be made now! I'm not actually involved with the buisness, I'd loose my benefit if I did, and I'd quite like to keep it in the hope that they might offer me some help somewhere along the line. I'm looking forward to when things start to feel a bit more normal. Still no call from the CMHT, she said she'd phone me in a week to let me know what they've decided, but its been 10 days. The lettings agent was suppose to inspect the house 2 weeks ago. He didn't turn up, and I've recieved no email, letter, phone call or apology. I'd be very annoyed had I had to take the day off. I've actually phoned them twice about a different matter, and they've not mentioned it. I'm not going to mention it either, if I can get out of it I will!

Hope everyone is okay.

Tulip

:hello: Everyone,
After debating for days since I asked for a support worker I finally decided last night not to go ahead and I cried and cried while chatting to mum and dad about it last night on the phone.I feel a lot better today,rang my community nurse to tell her I was cancelling it for tomorrow and told her why that was.
I then rang the support people to inform them and to let the person know not to come tomorrow morning at 11am.I feel so relieved now,I was upset when I woke up when chatting to my community nurse and then crying when chatting to mum and dad.I find making decisions hard but I feel now that the decision I have made is the right one for me,I wont be asking next saturday for support ether as I can support myself with my parents help if needs be.

love and light,

Katie

ilovegreatdanes

hi feelie,
im sorry youre not feeling great.hope all goes well with the business.its so annoying when ppl promised to call or do stuff then dont, and even worse when they cant be ar*ed to let you know.common curtesy.
could you fone the cmht, then at least you would know what they were goin to do.
you know how i feel re the ups and downs, as you were there for me when i felt low.i know what you mean about the good days.atm im feeling happier but its more scarey in a way cos you always wonder ,if the ups are this good then whats the downside gonna be like?
im deffo tryin to be positive but its so hard, as when one thing goes wrong,it seems to start a chain like fallin dominos, so im not dwellin on it.
anyway,im thinkin of you and am sure you are over the worst.
god bless.
love julie xx

feelinggood_2

Can I ask why you don't want a support person at the moment Katie? I hope that doesn't sound like a nasty question, I'm just interested

I know what you mean about finding descision hard - quite a lot of the time my mind just won't allow me to make descisions. Not good when OH is asking me wether we should sell the house for this price, and lots of buisness questions! Even little things like what to have for breakfast is quite hard sometimes.

Hope you have a nice day, what are your plans?

ilovegreatdanes

hi tulip,
am sured you have made the right choice for you as you seem to be relieved about it and i think thats a good sign.your mum and dad sound really great and think they are always our best support cos they know us so well, and we are not embarred infront of them or anything, iykwim.am proud of you for taking control of your decision and think it will make you a stronger person, so well done.
we are always here for you as well.
god bless.
love julie xx

feelinggood_2

Hi Julie

Unfortunately the woman I saw didn't say if I was allowed to phone the team. I'm due to go back to the doctors in a fortnight, so if I haven't heard anything by then, my Doc should be able to chase it up. I just want to know if I need to come of the current medication. Every day I'm on them is a day further away from finding the right medication. Chances are its going to take a long time to come of these so I want to get started.

Well done you for trying to be positive. OH always tells me things like 'think positive', 'don't worry about that' and stuff. The think is, I don't know how not to think like I think. I think I messed myself up pretty bad during ages 11-18, so my mind doesn't work very well. I've got to learn everything that I should have learnt then, without a drink!

Thank you for your nice post Its a comfort just to hear that people understand! Nice to know I'm not the only one.

ilovegreatdanes

feelie,
tbh, im glad the 11-18 years are over for me, cos i dont think anyone enjoys it really.its all hormones and think its one of the hardest times of our lives.re the med....another fortnight is not long cos hopefully it has been a help to you, but i know that no one wants to be on med,so i understand what you mean.might be dangerous to just stop it though.can you get a quicker appointment with your gp?we have appointments but they also take extras in the morning and i go and wait for a slot, cos lots of ppl dont turn up for their app.

feelinggood_2

ilovegreatdanes wrote: »

feelie,
tbh, im glad the 11-18 years are over for me, cos i dont think anyone enjoys it really.its all hormones and think its one of the hardest times of our lives.re the med....another fortnight is not long cos hopefully it has been a help to you, but i know that no one wants to be on med,so i understand what you mean.might be dangerous to just stop it though.can you get a quicker appointment with your gp?we have appointments but they also take extras in the morning and i go and wait for a slot, cos lots of ppl dont turn up for their app.

I asked my GP a couple of weeks ago if I could stop taking them, but she said that she can't agree to that without the psychiatrists say so, due to me having had several bad experiences with meds. So its a case of waiting for the psychiatrist to recommend a course of action. These meds haven't helped at all, the only think they've done is upset my stomach and give me heartburn! Hopefully the psychiatrist can recommend something else to try, most people seem to find meds really helpful, but mine have done nothing but damage!

Most of my problems started at about 11, then got a lot worse at 12. The thing is, I've been miserable as long as I can remember. My Mum agrees that I wasn't a happy child. Maybe this is just me! Were you a happy child?

ilovegreatdanes

i think i had a happy childhood then i hear others describe theirs and i think ,not that happy really.ordinary, if that makes any sense.my dad was an alcoholic and although he worked, my mum would have to go with him on payday to get the wages or hed spend it all on bandits and drinks.she worked all hours so grandma brought us up.seemed always to be old for my age.we all reacted diff to mum and dads divorce and i prob took it best out of us all.when you are young ,dont think you understand about adult suffering til you get older.parents were never into kissing kids and showing affection so make a point with my ds.always kiss mum bye when i see her.first time she looked at me strange but is ok now.
we were not a close family but enjoyed my growin up.

gillette147

Hi all (and BigMum),

Well I priced myself out of the one job and am still here at the first one.
Remembering that verbal promises are only worth the paper they are written on - I have been told that a permanent role may be sorted out by the end of next week. And they have asked me if I would like to be trained up to be a CMD-Cordinator. This is a higher paid job that I am in (or will be) but with it comes more stress. I said yes.

My head has been hurting this week with the enormity of the task here. TFI Friday.

I can sense that I am on the edge of getting depressed. Three weeks of being at work and in public has been ok but now it is having a delayed effect on me. I am trying to stay optimistic and focussed but I am swan like. The feet are going like crazy.

Have a great weekend you lot.
Loads of love
xxx