Just need to get this all of my chest

Faith177

Getting to the point now where I don't know how much longer I can go on for

Why can't I be normal what's wrong with me!

I'm sick of my life I'm in a rut that I just can't seem to pull myself out of it and its bringing me further and further down and I hate it.

I feel lonely all the time I don't seem to have many if any friends.

I go home every night to an empty house which to be totally honest is a mess most of the time. I just can't seem to summon up the strength to stay on top of all the things that need doing.

I just feel like everything is going wrong all the time and I stumble from one crisis to another.

I am always tired and find sleeping difficult.

I try to improve myself but just can't seem to stick at it. I feel like everyone looks down at me so I just keep myself to myself.

I'm paranoid all the time and worry if someone knocks on my door in case it is someone who wants to moan at me about something.

I just want to shut myself away as I think people would be better off without me pretty much all the time.

I just hate myself so much at times but I can't seem to pull myself out of it.

Sorry for the long post but I just had to get this out and I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it.

fluffnutter

You're depressed! Get to the quack's. Sorry to not post a longer reply, but seriously, there's nothing else to say.

fluffnutter

Out of interest, your sig says you got married in April this year. Yet you 'come home to an empty house'. Did things not work out?

Faith177

fluffnutter wrote: »

Out of interest, your sig says you got married in April this year. Yet you 'come home to an empty house'. Did things not work out?

Other half works away he is only back 1 night a week if I'm lucky

flutterby_lil

What do you do as a couple? What about family near you? Children?

fluffnutter

Faith177 wrote: »

Other half works away he is only back 1 night a week if I'm lucky

That must be hard. What does he think about how you feel? Have you talked to him?

Faith177

fluffnutter wrote: »

That must be hard. What does he think about how you feel? Have you talked to him?

I don't like to bother him as I know he finds it tough being way anyway so I just pretend everything is ok to spare him

jackieblack

http://www.nhs.uk/Conditions/Depression/Pages/Introduction.aspx

http://www.mind.org.uk/mental_health_a-z/7980_understanding_depression?gclid=CKGrmurJp7gCFYPHtAod13wAsQ

http://www.mentalhealth.org.uk/help-information/mental-health-a-z/D/depression/

Have a read, then make a GP appointment

Faith177

flutterby_lil wrote: »

What do you do as a couple? What about family near you? Children?

When he is home he just wants to catch up sleep he's lost while at work and we'll go do a big shop as I don't drive so can't do big shops on my own. Occasionally we'll go out for a meal if we have the money spare but mostly we don't do much

I have no family near me at all. My nearest is my Grandparents in Mansfield which is about 150 miles from me so again not driving means unless I spend a fortune on coaches I don't see them.

I don't have any children

jackieblack

Faith177 wrote: »

we'll go do a big shop as I don't drive so can't do big shops on my own.

Supermarkets deliver.
Don't waste any of the precious time you have together at the supermarket

fluffnutter

Faith177 wrote: »

I don't like to bother him as I know he finds it tough being way anyway so I just pretend everything is ok to spare him

I doubt that's helping your mood. Plus he might feel sad that you don't feel able to confide in him.