Buffy's 100 Day Challenge :)

kissjenn

There are some great guys out there.

I think I'm at a place (or just lazy) where making decisions just for me is so much easier than constant ego massaging.

This us the first time since I wax about 16 I've not been hooked up with someone. I'm very happy :T

Buffythedebtslayer

Not feeling so great tonight. All serious things a foot and do not like it.

I have an online friend who is suffering from depression and she is worrying me. I don't think she would do anything stupid, as much as you can tell these things. The thing is I have known her for a long time now and she isn't getting any better. I appreciate that some people don't think I get any better - still at home still in debt, but I do obviously choose to do things differently and look at life differently. I know for example I actually take pleasure from things, my hobbies, see my friends, paid off 25,000 and now have 5,000 ish of planned debt at 0%, a couple of small investments (very small!!), am saving.

I am back to making plans, I have dated, I am trying new things. It is for me all about babysteps and a very solid clear idea that this recovery is from me and is real.

The reason why I am so concerned about my friend is that she doesn't seem to be making any kind of progress, doc has upped her meds and she is just a bag of nerves. She has had depression far longer and has struggled a great deal. I suppose at least with me I have always felt my job, my friends, my family and my pets have made life worth it. She seems now to seem weighed down by everything. She doesn't work and just sits at home with the tv......

just rambling now and giving myself a headache.

today is going to be a NSD providing I can resist Amazon. Thing is I do need Gerbil food.

going to "do" something to take my mind off of things.

XXX

boredofbeingathome

It's hard when you worry so much about folk-i also think sometimes that we immerse ourselves far more deeply when 'online' as we become very attuned to that person.

You are quite right in saying that it is a mindset-I know myself that i have been very low at times and deeply depressed about situations. Talking helps, alternative views help as well-but the best thing for me was having friends who were there for me. Not always physically, being there online is very helpful. Just knowing someone cares is enough. A 'hello' or 'just checking in with you ' is a wonderful uplift.

I suppose in real life, we get so used to putting a mask on and coping. It is what is expected sometimes. Heck, i found myself lying to my doctor saying i was ok and didn't feel as bad, because it was expected of me. I thought that if i said it often enough it would be true.

So keep on doing what you do-let your friend know you are thinking of her. I am sure bit by bit she will get a few coping strategies and come out the other end.

Hope that helps. x

Buffythedebtslayer

boredofbeingathome wrote: »

It's hard when you worry so much about folk-i also think sometimes that we immerse ourselves far more deeply when 'online' as we become very attuned to that person.

You are quite right in saying that it is a mindset-I know myself that i have been very low at times and deeply depressed about situations. Talking helps, alternative views help as well-but the best thing for me was having friends who were there for me. Not always physically, being there online is very helpful. Just knowing someone cares is enough. A 'hello' or 'just checking in with you ' is a wonderful uplift.

I suppose in real life, we get so used to putting a mask on and coping. It is what is expected sometimes. Heck, i found myself lying to my doctor saying i was ok and didn't feel as bad, because it was expected of me. I thought that if i said it often enough it would be true.

So keep on doing what you do-let your friend know you are thinking of her. I am sure bit by bit she will get a few coping strategies and come out the other end.

Hope that helps. x

have missed you Bob XX excellent advice. I shall keep on being there for her.

XXX

Buffythedebtslayer

I got a job offer today, 6 month contract. if I weren't so tired I would be doing this :j

However I am instead yawning with a small grin on my face.

it means better pay, it does mean more stress but it just isn't the same sort of place as before so I think I will do ok.

I think. you can never tell but it is for six months, which means debts can be paid and savings can be made.

XX

Shoe_Gal

Fab news Buffy! :j:j:j for you!

Buffythedebtslayer

Well..............I am on strike.

Looking at the news coverage apparently my right to withdraw my labour in protest at the conditions I am working in is not as important as a parents' right to compensation for not having childcare for the day. So teachers under contract are just supposed to work themselves into bloody heart attacks under constantly changing conditions +contracts and lower pensions(when our contribution has increased) just so you can keep going to work? and don't have to be inconvenienced? so your job (and your childcare) is more important than mine? I know it must be difficult and I am sorry but we do have rights as well.

Really makes me quite despairing and adds to the list of reasons why I won't stay in this job in this country for the rest of my life. I know other places are the same but I think I wouldn't feel so disappointed elsewhere.

Jodie Marsh is a prat and I love Matthew Wright.

Go Yasmin!! you tell her!

please-let-me-be-lucky

Congrats on the new job :j:T:beer:.

The problem with folk is that some of them can't see past their own noses. Of course teachers have as much right as everyone else. Xx

Buffythedebtslayer

Could rant for England this morning!

well this afternoon now.

watching Loose women.

blimey what depths !!!

we live in a REALLY weird world. Not just informed by my watching of day time TV. well a bit.

the adverts, people's expectations. the complicated list of demands on our time, the ready meal the quick clean up cleaner, the supplements, next day delivery for free.


would like to escape all this.

Do you know programmes like Loose Women and The Wright Stuff gave more time to the strike than the News.

There is a blonde woman on tv who makes some sense. That is something I suppose.

xx

Pooky

This is why I don't watch TV. I spend my time doing things that make me happy instead. When I do watch a programme, it's recorded and I watch that and only that. I gave up on TV news ages ago, just pick up the headlines online.

Great news on the new job