Lilt and Jellytots most excellent adventure...

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Lobbyludd I don't think it sounds like a cliche, and it's what I would have written too, so Lilt if you are giving out slaps with wet kippers I'll have to stand in line behind lobby!

You have come through a very tough time and you are keeping it all together so you are absolutely marvellous. That said, you are entitled to feel sad about the situation, to be fair it's not exactly what you would have chosen for you and Jelly is it? I hope you do feel better after a sleep, but if you don't that's ok, just let it out. I find if I bottle things up they swell into humungous proportions and then become a much bigger problem to deal with.

Keep plodding, and give that gorgeous girl of yours a big squeeze! Xx

hohum

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Thanks girls!! Veronica I love kittens too & jellytot borders on obsessive about anything cat shaped. Loves them so much hahahaha! The two together is a sight to behold. Have a video of her somewhere repeatedly pressing my MIL's cats nose and saying "BEEP!"

I don't do Brad Pitt. More of a Jason Statham kinda girl! Lol.

Re my Pop, I know it's a good age but it's been 15 years since I have had to confront a death in my family and it's not nice being given advanced warning of it's imminence when you're too far away to do anything. I don't think I would want to live that long! His wife, my nanny is 86 too and has dementia. It's not a fun age it would seem. In my gene pool anyway!

Hello I came across your diary and read avidly - you have a great writing style and I like to hear of your tales of jellytot and...fabric conditioner?

I was moved to comment as we lost my grandfather aged 87, he'd been ill for some time and had spent the previous 30 years really making the most of enjoying his life. But I still feel his loss and think about him...and tbh when someone said 'oh he's had a long life' when we thought we'd lose him the first time I wanted to punch them in the face. Because you are never ready, even when you should be!

Of course it's certainly different when someone goes at that age, having made the most of the time they had. Be kind to yourself and family. It's OK to be completely cut up about it and sometimes that might surface in really random ways (I left important things everywhere - on buses, in cafes, at friends houses).

And....I know it's not MSE but I really would think about finding a way to go see him. I saw my grandfather a few months before he died and although it was sad how much he had diminished, I had his face fresh to replay in my memories of him and I value it. If it's really not possible...write him a card, a letter or get a relative to help him to skype with you!

killerpeaty

I'm sorry to hear about your pop lilt. In my experience, when someone is dying I always feel helpless over it.

Well done on the implant, I got one 6 months ago, it is a great invention. I have small issues with it but totally worth it!

Much love for the positiveness!:T

MagicCat

Hi Lilt,

Hope you don't mind me popping in - just to thank you for your comments on NSK's June Challenge.

I've been reading through your diary and catching up - I'm really sorry to hear things are difficult for you at the moment, you seem such a kind and caring person (not that that stops **** happening to people, but it should do!) and I hope things start feeling a bit better for you soon. My grandad is in the last stages of Parkinsons' so I'm so sorry to hear about your Pop - it's really hard, even when logically you know you will lose them 'sometime', to know that 'sometime' is soon.

And I agree with everyone, Jelly is a little cutie!

Take care - will keep reading if that's OK, but bye for now.

liltdiddylilt

WELL!

I tried and failed to link to all of your lovely positive messages. Hello new peoples and welcome. I appreciate all of your thoughts - anyone who takes the time to write to me and try and cheer me up/spur me on is definitely not deserving of a wet kipper!! (I'm not sure I know what a kipper is.. I think a fish?!?)

I am feeling a tad better today, although still like someone has pushed a go-slow button on my emotions. Thanks for the comments re my Pop. I'm sorry for anyone who has been through losing someone, or is going through the process now (Parkinsons must be terrible to watch) - I think it hits hard as his wife (also 86) has dementia and her poor health has contributed to his stress levels, much as my mum strives to pick up the pieces. He is worried about leaving her. Mum is a mess, my big sister is a mess, and worst yet, I realised my younger sister doesn't know that he is dying.... or that he is even still alive. No contact from her since 2009.

Work was ridiculously busy for about the 8th week running now. My mini-meltdown of 2 weeks ago has got results though and I am at least given the time I need to concentrate on the jobs I say are important (they are; they just get ignored by management until it is too late and I sit on the floor in tears!) rather than a million and one new things...

Took my bandage off my implant this evening as it had reached stupid levels of itchiness due to healing. It feels better but I keep bashing the stitches. The stuff us womenfolk go through eh?

Hope everyone is ok. I can't sleep so thought I would come and update!

please-let-me-be-lucky

I can't sleep either (DH's fault) so I came on here to browse! Glad you are feeling a tad brighter.

Yes, a kipper is a fish .

Work sounds poor, no wonder you are down along with everything else going on too. Take care you Xx

liltdiddylilt

Awwh thanks for looking out for me Lucky. Did I ever tell you, you deserve more than you have gotten in this world yet? If I could pick a star you would be the first person I thought to give it to!

Ah, I may have to look for a kipper in th supermarket and give it a try. I love fish. Jellytot did, she was basically weaned onto smoked haddock from babyrice and LOVED it. Nowadays she looks at me like I am bonkers if I try to give her that. Yesterday in a fit of panic that I didn't have her 'usual' foods (or in fact any food!) in the house, I made her hot dog bolognese and pasta. Yep, you read it right. Not only did I truly make this but it is the first time she has sat and cleared a dinner plate in weeks! She obviously has her fathers lack of tastebuds. As I had the sauce left, tonight she had bacon bolognese with pasta, sweetcorn and peas. She ate a lot of that too and then stole my hard boiled egg. :A lol.

Feeling alright today. I cleaned up the house over this weekend, including cleaning the oven amd moving all of the living room furniture and rearranging. That always makes me feel better. Like knowing the laminate under the sofa is clean for once helps my brain to relax.

I have been sleeping terribly. Finding it hard to get to sleep until well after midnight. So I have been drinking peppermint tea this afternoon. I've gone off normal tea and coffee until 7-8pm is obviously not going to be helping. Tonight I have also had a soy hot chocolate:) nom! Hoping for a better nights sleep but it is 20 to 10 and I'm not even vaguely tired.

Jellytot must be growing. She is nearly 2 and a quarter already, but she seems impossible to fill up & slept for 14 straight hours the last 2 nights. 9am wake up this morning, was SO nice...

Work is not great but I count myself lucky that I am very good at what I do and find it enjoyable for the most part. And I only have to work Weds to Friday so I have 2 extra days on most working folks.

I need to write a little list here. It is my 'wants' for the near future:
1. second lamp for the living room
2. new chopping boards
3. rug for the living room
4. laundry basket
5. new curtains for Jelly's bedroom (and a new curtainrail!)
6. new ironing board to replace the decrepit hand-me-down one my mum gave me that is almost my age
6. paint to decorate Jelly's room
7. new bath mat for the bathroom, and eventually towel replacement!

Ok think I am done. I've downloaded YNAB on recommendation but have yet to activate the trial. I am mainly reading up on it right now and planning so that I can use it properly before I waste days of my trial figuring it out!

My peace lily is growing mushrooms :eek: - really need to sort it out!

NinjaSavingKat

Hello beautiful lady.... just clicked on Jellytot. What a little beauty! And those curls! Her little face has made my evening.. I will be catching up tomorrow properly with your thread. Sorry I have been awol.. big hugs to you! x

liltdiddylilt

Well hello there lovely Kat. Thanks, I think she's a cutie but, ya know.. I am a bit biased! Don't worry about popping in. I am always amazing by your posting abilities considering how busy you permanently are and how many threads you are actively running/taking part in!

Right, what do I have to tell you about my day?

Lobbyludd - You inspired me! I spent the day in the kitchen. I turned a quarter of a pack of mince into some delicious bolognese for jellytot, with pasta spirals. She ate it well until she decided to colour the floor in with it.

I also made: (Kat cover your eyes)
1. Hunters Chicken Stew. So a chicken breast, 2 sausages and 4 rashers of bacon, plus honey, wholegrain mustard, half a bottle of cider (that has been sat on the shelf for over 4 years :eek:) rosemary, thyme, onion, courgette and a third of a pot of creme fraiche to finish it off. Carrot and potato mash and a mountain of peas to finish off. Lovely.
2. Chicken with onions and baby mushrooms. This is one of my all time favourites. A tiny bit of salt added but that is it for ingredients. So tasty! Him doesn't like mushrooms so all for me this week!!
3. This is still cooking, yet to be tasted, and I have totally forgotten what it is called. It's a filipino dish (adobo) adapted for the slow cooker. Chicken portions (2 huge breasts cut in half in my world) with onions, soy sauce, apple cider vinegar, garlic, brown sugar, black pepper, paprika, and once the chicken has cooked, add in a huge spinach and bok choi mountain to wilt for 10 minutes while the rice cooks.

All in all, a good days cooking, which should last me a few days. Some portions can be frozen etc. Most of it is not jellytot safe, aka she only eats it if it is a certain shape and flavour, and can't have any dairy which rules out the hunters chicken.

Otherwise, I've not started YNAB yet having spent the day with my in laws, then cooking endlessly and then eating! I have signed up for emails and an online class for it though, prior to starting the free trial. Need to hit the ground running!

Off to find out if Kat has a July challenge. My groceries bill was over £100 this week :eek::eek::eek::eek:

please-let-me-be-lucky

Hey lovely lady, just catching up. Thank you so much for the star comment :A.

Hope you've been sleeping better, certainly sounds like you've been eating well!! If HIM doesn't like mushrooms then I vote you put mushrooms in everything :rotfl: Xx